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What Is The Biggest Problem YOU Have Going On In Your Life Right Now That You Need Help With?

 
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Im a big guy, 6'2" 250lbs and kinda scary looking. I intimidate many people when I dont want too. My heart is soft and I would help everyone of you if I could. I don't NEED all that I have but haven't anyone to share with. I had a couple back surgerys and the only one I ever loved divorced me because she thought I was weak when I was down, I was weak and needed support but didn't get it.

The point is I wish I could help everyone of you.
 Quoting: TDJ


If that woman wasn't there to support you at the time you needed it, then really she wasn't good enough for you. It doesn't cost money to offer help and support or even i shoulder to cry on, and it was her weakness that made her walk away not yours.

I know how hard it is being alone, but sometimes its just as hard for those stuck in bad relationships with no way out.

I know its a cliche but he right person will come along and see how beautiful you are inside, bless you hfhf
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Thank you. I hope I don't run out of time
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I think i'm running out of time too, but we never know what the universe as in store, maybe the perfect person isn't that far off flowas
Better to live for today, than wait for a day that never comes.
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Wow, why this is on here at this moment for me to see is really something... I came on to get my mind off some things and found this thread.. well here goes..

I have 2 little boys, 4 and 7, who have been thru hell the last 3 years since I left their abusive father. Been from domestic violence shelter to hotel, back to the house(couldnt pay the hotel) where he hurt me again so the police took us back to the DV shelter, then got a job so I moved to a hotel again since I didnt make enough to get a place, then their father got me fired for showing up fighting, so I couldnt pay the hotel, wouldnt leave since I got the kids to think about so I went thru 5 months of back and forth for eviction, got my taxes right before the eviction date so I got a place in the beginning of february since I had just starting working and could pay it.

But 3 weeks ago they cut me down to 2 days a week because its too slow to continue to afford me for more days. So now I wont make rent on may 1st. I make 100 a week and half of that goes for gas. Cant afford anything my kids need since I have to save every dollar I get for rent. I sold everything I could to pay the electric last week. Have had to listen to my son practically crying because I had to pawn his psp to make the rest of the money for the electric but didnt tell him thats where it is so he thinks its lost in the house :( I have nothing left to sell. My 7 yr old has outgrown his school uniform and I cant afford the $15 a shirt or the shorts so his clothes for school are too small and they both need shoes desperately.

I hate that I cant afford basic things for them. I go without just so I can give to them but its not enough. I have done everything I can and its not enough. I have no help with them. Their dad wouldnt pay child support so he left and child support hasnt found him yet. I have no help to watch them so I can get just any job. I have to get a job where I get out at 5 every day so I could pick both up from school by 6 (if I put the baby in school, $130 a week, and the older one in aftercare, $100 a month) so I could work. My friend has off the 2 days I work so she watches him those days but thats all I have.

I have no family here to help me. I have family who could help me financially some but just dont. I am so screwed yet have to keep happy so my kids never know anything is wrong. Im tired of my son crying because he cant do things other kids can. I couldnt afford the $40 for his sea world field trip so he had to stay at school. The only one in his class :( He was devastated, he just doesnt understand. He tried to tell me that money is made of paper and we could just print some. Theres a legoland field trip in may thats another damn $40 that I cant afford and hes begging me to go with his class but i cant do it.

My rental office doesnt play and 3 days after rents due they start eviction if its not paid. I am so stressed I cant sleep. I have food money so at least they dont go without there. I have applied everywhere and sent my resume everywhere with no luck. My hours arent flexible so Im screwed. Im on a waiting list for 4c but have been on it for over a year already and still waiting. I will not take my kids to a shelter again. My older one overheard me on the phone say something about the shelter (to call to ask if they could help me with clothes for them, which they couldnt) and thought we were going back and starting crying like crazy saying he doesnt want to lose his room and live at the shelter again. I have an unbelievable amount of stress and I dont know how much longer I can handle it.

This has let me let out everything inside that I cant tell anyone else freely.. what a release.. thank you.. hope things get better for all of us.. please send extra prayers my way, not so much for me but for my sons~ Thank you~
 Quoting: A Mommy 5233107


Aww after reading that i felt like crying, and i wish so much that i could help.

If i was in your position i would honestly write some of this down when applying for jobs.(i've done it myself)

Please don't be to proud to beg hun, its only our ego and pride which is dented a little not your soul.

I'l be praying for a brighter future for you hf
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I kinda have~ I have wrote or told them "theres not many people out here who need a job as bad as I do. I have 2 little kids and have to make rent. I cant afford to be late or miss a day. I need the hours badly and will work hard to keep the job" .. but instead most rather hire teenagers who will work for minimum wage and can work nights even though they call in or be late alot. smh
 Quoting: A Mommy 5233107


A Mommy-what can people do to help you? What state are you in?
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Im a big guy, 6'2" 250lbs and kinda scary looking. I intimidate many people when I dont want too. My heart is soft and I would help everyone of you if I could. I don't NEED all that I have but haven't anyone to share with. I had a couple back surgerys and the only one I ever loved divorced me because she thought I was weak when I was down, I was weak and needed support but didn't get it.

The point is I wish I could help everyone of you.
 Quoting: TDJ


If that woman wasn't there to support you at the time you needed it, then really she wasn't good enough for you. It doesn't cost money to offer help and support or even i shoulder to cry on, and it was her weakness that made her walk away not yours.

I know how hard it is being alone, but sometimes its just as hard for those stuck in bad relationships with no way out.

