The Nobody is Rising

It has taken such a long time... only due to the lack of guidance. Lack of proper love is a part of it, of course... and such a thing would be correct and right. It would open the mind in a way as portrayed in the movie "Next" with Nicolas Cage.

After high school, terrible guidance is all that guided me. Beyond that, still terrible guidance.

Even in high school I knew things... but knowing things alone is nothing. Talking, trying to communicate to people is something - but nobody listened. Nobody there. No guidance, and no proper communication; certainly no love.

Such a long time... so many years of potential wasted all due to the lack of guidance, and the lack of proper communication. I tried so many times to properly communicate, but it never worked.

The Nobody is Rising.

It's such a simple thing really... just a matter of days now. Why I never did this before I'm really not sure, because it is so easy. I'm striving to sort out why I didn't do this before, because it was always an easy thing to do, but the mind never allowed it.

Since they've been watching me, and manipulating me, probably far longer than I know about, perhaps that is the reason I never did this before. Perhaps I've just been working through all the directed energy fields and other distractions and diversions they've laid out for me. Of course, it's easy for a powerful organization to manipulate a single individual... that is nothing... because it's expected.

Perhaps they caused the most simple of things - not living a single day healthy; not living and repeating a proper day.

The fact of the matter is that they (the secret society) placed the girl into the office with me in Denver. She was right there, precisely selected with the exact details I had written about months prior to her being placed there. She was the right girl, I was ready to proceed... but, not surprisingly, she was not interested in having a relationship with me. She didn't know what was going on, of course not, and I couldn't exactly tell her in a way that made any sense, so I just became "work friends" with her in the ensuing months.

The society handlers sort of lost their minds after it went sour, and they didn't know what to do. They stumbled around for a few months, and I finally left realizing the idiocy of those that were pretending to be leaders there. There was one guy, however, that was more unique, and he didn't do or say anything wrong the entire time - it was the other two that were bumbling morons. His first name begins with the letter W, so he'll know who he is.

They screwed up so badly... even way before this time... years ago... but I still wonder if they did it on purpose. This I don't know.