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Please, I'm confused, I just need someone to tell me, am I really a woman inside?

Of course I'm physically male.
I'm 28 years old.

I've been doing many weird things the last few months, stuff like tying my torso and upper thighs up with bands and belts, trying to make my posture and position different and more feminine by force (and it did work a bit even!). Almost similar to corsets and cinchers, only with bands and belts instead (this also allowed me to tie myself up so that my ass was sticking out really good and my back got arched, similar to feminine women).

Somehow it was a strange "desperation," want, and lust that came over me. For several years now, the absolute majority of times I masturbate, I must do something either "womanly" or, things that in conventional terms would be deemed gay or bisexual (passive side of that coin of course).
This has included many episodes of self-stimulation in a certain dirty place. And when I watch porn I get sooo extra-excited by anal porn and then I always imagine myself as the woman.

Of course I realize, many would say that is a sign of being gay if ever there was one, but no. I don't think I am. I wondered for a long time if I was bisexual, that's still a possibility, but now I'm not sure about that either. I also noticed I felt attracted to: sissy and cuckold lifestyle, mild bondage as in some tying up etc., being the passive and "used" partner, being more feminine and maybe even being a woman. Many of my urges and ways to arousal makes me rule out being gay. I am another one of those who are not super-attracted to men as such, it's just when I get horny, then I suddenly start lusting for d*ck - it's crazy, but when that happens, I can't do much about it.

I just don't know what's going on with me, at least not totally. Some of it I understand.

Actually I understand quite a bit. There is something quite strange, mystical about all this and what is going on with me. I think this might have to do with evolution, getting to the next step, becoming more androgyne/hermaphroditic, and so on.

Then there's all the strangeness in my life, and the strangeness about how everything got to this point. All I could mention, it could be quite the impressive and long story!! But that's not for this topic...


Anyway... The bottom line is that I'm really more about love and giving than power and taking... Maybe that's why I'm attracted to girls/women in this way - even wanting to become one. Because they're the most exceptional givers and unconditional lovers out there (when they're nice and loving women of course).


But... this might seem like a clear cut case, just go and get a change operation and so on. But I'm honestly still confused and don't know what choice to take...
You could say I'm at a kind of crossroads and need to choose between either taking steroids to "buff up" or maybe instead choosing female hormones and start going in that direction... The choice I have to make soon, is THAT extreme! Becoming a "bitch" or a "bodybuilder!" I don't know what choice I should make.... Help if you have anything worthwhile to suggest!
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Is that you Brief?
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it's your life, choose your own path , good luck hf
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Are you male or female equipped? That should be the dead ringer.
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sounds like your male & female.
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Sounds like you may actually be a gay female stuck in a male body....
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Sounds like you're just into some fetishes. Doesn't mean you need to take all kinds of hormones or surgery or any shit like that.
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Well, I have to say, thanks a whole lot for all the help.

You've been extremely helpful.

By your expert advice, I now know what I should be doing. Thanks, forever grateful!
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Is that you Brief?
 Quoting: Anonymous Coward 15340550


No, who's Brief? No idea.
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it's your life, choose your own path , good luck hf
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Well, I appreciate your tolerance and liberated attitude, but I need help in a sort of difficult situation (part of it being hard to explain even) not just some well wishes and a 1 second pat on my back...

Thanks anyway, though! hf
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Sounds like you may actually be a gay female stuck in a male body....
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Sounds like you may actually be a gay female stuck in a male body....
 Quoting: Anonymous Coward 15542770


I think so too.


OP read this - [link to www.angelfire.com]
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Are you male or female equipped? That should be the dead ringer.
 Quoting: Charlie the Choo-Choo


Male. Born male and have always been male.


