I just went on a short walk outside, and I could feel god everywhere. Every day the veil lifts for me a bit more, and every day it becomes easier to tell that I'll love the afterlife more than this dead existence.


I've been awakened to christ, but I don't know if I can say I'm born again yet. I'm working as fast as I can to get rid of my gadgets and material things, then I'm off to find Jesus and God for myself. I know he was EXACTLY who he said he was and I know God is real. I don't need any church, or any pastor, or any congregation at my side, I've realized it myself. I've lived a life that SHOULD lead me straight to hell, but every single time I start to take another step towards it, god throws me a sing saying "hey, go ahead, you can go that way, you'll get all those things that path promises, surely, and you'll have all that money, and multiple women, but you'll lose me.". And EVERY SINGLE TIME it's enough.

I know that every day I wake up more to the illusions/delusions I've been fed by the system, school, my parents etc. Even them I'm going to have to leave behind because they're so intent on "making money" and "living in reality" as they put it. I just can't do it. I can't waste MY time "working" for "money" to pay for material things, especially with the words "you can't take it with you" ringing in my head every day (a friend of mine performed in a play by that name and it has always stuck with me when I think about doing something that would aid me materially). I know that I can walk away from everything, with nothing but the shirt on my back, and as long as I stay on the righteous path, the lord will provide for my every need until I walk through those gates.


Anyone reading this, take the time to say a short prayer for me. I'd really appreciate it. I've just started on the most serious part of my walk (that I can tell so far anyway) and I have almost no one at my side at this moment. Everyone wants to tease me about leaving school, refusing to take a soul killing job, and not trying to "make as much money as I can". But as Jesus said "you cannot worship two masters". I know it's money or God, and I'm fine with never making a dime in my life if it means I stay in god's grace. I'm straddling the line right now, being teased with "magick" and "witchcraft" by friends who have discovered "powers that have been hidden from us". But I know that losing the lord isn't worth whatever I might gain through that. Please pray for me in God's name, anyone reading this, I might not need anyone of THIS world on my walk, but I DO need people of THAT world that I can follow, and in turn, act like so that I may too lead by example.