I know its a cliche but he right person will come along and see how beautiful you are inside, bless you hfhf
 Quoting: Re-Named- 777


Thank you. I hope I don't run out of time
 Quoting: TDJ


I think i'm running out of time too, but we never know what the universe as in store, maybe the perfect person isn't that far off flowas
 Quoting: Re-Named- 777


I wish you luck. I will be ok either way. I have my four legged buddy.
If something can corrupt you, you're corrupted already.

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THOMAS PAINE (1737-1809)

Do not pray for an easy life, pray for the strength to endure a difficult one. Bruce Lee
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Wow, why this is on here at this moment for me to see is really something... I came on to get my mind off some things and found this thread.. well here goes..

I have 2 little boys, 4 and 7, who have been thru hell the last 3 years since I left their abusive father. Been from domestic violence shelter to hotel, back to the house(couldnt pay the hotel) where he hurt me again so the police took us back to the DV shelter, then got a job so I moved to a hotel again since I didnt make enough to get a place, then their father got me fired for showing up fighting, so I couldnt pay the hotel, wouldnt leave since I got the kids to think about so I went thru 5 months of back and forth for eviction, got my taxes right before the eviction date so I got a place in the beginning of february since I had just starting working and could pay it.

But 3 weeks ago they cut me down to 2 days a week because its too slow to continue to afford me for more days. So now I wont make rent on may 1st. I make 100 a week and half of that goes for gas. Cant afford anything my kids need since I have to save every dollar I get for rent. I sold everything I could to pay the electric last week. Have had to listen to my son practically crying because I had to pawn his psp to make the rest of the money for the electric but didnt tell him thats where it is so he thinks its lost in the house :( I have nothing left to sell. My 7 yr old has outgrown his school uniform and I cant afford the $15 a shirt or the shorts so his clothes for school are too small and they both need shoes desperately.

I hate that I cant afford basic things for them. I go without just so I can give to them but its not enough. I have done everything I can and its not enough. I have no help with them. Their dad wouldnt pay child support so he left and child support hasnt found him yet. I have no help to watch them so I can get just any job. I have to get a job where I get out at 5 every day so I could pick both up from school by 6 (if I put the baby in school, $130 a week, and the older one in aftercare, $100 a month) so I could work. My friend has off the 2 days I work so she watches him those days but thats all I have.

I have no family here to help me. I have family who could help me financially some but just dont. I am so screwed yet have to keep happy so my kids never know anything is wrong. Im tired of my son crying because he cant do things other kids can. I couldnt afford the $40 for his sea world field trip so he had to stay at school. The only one in his class :( He was devastated, he just doesnt understand. He tried to tell me that money is made of paper and we could just print some. Theres a legoland field trip in may thats another damn $40 that I cant afford and hes begging me to go with his class but i cant do it.

My rental office doesnt play and 3 days after rents due they start eviction if its not paid. I am so stressed I cant sleep. I have food money so at least they dont go without there. I have applied everywhere and sent my resume everywhere with no luck. My hours arent flexible so Im screwed. Im on a waiting list for 4c but have been on it for over a year already and still waiting. I will not take my kids to a shelter again. My older one overheard me on the phone say something about the shelter (to call to ask if they could help me with clothes for them, which they couldnt) and thought we were going back and starting crying like crazy saying he doesnt want to lose his room and live at the shelter again. I have an unbelievable amount of stress and I dont know how much longer I can handle it.

This has let me let out everything inside that I cant tell anyone else freely.. what a release.. thank you.. hope things get better for all of us.. please send extra prayers my way, not so much for me but for my sons~ Thank you~
 Quoting: A Mommy 5233107


Aww after reading that i felt like crying, and i wish so much that i could help.

If i was in your position i would honestly write some of this down when applying for jobs.(i've done it myself)

Please don't be to proud to beg hun, its only our ego and pride which is dented a little not your soul.

I'l be praying for a brighter future for you hf
 Quoting: Re-Named- 777


I kinda have~ I have wrote or told them "theres not many people out here who need a job as bad as I do. I have 2 little kids and have to make rent. I cant afford to be late or miss a day. I need the hours badly and will work hard to keep the job" .. but instead most rather hire teenagers who will work for minimum wage and can work nights even though they call in or be late alot. smh
 Quoting: A Mommy 5233107


A Mommy-what can people do to help you? What state are you in?
 Quoting: WVGAL 13268035


I can spare a little cash if she will send me her mailing address
If something can corrupt you, you're corrupted already.

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“The duty of a patriot is to protect his country from its government.”
THOMAS PAINE (1737-1809)

Do not pray for an easy life, pray for the strength to endure a difficult one. Bruce Lee
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Wow, why this is on here at this moment for me to see is really something... I came on to get my mind off some things and found this thread.. well here goes..

I have 2 little boys, 4 and 7, who have been thru hell the last 3 years since I left their abusive father. Been from domestic violence shelter to hotel, back to the house(couldnt pay the hotel) where he hurt me again so the police took us back to the DV shelter, then got a job so I moved to a hotel again since I didnt make enough to get a place, then their father got me fired for showing up fighting, so I couldnt pay the hotel, wouldnt leave since I got the kids to think about so I went thru 5 months of back and forth for eviction, got my taxes right before the eviction date so I got a place in the beginning of february since I had just starting working and could pay it.

But 3 weeks ago they cut me down to 2 days a week because its too slow to continue to afford me for more days. So now I wont make rent on may 1st. I make 100 a week and half of that goes for gas. Cant afford anything my kids need since I have to save every dollar I get for rent. I sold everything I could to pay the electric last week. Have had to listen to my son practically crying because I had to pawn his psp to make the rest of the money for the electric but didnt tell him thats where it is so he thinks its lost in the house :( I have nothing left to sell. My 7 yr old has outgrown his school uniform and I cant afford the $15 a shirt or the shorts so his clothes for school are too small and they both need shoes desperately.

