Got a few things to add to this thread:

First, survival if SHTF. Now this is my opinion, feel free to ignore: I believe that if shit does go major, there will be nowhere on Earth you can hide. The technology that the military have in space is so powerful and all pervasive there is literally nowhere you can hide. They will be able to locate groups or individuals and dispose of them efficiently. I had dreams about this as a young child.. being tracked by satellite and trying to outrun its weapon. I wouldn't be suprised if they can actually read your mind from space..

Realize that the desire to run away to the woods or go travelling will not quench the desire inside you. As soon as you sit quiet again the mind will once again return to the itch.. the only way out is in. What you are really after is the answer to the quesion, Who am I?


The system sucks. You're still not over the emotional component of this trauma either.. and others in this thread aren't either. This is normal. You were raised on the system and lied to by parents, school, culture. It takes time to weep and move on. But you will most likely come back and get a job etc.. you develop this kind of non-attachment attitude.. there is little that can be done by you alone, except to improve yourself and those directly connected with you. That is all you can do. That is all that is asked of you, of anyone, unless the road opens up for you to go further.

If you reached the peak (Enlightenment) you would still have to come back down again and be part of the world. That IS this life. Remember why you exist at all, as a human that is.. to procreate and to fertilize the earth. No one escapes this bondage. Just remember that beneath the skin you are already immortal and none of this matters. It is just a movie..

I am 25. I found out about this stuff when i was 16 after blowing my mind with mushrooms. I am now working to get a degree.. and I'm getting top grades. But i don't care. I couldn't give two shits about what im doing, but that also allows me to be good at it strangely enough. It is a subject that is relevant to reshaping mans interaction with the environment.

I used to smoke cannabis constantly to escape into fantasy land.. now I am sober 99% of the time. I am learning to undo all the mental damage done by parents and society by resolving the underlying emotional components. It's like unwinding a knotted ball of yarn.. one thread at a time..

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Change or no change. If nothing happens I don't care anymore. I found out who I really am. This understanding can never be stripped from me. I am just glad to have remembered whilst alive..

Don't lose sight of your own impending mortality. You are only here once. But die a little each day and soon you will be free