OP, after reading this thread and through your responses, I'm inclined to believe you are mocking Christians, but perhaps I'm reading into it, so I'll give you the benefit of the doubt.

If you are really asking for someone to tell you what you should believe or how to live, then you will never find the answers you seek. For Christianity to have a lasting and real effect on you, you must approach it openly, humbly, and willingly - on your own. It must make sense to you and speak to your heart, no one can force it on you and expect you to feel anything legitimate.

You will then know what to believe and how to live, simply because it speaks to your heart. However, it takes time and no one is perfect, we are all just a work in progress :-)