I hate that I cant afford basic things for them. I go without just so I can give to them but its not enough. I have done everything I can and its not enough. I have no help with them. Their dad wouldnt pay child support so he left and child support hasnt found him yet. I have no help to watch them so I can get just any job. I have to get a job where I get out at 5 every day so I could pick both up from school by 6 (if I put the baby in school, $130 a week, and the older one in aftercare, $100 a month) so I could work. My friend has off the 2 days I work so she watches him those days but thats all I have.

I have no family here to help me. I have family who could help me financially some but just dont. I am so screwed yet have to keep happy so my kids never know anything is wrong. Im tired of my son crying because he cant do things other kids can. I couldnt afford the $40 for his sea world field trip so he had to stay at school. The only one in his class :( He was devastated, he just doesnt understand. He tried to tell me that money is made of paper and we could just print some. Theres a legoland field trip in may thats another damn $40 that I cant afford and hes begging me to go with his class but i cant do it.

My rental office doesnt play and 3 days after rents due they start eviction if its not paid. I am so stressed I cant sleep. I have food money so at least they dont go without there. I have applied everywhere and sent my resume everywhere with no luck. My hours arent flexible so Im screwed. Im on a waiting list for 4c but have been on it for over a year already and still waiting. I will not take my kids to a shelter again. My older one overheard me on the phone say something about the shelter (to call to ask if they could help me with clothes for them, which they couldnt) and thought we were going back and starting crying like crazy saying he doesnt want to lose his room and live at the shelter again. I have an unbelievable amount of stress and I dont know how much longer I can handle it.

This has let me let out everything inside that I cant tell anyone else freely.. what a release.. thank you.. hope things get better for all of us.. please send extra prayers my way, not so much for me but for my sons~ Thank you~
 Quoting: A Mommy 5233107


I'm so sorry that you found yourself in such a tough spot. i avoid this thread because it really hurts my heart. If I were near you I would try to help. The problem is you can't trust anyone anymore so I won't ever send money to someone.

Not an accusation at all but how did you get online?
 Quoting: TDJ


I work mondays and tuesdays only.. Im a receptionist and have a computer at work with internet. Thats why you guys never see or hear from me until mondays and tuesdays lol
 Quoting: A Mommy 5233107


What can we do to help?
 Quoting: TDJ


Honestly I really need a job. I rather get a good job I can support me and my kids with continually, then get a one time handout that gets me thru just the month :( I have learned to let people help me, even though Im independent and prefer to support myself. I would LOVE to make rent may 1st and pay the $120 I still owe for the power(i paid the minimum and was already past due last month when they added the rest of my deposit on the first bill which I forgot they would).

I have never had my own place. when I was with their dad we lived with their dads father, so this is my first place :) not much but its home to my kids and they love it after the last 3 years all 3 of us have been sleeping in one room, most of that was sharing a room with another lady and her child in the dv shelter, i slept on the bottom of a bunkbed with the baby and my older one was on top. So having their own room now is a huge thing even though I still sleep in there with them. They are used to me in the room and wake up freaking out if im not there. But we are working on that~ I will take any help I can get right now. I refuse to lose my kids home :( If you know anyone in kissimmee that can hook me up with a job that I could work 8-9am to 5pm, or part time that pays good money to make up enough for rent, PLEASE let me know. Im a hard worker. Have a college degree yet cant find a damn job in a dr office. I have worked in serving, child care, cashier, receptionist, house keeping, and am a quick learner. I will work anything really. I need the help bad so even though I know theres a some weirdos on here Ill give my email as a contact. Its mamibunni1224@aol.com. Thank you guys~

And I have some of their clothes and toys they outgrew that I havent been able to sell that I am willing to donate to anyone here that needs them :) I live in kissimmee florida
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Yes, I want to help. I was in your place kind of (mommy)(I do not claim to know how you feel, as I am not you but I relate)Hugs to you...
People are so awesome on here What can we do? Just think,even if we THINK we can do nothing to help, maybe one tiny thing from each of us would add up and then that would be big! I used to think I cannot help but I can-I just don't know how exactly-but let's do this for all who need help on this thread.
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Wow, why this is on here at this moment for me to see is really something... I came on to get my mind off some things and found this thread.. well here goes..

I have 2 little boys, 4 and 7, who have been thru hell the last 3 years since I left their abusive father. Been from domestic violence shelter to hotel, back to the house(couldnt pay the hotel) where he hurt me again so the police took us back to the DV shelter, then got a job so I moved to a hotel again since I didnt make enough to get a place, then their father got me fired for showing up fighting, so I couldnt pay the hotel, wouldnt leave since I got the kids to think about so I went thru 5 months of back and forth for eviction, got my taxes right before the eviction date so I got a place in the beginning of february since I had just starting working and could pay it.

But 3 weeks ago they cut me down to 2 days a week because its too slow to continue to afford me for more days. So now I wont make rent on may 1st. I make 100 a week and half of that goes for gas. Cant afford anything my kids need since I have to save every dollar I get for rent. I sold everything I could to pay the electric last week. Have had to listen to my son practically crying because I had to pawn his psp to make the rest of the money for the electric but didnt tell him thats where it is so he thinks its lost in the house :( I have nothing left to sell. My 7 yr old has outgrown his school uniform and I cant afford the $15 a shirt or the shorts so his clothes for school are too small and they both need shoes desperately.

