Well, let's just say that when I leave my house lately, which is rare, I have to act normal. These aren't things I go around telling folks about. Yes, I have never felt more " different " in my life then now. As far as a " family " , I never really had the typical family, I had several " Godfathers ", and friends of my mothers who helped raise me. Quoting: !saac
Interesting. I was kept a virtual prisoner, never leaving the house except to go to school and then to work, for the first 25 years of my life. The older I get, the more outgoing I become...and the more comfortable. I don't mind telling people about myself, although I don't tell everyone everything every time.
It's not brought me peace, I had found that before I almost passed, it's brought some closure, and behind that closure, many more questions. Quoting: !saac
You are still processing. I had awareness of not being the same as others from a very young age (my first alien contact was around age 3 or 4, although I thought at the time that I was dealing with a spiritual being), and my growing up largely consisted of learning what I should never do around others because they couldn't do these things and it scared them. I spent most of my life trying to figure out what was really going on with me. When I had my next contact at age 45, I was carefully led through a process of discovery that explained everything - this took over a year to complete. So I was ready to understand and make peace with the past and to accept myself for the very odd being (with an even stranger and in some ways unpalatable ancient past). Perhaps you can ask for help with a similar guided discovery. If you get it, the form may be strange....be open minded and let it come however it will. Or as Ea told me, "trust the process." It does work.
I don't know what I was part of, or if anybody else knew. I learned something about secret societies and such, that often the left hand does not know what the right hand does, this is to keep things compartmentalized, and make sure that no one person has the full story at any given time. It's quite effective at keeping things hidden. Quoting: !saac
My "grandfather" was top of the heap in the Freemasons and rubbed shoulders regularly with Governors, Senators, Presidents (current and future), and the very wealthy. I was raised surrounded by that shit.
I was a threat, to myself and others, for a long time when I was younger. I learned the hard way that honesty is the best policy, and practicing compassion, tolerance, selfless works and unconditional love is the key to illumination. Quoting: !saac
I am guessing that you are male. I am female, and that might make some difference, particularly in youth. You have the path in you.
When you think you might be getting a tap on the shoulder from something far greater than what we normally can comprehend, ...it's hard to ignore.. Quoting: !saac
And yet some seek to destroy their God-consciousness because it does give them almost unlimited worldly power. A being unconstrained by conscience and empathy knows no guilt and never pauses to consider right or wrong. They are free to act however they think is most effective, and feel no remorse even when what they do is horrifying to the rest of us. They are more effective this way in the short term. The Powers that Pretend (Illuminati types) have kept kicking the can down the road for thousands of years now, and the main sequence of humankind is just now starting to figure out their game. Their power *is* illusory, but so long as they get others to believe they have power, they do. Because it is given to them, not because they really have it. It can be taken away, and it is being taken away.
That, to me, is quite illusory. I have all the power in the world, over myself, but I also have no strings in the game, there is nothing to coerce me with, or taunt me with. No debt, no car, no family, no money, no job, no obligations to anybody,...I feel like I am the one holding the reigns, and not the other way around, like most people seemingly trapped in a lifestyle they cannot escape do. For that I can only be grateful, even if it is just a self-induced delusion. Quoting: !saac
It's not a delusion. It is called Sovereignty. Sovereignty grants much power and leeway to live as one chooses, but it requires you to take 100% responsibility for your actions. Sovereignty is the birthright of all humans, endowed by Creator Source along with God-consciousness. It does not require poverty, but it makes great wealth undesirable for all the reasons you mentioned above. In a healthy Sovereign society, there is abundance for all, you can get everything you need (if you truly need it) and much of what you want. Greed doesn't exist because there is no artificial scarcity to create fear of privation or advantage to those who stockpile. Luxury, greed's handmaiden, is naturally limited because it ceases to be a social advantage and instead becomes a practical burden. The Sovereign knows the value of "enough" so that posessions don't get in the way of experiencing life.