I'm getting the feeling the random ban hammer is coming for me, so if I disappear , or fail to keep responding, you know what happened. Quoting: !saac
I know they are unintentional sometimes. I can be reached through my blog if that happens. the link in my sig.
So, the night I got healed:
I've been waiting to die, for a few years actually.
I didn't tell a single person I was sick.
I don't have any close living family, and very few friends, I didn't even tell them.
I have had a bad heart for a while, a hamartoma grew around it, and was squeezing it tighter and tighter over the years, I was a heavy smoker, heavy drinker, etc, very bad angina, likely a few small heart attacks I never went to the doctor for.
I was sitting at my desk, playing around online, it was perhaps 1 or 2 in the morning, and I noticed it was dead quiet outside, eerily quiet.
All of a sudden, there were these massive bursts of air coming down on my roof.
I look out my window, and all the leaves in the trees are still.
...so I go look outside, out of curiosity, ...nothing. Just quiet.
I go back to my desk, the same thing starts again, with the wind.
It was focused and directed, directly on my roof, and nowhere around my house, or neighbors houses, I checked multiple time.
Then, my house starts making these noises, creaking, etc.
I started hearing bumps outside my house, along the windows outside my office.
...you know that feeling you get every once in a while, where you feel like there's something there with you, but you can't see it ?
The hair on the back of your neck stands up.
And you feel like even if you stood with your back against a wall, it wouldn't stop anything from getting to you.
That's what I got, in spades.
I got quite spooked.
Then, all of a sudden, my heart started doing this strange thing.
It wasn't the normal gymnastics that the heart does when it has an attack for various reasons.
I has become all too familiar with those.
This felt more like somebody had my heart in their hands, and they were caressing it, gently, massaging it even.
I thought that I was about to finally die, so, having nobody to call, I just got a photo of my mother, wrapped a blanket around me, and sat down on the floor to die.
This rubbing went on for about a half hour, then slowly faded for about another half an hour.
The whole time, I felt " High " for lack of a better description, but unlike any sensation I have ever felt before.
There was a white and cold fire in my chest.
That's how it felt.
I was very,...spooked ?,....you would be too.
I was just...sitting there, in disbelief,...thinking about my mother, and the fact that I had perhaps almost gotten to be with her, through my own death.
..which I had asked for many times over.
Instead I got the opposite.
I don't know why.
I went to youtube, to listen to some music, and at that moment, the first song that randomly popped up was this one
At this point, I had tears streaming down my face.
This is so difficult to write about.
You guys have no clue all the incredible things that have happened to me in the past three months.
Hi OP, you sure have a way of writing! I'm really enjoying reading about what has happened to you, carry on, please.