I hate that I cant afford basic things for them. I go without just so I can give to them but its not enough. I have done everything I can and its not enough. I have no help with them. Their dad wouldnt pay child support so he left and child support hasnt found him yet. I have no help to watch them so I can get just any job. I have to get a job where I get out at 5 every day so I could pick both up from school by 6 (if I put the baby in school, $130 a week, and the older one in aftercare, $100 a month) so I could work. My friend has off the 2 days I work so she watches him those days but thats all I have.

I have no family here to help me. I have family who could help me financially some but just dont. I am so screwed yet have to keep happy so my kids never know anything is wrong. Im tired of my son crying because he cant do things other kids can. I couldnt afford the $40 for his sea world field trip so he had to stay at school. The only one in his class :( He was devastated, he just doesnt understand. He tried to tell me that money is made of paper and we could just print some. Theres a legoland field trip in may thats another damn $40 that I cant afford and hes begging me to go with his class but i cant do it.

My rental office doesnt play and 3 days after rents due they start eviction if its not paid. I am so stressed I cant sleep. I have food money so at least they dont go without there. I have applied everywhere and sent my resume everywhere with no luck. My hours arent flexible so Im screwed. Im on a waiting list for 4c but have been on it for over a year already and still waiting. I will not take my kids to a shelter again. My older one overheard me on the phone say something about the shelter (to call to ask if they could help me with clothes for them, which they couldnt) and thought we were going back and starting crying like crazy saying he doesnt want to lose his room and live at the shelter again. I have an unbelievable amount of stress and I dont know how much longer I can handle it.

This has let me let out everything inside that I cant tell anyone else freely.. what a release.. thank you.. hope things get better for all of us.. please send extra prayers my way, not so much for me but for my sons~ Thank you~
 Quoting: A Mommy 5233107


I come from a very abuse home with little money. One day your little ones will look at you and be so very proud that you made it- their lives will possibly be better for it in the long run.
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Wow, why this is on here at this moment for me to see is really something... I came on to get my mind off some things and found this thread.. well here goes..

I have 2 little boys, 4 and 7, who have been thru hell the last 3 years since I left their abusive father. Been from domestic violence shelter to hotel, back to the house(couldnt pay the hotel) where he hurt me again so the police took us back to the DV shelter, then got a job so I moved to a hotel again since I didnt make enough to get a place, then their father got me fired for showing up fighting, so I couldnt pay the hotel, wouldnt leave since I got the kids to think about so I went thru 5 months of back and forth for eviction, got my taxes right before the eviction date so I got a place in the beginning of february since I had just starting working and could pay it.

But 3 weeks ago they cut me down to 2 days a week because its too slow to continue to afford me for more days. So now I wont make rent on may 1st. I make 100 a week and half of that goes for gas. Cant afford anything my kids need since I have to save every dollar I get for rent. I sold everything I could to pay the electric last week. Have had to listen to my son practically crying because I had to pawn his psp to make the rest of the money for the electric but didnt tell him thats where it is so he thinks its lost in the house :( I have nothing left to sell. My 7 yr old has outgrown his school uniform and I cant afford the $15 a shirt or the shorts so his clothes for school are too small and they both need shoes desperately.

I hate that I cant afford basic things for them. I go without just so I can give to them but its not enough. I have done everything I can and its not enough. I have no help with them. Their dad wouldnt pay child support so he left and child support hasnt found him yet. I have no help to watch them so I can get just any job. I have to get a job where I get out at 5 every day so I could pick both up from school by 6 (if I put the baby in school, $130 a week, and the older one in aftercare, $100 a month) so I could work. My friend has off the 2 days I work so she watches him those days but thats all I have.

I have no family here to help me. I have family who could help me financially some but just dont. I am so screwed yet have to keep happy so my kids never know anything is wrong. Im tired of my son crying because he cant do things other kids can. I couldnt afford the $40 for his sea world field trip so he had to stay at school. The only one in his class :( He was devastated, he just doesnt understand. He tried to tell me that money is made of paper and we could just print some. Theres a legoland field trip in may thats another damn $40 that I cant afford and hes begging me to go with his class but i cant do it.

My rental office doesnt play and 3 days after rents due they start eviction if its not paid. I am so stressed I cant sleep. I have food money so at least they dont go without there. I have applied everywhere and sent my resume everywhere with no luck. My hours arent flexible so Im screwed. Im on a waiting list for 4c but have been on it for over a year already and still waiting. I will not take my kids to a shelter again. My older one overheard me on the phone say something about the shelter (to call to ask if they could help me with clothes for them, which they couldnt) and thought we were going back and starting crying like crazy saying he doesnt want to lose his room and live at the shelter again. I have an unbelievable amount of stress and I dont know how much longer I can handle it.

This has let me let out everything inside that I cant tell anyone else freely.. what a release.. thank you.. hope things get better for all of us.. please send extra prayers my way, not so much for me but for my sons~ Thank you~
 Quoting: A Mommy 5233107


I come from a very abuse home with little money. One day your little ones will look at you and be so very proud that you made it- their lives will possibly be better for it in the long run.
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Aww after reading that i felt like crying, and i wish so much that i could help.

If i was in your position i would honestly write some of this down when applying for jobs.(i've done it myself)

Please don't be to proud to beg hun, its only our ego and pride which is dented a little not your soul.

