all my miracles failed

the only thing that kept me thinking something great and spiritual might really have happened for me, was a complete and total social intollerant rejection and persecution of extreem biblical proportions by almost eveyone to whom i tried to explain what i had witnessed. and the very few who didn't react outright hostile or throw themselves into denial were a couple close friend who looked like the felt bad for me.

it also ruined the last remaining shreds of a sembelance of life

and now i wallow in stupidity and writhe in pain and regret having ever heard the name GOD