I'l be praying for a brighter future for you hf
 Quoting: Re-Named- 777


I kinda have~ I have wrote or told them "theres not many people out here who need a job as bad as I do. I have 2 little kids and have to make rent. I cant afford to be late or miss a day. I need the hours badly and will work hard to keep the job" .. but instead most rather hire teenagers who will work for minimum wage and can work nights even though they call in or be late alot. smh
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A Mommy-what can people do to help you? What state are you in?
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I can spare a little cash if she will send me her mailing address
 Quoting: TDJ


I emailed it to you.. Just worried giving the actual address since I have the kids :/ I gave it though so you would know im a real person not just scamming. i need the help desperately so Im taking the chance. Im in kissimmee florida.
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Wow, why this is on here at this moment for me to see is really something... I came on to get my mind off some things and found this thread.. well here goes..

I have 2 little boys, 4 and 7, who have been thru hell the last 3 years since I left their abusive father. Been from domestic violence shelter to hotel, back to the house(couldnt pay the hotel) where he hurt me again so the police took us back to the DV shelter, then got a job so I moved to a hotel again since I didnt make enough to get a place, then their father got me fired for showing up fighting, so I couldnt pay the hotel, wouldnt leave since I got the kids to think about so I went thru 5 months of back and forth for eviction, got my taxes right before the eviction date so I got a place in the beginning of february since I had just starting working and could pay it.

But 3 weeks ago they cut me down to 2 days a week because its too slow to continue to afford me for more days. So now I wont make rent on may 1st. I make 100 a week and half of that goes for gas. Cant afford anything my kids need since I have to save every dollar I get for rent. I sold everything I could to pay the electric last week. Have had to listen to my son practically crying because I had to pawn his psp to make the rest of the money for the electric but didnt tell him thats where it is so he thinks its lost in the house :( I have nothing left to sell. My 7 yr old has outgrown his school uniform and I cant afford the $15 a shirt or the shorts so his clothes for school are too small and they both need shoes desperately.

I hate that I cant afford basic things for them. I go without just so I can give to them but its not enough. I have done everything I can and its not enough. I have no help with them. Their dad wouldnt pay child support so he left and child support hasnt found him yet. I have no help to watch them so I can get just any job. I have to get a job where I get out at 5 every day so I could pick both up from school by 6 (if I put the baby in school, $130 a week, and the older one in aftercare, $100 a month) so I could work. My friend has off the 2 days I work so she watches him those days but thats all I have.

I have no family here to help me. I have family who could help me financially some but just dont. I am so screwed yet have to keep happy so my kids never know anything is wrong. Im tired of my son crying because he cant do things other kids can. I couldnt afford the $40 for his sea world field trip so he had to stay at school. The only one in his class :( He was devastated, he just doesnt understand. He tried to tell me that money is made of paper and we could just print some. Theres a legoland field trip in may thats another damn $40 that I cant afford and hes begging me to go with his class but i cant do it.

My rental office doesnt play and 3 days after rents due they start eviction if its not paid. I am so stressed I cant sleep. I have food money so at least they dont go without there. I have applied everywhere and sent my resume everywhere with no luck. My hours arent flexible so Im screwed. Im on a waiting list for 4c but have been on it for over a year already and still waiting. I will not take my kids to a shelter again. My older one overheard me on the phone say something about the shelter (to call to ask if they could help me with clothes for them, which they couldnt) and thought we were going back and starting crying like crazy saying he doesnt want to lose his room and live at the shelter again. I have an unbelievable amount of stress and I dont know how much longer I can handle it.

This has let me let out everything inside that I cant tell anyone else freely.. what a release.. thank you.. hope things get better for all of us.. please send extra prayers my way, not so much for me but for my sons~ Thank you~
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Aww after reading that i felt like crying, and i wish so much that i could help.

If i was in your position i would honestly write some of this down when applying for jobs.(i've done it myself)

Please don't be to proud to beg hun, its only our ego and pride which is dented a little not your soul.

I'l be praying for a brighter future for you hf
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I kinda have~ I have wrote or told them "theres not many people out here who need a job as bad as I do. I have 2 little kids and have to make rent. I cant afford to be late or miss a day. I need the hours badly and will work hard to keep the job" .. but instead most rather hire teenagers who will work for minimum wage and can work nights even though they call in or be late alot. smh
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A Mommy-what can people do to help you? What state are you in?
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Im in kissimmee florida.. I need any help anyone can give.. mostly I really need a job, if you know someone who can help me with that i would be extremely grateful :) Thank you
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Yes, I want to help. I was in your place kind of (mommy)(I do not claim to know how you feel, as I am not you but I relate)Hugs to you...
People are so awesome on here What can we do? Just think,even if we THINK we can do nothing to help, maybe one tiny thing from each of us would add up and then that would be big! I used to think I cannot help but I can-I just don't know how exactly-but let's do this for all who need help on this thread.
I will walk the talk.
All who feel so alone out there, please don't-we are herehf
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This actually made me cry... Thank you.. I think of that sometimes.. that when they are grown they will realise all i went thru and gave up for them to be happy and have a better life. I truly hope they do~ They are great kids inspite of everything they have been thru :(
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Aww after reading that i felt like crying, and i wish so much that i could help.

If i was in your position i would honestly write some of this down when applying for jobs.(i've done it myself)

Please don't be to proud to beg hun, its only our ego and pride which is dented a little not your soul.

I'l be praying for a brighter future for you hf
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I kinda have~ I have wrote or told them "theres not many people out here who need a job as bad as I do. I have 2 little kids and have to make rent. I cant afford to be late or miss a day. I need the hours badly and will work hard to keep the job" .. but instead most rather hire teenagers who will work for minimum wage and can work nights even though they call in or be late alot. smh
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A Mommy-what can people do to help you? What state are you in?
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Im in kissimmee florida.. I need any help anyone can give.. mostly I really need a job, if you know someone who can help me with that i would be extremely grateful :) Thank you
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Aww after reading that i felt like crying, and i wish so much that i could help.

If i was in your position i would honestly write some of this down when applying for jobs.(i've done it myself)

Please don't be to proud to beg hun, its only our ego and pride which is dented a little not your soul.

I'l be praying for a brighter future for you hf
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I kinda have~ I have wrote or told them "theres not many people out here who need a job as bad as I do. I have 2 little kids and have to make rent. I cant afford to be late or miss a day. I need the hours badly and will work hard to keep the job" .. but instead most rather hire teenagers who will work for minimum wage and can work nights even though they call in or be late alot. smh
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A Mommy-what can people do to help you? What state are you in?
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Im in kissimmee florida.. I need any help anyone can give.. mostly I really need a job, if you know someone who can help me with that i would be extremely grateful :) Thank you
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I'll be right back.
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Do not pray for an easy life, pray for the strength to endure a difficult one. Bruce Lee
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Yes, I want to help. I was in your place kind of (mommy)(I do not claim to know how you feel, as I am not you but I relate)Hugs to you...
People are so awesome on here What can we do? Just think,even if we THINK we can do nothing to help, maybe one tiny thing from each of us would add up and then that would be big! I used to think I cannot help but I can-I just don't know how exactly-but let's do this for all who need help on this thread.
I will walk the talk.
All who feel so alone out there, please don't-we are herehf
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You are one of the many truly beautiful people on here. We need to keep this thread going. I karma pinned it 3 times now and do hope others will step in to keep it bumped. The interaction between people shows what this world is truly about. Helping someone in need, whether it be in words, directions or actual deeds. It serves a purpose. Helping someone in need without asking something in return.

I will keep this pinned as many times as my karma points allow me, even if we can only pin it 3 times a week. There is enough room for doom left, what truly matters is how we care and open our eyes for eachother's problems, so we can make this world a better place. I know, tiny steps in the big picture, but tiny steps can be a huge leap in someone's life. And besides, one of my favorite sayings is that you also eat an elephant with a tea spoon.. Or something of that kind, lol.

hf
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Wow, why this is on here at this moment for me to see is really something... I came on to get my mind off some things and found this thread.. well here goes..

I have 2 little boys, 4 and 7, who have been thru hell the last 3 years since I left their abusive father. Been from domestic violence shelter to hotel, back to the house(couldnt pay the hotel) where he hurt me again so the police took us back to the DV shelter, then got a job so I moved to a hotel again since I didnt make enough to get a place, then their father got me fired for showing up fighting, so I couldnt pay the hotel, wouldnt leave since I got the kids to think about so I went thru 5 months of back and forth for eviction, got my taxes right before the eviction date so I got a place in the beginning of february since I had just starting working and could pay it.

But 3 weeks ago they cut me down to 2 days a week because its too slow to continue to afford me for more days. So now I wont make rent on may 1st. I make 100 a week and half of that goes for gas. Cant afford anything my kids need since I have to save every dollar I get for rent. I sold everything I could to pay the electric last week. Have had to listen to my son practically crying because I had to pawn his psp to make the rest of the money for the electric but didnt tell him thats where it is so he thinks its lost in the house :( I have nothing left to sell. My 7 yr old has outgrown his school uniform and I cant afford the $15 a shirt or the shorts so his clothes for school are too small and they both need shoes desperately.

I hate that I cant afford basic things for them. I go without just so I can give to them but its not enough. I have done everything I can and its not enough. I have no help with them. Their dad wouldnt pay child support so he left and child support hasnt found him yet. I have no help to watch them so I can get just any job. I have to get a job where I get out at 5 every day so I could pick both up from school by 6 (if I put the baby in school, $130 a week, and the older one in aftercare, $100 a month) so I could work. My friend has off the 2 days I work so she watches him those days but thats all I have.

I have no family here to help me. I have family who could help me financially some but just dont. I am so screwed yet have to keep happy so my kids never know anything is wrong. Im tired of my son crying because he cant do things other kids can. I couldnt afford the $40 for his sea world field trip so he had to stay at school. The only one in his class :( He was devastated, he just doesnt understand. He tried to tell me that money is made of paper and we could just print some. Theres a legoland field trip in may thats another damn $40 that I cant afford and hes begging me to go with his class but i cant do it.

My rental office doesnt play and 3 days after rents due they start eviction if its not paid. I am so stressed I cant sleep. I have food money so at least they dont go without there. I have applied everywhere and sent my resume everywhere with no luck. My hours arent flexible so Im screwed. Im on a waiting list for 4c but have been on it for over a year already and still waiting. I will not take my kids to a shelter again. My older one overheard me on the phone say something about the shelter (to call to ask if they could help me with clothes for them, which they couldnt) and thought we were going back and starting crying like crazy saying he doesnt want to lose his room and live at the shelter again. I have an unbelievable amount of stress and I dont know how much longer I can handle it.

This has let me let out everything inside that I cant tell anyone else freely.. what a release.. thank you.. hope things get better for all of us.. please send extra prayers my way, not so much for me but for my sons~ Thank you~
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I come from a very abuse home with little money. One day your little ones will look at you and be so very proud that you made it- their lives will possibly be better for it in the long run.
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I hope so~ Thank you~ My older on is in dv counseling. He acts like his dad when hes mad, just what hes learned from seeing too much. So Im trying to help him as much as I can. Thank you. you give me hope~
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Should someone start another thread for mummy and keep it bumped up?

I know there's some quite wealthy people on this site who could help with money for the time being, or maybe people in that area can help with a job.

I have enough karma points to pin it, if that helps, x
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Wow, why this is on here at this moment for me to see is really something... I came on to get my mind off some things and found this thread.. well here goes..

I have 2 little boys, 4 and 7, who have been thru hell the last 3 years since I left their abusive father. Been from domestic violence shelter to hotel, back to the house(couldnt pay the hotel) where he hurt me again so the police took us back to the DV shelter, then got a job so I moved to a hotel again since I didnt make enough to get a place, then their father got me fired for showing up fighting, so I couldnt pay the hotel, wouldnt leave since I got the kids to think about so I went thru 5 months of back and forth for eviction, got my taxes right before the eviction date so I got a place in the beginning of february since I had just starting working and could pay it.

But 3 weeks ago they cut me down to 2 days a week because its too slow to continue to afford me for more days. So now I wont make rent on may 1st. I make 100 a week and half of that goes for gas. Cant afford anything my kids need since I have to save every dollar I get for rent. I sold everything I could to pay the electric last week. Have had to listen to my son practically crying because I had to pawn his psp to make the rest of the money for the electric but didnt tell him thats where it is so he thinks its lost in the house :( I have nothing left to sell. My 7 yr old has outgrown his school uniform and I cant afford the $15 a shirt or the shorts so his clothes for school are too small and they both need shoes desperately.

I hate that I cant afford basic things for them. I go without just so I can give to them but its not enough. I have done everything I can and its not enough. I have no help with them. Their dad wouldnt pay child support so he left and child support hasnt found him yet. I have no help to watch them so I can get just any job. I have to get a job where I get out at 5 every day so I could pick both up from school by 6 (if I put the baby in school, $130 a week, and the older one in aftercare, $100 a month) so I could work. My friend has off the 2 days I work so she watches him those days but thats all I have.

I have no family here to help me. I have family who could help me financially some but just dont. I am so screwed yet have to keep happy so my kids never know anything is wrong. Im tired of my son crying because he cant do things other kids can. I couldnt afford the $40 for his sea world field trip so he had to stay at school. The only one in his class :( He was devastated, he just doesnt understand. He tried to tell me that money is made of paper and we could just print some. Theres a legoland field trip in may thats another damn $40 that I cant afford and hes begging me to go with his class but i cant do it.

My rental office doesnt play and 3 days after rents due they start eviction if its not paid. I am so stressed I cant sleep. I have food money so at least they dont go without there. I have applied everywhere and sent my resume everywhere with no luck. My hours arent flexible so Im screwed. Im on a waiting list for 4c but have been on it for over a year already and still waiting. I will not take my kids to a shelter again. My older one overheard me on the phone say something about the shelter (to call to ask if they could help me with clothes for them, which they couldnt) and thought we were going back and starting crying like crazy saying he doesnt want to lose his room and live at the shelter again. I have an unbelievable amount of stress and I dont know how much longer I can handle it.

This has let me let out everything inside that I cant tell anyone else freely.. what a release.. thank you.. hope things get better for all of us.. please send extra prayers my way, not so much for me but for my sons~ Thank you~
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I come from a very abuse home with little money. One day your little ones will look at you and be so very proud that you made it- their lives will possibly be better for it in the long run.
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But it breaks my heart that there is no work for somebody as willing as you.
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Thats what gets me so frustrated. I see high schoolers getting jobs like nothing. I have a degree but have been applying at burger king even! They get jobs and dont give a shit about the job yet I need one so bad and cant get one... I want to work so bad.. its killing me how things have been. if I didnt have my kids im sure depression would have already took over me and I wouldnt be trying as hard as i am.. Im sure i would have gave up already. my kids are my life, and they dont even know how vital they are to my existance :)
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I posted earlier as an Afghanistan Veteran with two kids living in Honduras. I am struggling more than amommy yet no one wants to help me. My kids are living in the murder capital in the world and i cant get any help from anyone!
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Should someone start another thread for mummy and keep it bumped up?

I know there's some quite wealthy people on this site who could help with money for the time being, or maybe people in that area can help with a job.

I have enough karma points to pin it, if that helps, x
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Good idea. Maybe OP should start a follow up (part two) of this thread, as he deserves all credits for this. That allows us to keep it pinned for a few more times, as we can only karma pin it 3 times a week.

There are a lot of people who feel less alone with their problems through this thread and that alone is already worth it.

I will pm OP.

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Great idea
Hang in there Mommy and everyone else
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I posted earlier as an Afghanistan Veteran with two kids living in Honduras. I am struggling more than amommy yet no one wants to help me. My kids are living in the murder capital in the world and i cant get any help from anyone!
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Don't say that. I would love to be able to help you, and amommy too. I am in no position to do so though, and I imagine that is the case for many here.

hf I hope someone is able to help you. How much would it cost to get your family out?
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I posted earlier as an Afghanistan Veteran with two kids living in Honduras. I am struggling more than amommy yet no one wants to help me. My kids are living in the murder capital in the world and i cant get any help from anyone!
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I read your post and reading others too....I think we all want/will help everyone on here! At least me-I don't know how to start but I am not giving up. I will help you and anyone Hang in there
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Should someone start another thread for mummy and keep it bumped up?

I know there's some quite wealthy people on this site who could help with money for the time being, or maybe people in that area can help with a job.

I have enough karma points to pin it, if that helps, x
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Im registered but not a paying member :/ I just cant log on from work cuse IE will kick me off the site and it freezes alot for some reason. I post alot this way for that reason. But I have mentioned my problems a few times on here in previous threads but got bashed instead of helped.. :/ But that would be amazing. I cant believe you guys are willing to even just TRY to help yet no one else will.. Im sitting here at work crying and looking like a idiot at my desk lol.. i dont talk to many people here since i only work 2 days i just kinda feel like an outsider for that reason here. I have anxiety and am socially awkward so I dont have any real friends :/
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Should someone start another thread for mummy and keep it bumped up?

I know there's some quite wealthy people on this site who could help with money for the time being, or maybe people in that area can help with a job.

I have enough karma points to pin it, if that helps, x
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Good idea. Maybe OP should start a follow up (part two) of this thread, as he deserves all credits for this. That allows us to keep it pinned for a few more times, as we can only karma pin it 3 times a week.

There are a lot of people who feel less alone with their problems through this thread and that alone is already worth it.

I will pm OP.

hf
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Thank you incredibly much.. i honestly cant believe people truly care.. I wish i could help others also. I dont have much. but have some stuff they outgrew that i could donate to someone who needs it. And you are truly right. Just posting it all and getting it out of my head made me feel alittle lighter. I wasnt holding it all in. Thank you so much, even for just the release~
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Great idea
Hang in there Mommy and everyone else
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Thank you.. so muchhf
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I posted earlier as an Afghanistan Veteran with two kids living in Honduras. I am struggling more than amommy yet no one wants to help me. My kids are living in the murder capital in the world and i cant get any help from anyone!
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I replied to you, even though it was just words. I can not give you any legal or professional advice, just tell you to not give up hope or let the dark side win. Don't ever think you are less important on here that A Mommy or who ever else has shared their struggles. There is no use in comparing. What may look as a soft run against the wind for one, can be a hurricane force for the one who is in the middle of it.

That is why I also think that this thread should have a follow up, not just for one specific struggle of one person, but for all those who feel the need to vent and look for advice. Maybe people who have more experience in the field can advice you what to do, with adresses, websites or something like that, even though you for sure have been there. One never knows.

Just don't give up, ever!
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I posted earlier as an Afghanistan Veteran with two kids living in Honduras. I am struggling more than amommy yet no one wants to help me. My kids are living in the murder capital in the world and i cant get any help from anyone!
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I wish I could send you tickets to get out :( I can only imagine how it is there :( Im sorry :(
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Hi Mommy!
Not to mention you're probably jumping at bushes from post-trauma of your experiences.
With two little ones yes that makes things more worrisome.
Have you daycare/school covered past june? When school lets out you need coverage for them because we KNOW you will have good employment by thenohyeah.

Young or old, everybody needs a mommy or daddy to calm your heart and mind.
It is okay if there are other things going on and things haven't been exactly perfect. You have a right to your 'bits' which are your privacy.

(yes I know what you're going through..sometimes you have to find a way completely out of dodge for safety for you and your babes).


I'm assuming you don't have a paypal account. Might you know someone who does who might have a dummy email account to accept $? Like others here I don't have much but you should have a bit more to patch the present gaps that are keeping you awake at night.

Or, maybe we could send paypal to the lady you gave your address to, or the like. She seems like a golden hearted person and sometimes you've just got to take a leap of faith.

LET'S HAVE A QUICK FIX..NO COMPLICATIONS FOR MOMMY!

Love you little galhearts
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(Relevant to post: I'm not based in the UK - I'm in the United States - I'm just using a tard since some idiot got my cell phone blocked).

Not sure if anyone will care, but here I go:

I hacked my university back when I was 19, and it became a federal issue when another student I knew tried to sell a bunch of social security numbers. In short, I was having fun with computer systems (naive, I know) and this other character wanted to make money off of it. I'm not trying to minimize my guilt, that's just the truth of the matter.

Three years have passed since the hacking, and since then I've been charged and plead to reduced charges for the hacking portion. It's a fair plea - I was not roped in with the identity theft portion of the crime. However, I'm a young man now, 22, and have worked my way back up to a good position in computer security at a nearby company, and am finishing my final semester of college now. I was kicked out of my previous university (rightfully so!) and lost every bit of savings I had, and am now about 65k in debt as I need to pay restitution (and, again, rightfully so!). What I don't agree with is the prison time I'm facing: 4 to 5 years.

I realize that I did bring this on myself to some degree (I shouldn't have trusted someone so easily, and shouldn't have been playing around in a University's computer systems). But I've matured so much through it without becoming bitter (quite a feat in and of itself when dealing with the Feds) and I've now dedicated my life to helping people. I've lost tens of thousands of dollars in the process just for legal fees, and stand to be separated from my family and people who depend on me for years. I was 19 when this happened, and three years of legal wrangling changes a boy into a man with great efficiency. I've truly, truly learned my lesson, and I believe restitution is appropriate and fair to all parties. Again, it's the prison time that I can't understand.

So the punishment maybe is not unfair, but it does seem completely unnecessary. I know I screwed up, I've lost so much already, and I've listened to the wake-up call and agreed to fix the problems I helped to cause out of my own pocket. I'm working a great job that I enjoy, have a girlfriend I love, and a wonderful and supportive family. I'm just terrified of losing it all over something from so long ago. If the judge could somehow see my dedication to do good and my true heart, I know I'd be freed from this process. Unfortunately, a judge is a human just like everyone else, and no matter how fair, he makes decisions off of limited data.

I know this likely can't be helped by anyone here, and maybe I'll catch some flack and be told that "I deserve it". I'm willing to accept that, so please don't feel the need to be harsh about it - this is just a lot to endure from the ages of 19 to 22. Anyway, even if no helpful advice can be given, I appreciate the chance to get it off my chest!

Last Edited by cansis on 04/09/2012 01:56 PM
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