Excuse me, but you should have heard about the fact that there exists people such as "shemales," transvestites and crossdressers, and so on and so forth, today. It's 2012 my friend.
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Sounds like maybe you are a woman stuck in a man's body or may have been one in a past life that has left it's affects on you.
Either way you need to delve into this and find out the answer.
I don't believe you mentioned how long this has been going on?
If you did I am sorry I didn't see it.
I applaud the effort it takes to ask for advice here of all places concerning the issues you are having, considering Glp is very closed minded about such issues.
Don't feel ashamed for being different.
There's too many normal people as it is.
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Sounds like maybe you are a woman stuck in a man's body or may have been one in a past life that has left it's affects on you.
Either way you need to delve into this and find out the answer.
I don't believe you mentioned how long this has been going on?
If you did I am sorry I didn't see it.
I applaud the effort it takes to ask for advice here of all places concerning the issues you are having, considering Glp is very closed minded about such issues.
Don't feel ashamed for being different.
There's too many normal people as it is.
 Quoting: Awake but dreaming


Yes, I have wondered on several occasions if I am a woman stuck in a mans body...

There is also another option, I have heard about men who simply love women so much, that something "flips" inside of them, and instead of pursuing women, they start actually wanting to become a woman instead. This is the case for quite a few transvestites, crossdressers and men who go through a sex change. I feel this could also be the case for me, maybe.

I read a bit of that book someone linked to, where the poster mentioned the possibility of me being a "lesbian stuck in a mans body." The book was also about "love-shy men." I must say I at least partially recognize myself in what was described in that book. However, if it's the case that I'm a lesbian in a mans body (Lol, even I find that a bit comical :)), then it's more like I'm a lesbian with bisexual tendencies. Because when it comes to same sex, I do sometimes desire same sex company HOWEVER I'm one of those men who kind of only think about "the tool" in my same sex sex fantasies, in other words, the men are faceless and to some degree even bodyless in my fantasies. I.e. I sometimes want to be "sexually acted upon" by men, but I'm not physically attracted to the male body or men in general, outside of such fantasies. It's strictly sexual (bisexual) not actual attraction to men.

But yes, to some degree I might also be a "love-shy" man, I simply suck at initiating contact with women, suck at being the one who does the first approach - as is expected of men in the dating scene. Maybe I'm a love-shy man who have given up on finding "someone for me" and therefore I've slowly and increasingly been caught up in non-heterosexual sexual fantasies and thoughts of not being heterosexual? I DON'T KNOW HONESTLY! I at least recognized myself partially from the description of love-shy men.

But that's exactly the deal! I partially fit, or potentially fit, inside so many categories! I can't seem to finally decide that "yes, I'm this and I'm that," I could to some degree fit within a multitude of labels! Love-shy, omega or beta male, submissive man, gay or bisexual, woman in mans body, lesbian in mans body, just sexually a bit of a fetishist, shemale (if I initiate sex change), crossdresser, passive homosexual or bisexual, loner, freak, weird, spiritually androgyne or hermaphrodite, balanced in my brain hemispheres but more submissive/feminine than dominating/masculine.

There's so many possibilities still, and I haven't been able to narrow them down much yet.


Essentially though, I do have the clear feeling that my soul or spiritual makeup is more "YIN" than "YANG," i.e. I have more of the passive, feminine "YIN" energy in my total being (including my soul and spirit) than "YANG."
My issues definitely have to do with this. It's a huge problem to be a man and in some cases and situations, acting either as a woman or as a very shy and non-assertive man.... IT SUCKS SOMETIMES, SO BAD! :(

That's why I'm wondering if going thru some degree of sex change may be the best solution for me. I'm just not able to act like a typical masculine man! Although I really wish I could, as it would make many things so much simpler :(
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I have heard of insects and certain animals that can undergo a sex change if they want to or for various reasons it's called Sequential Hermaphrodites.
So maybe a sex change would be the answer.
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NOTHING makes you a woman except BEING BORN WITH OVARIES.


So get the fuck over it.


No you're not a woman inside, you're a man who has no fucking concept of feminine and masculine energy and that everyone has BOTH.
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That's why I'm wondering if going thru some degree of sex change may be the best solution for me. I'm just not able to act like a typical masculine man! Although I really wish I could, as it would make many things so much simpler :(
 Quoting: Awake but dreaming


Why would you want a sex change?
So what if you can't act like a typical so-called "masculine" man. You don't have to adjust to societies rules or role-models. fck that! People in our society over overly yang. No need to become like that. Don't follow. Be yourself. Don't put yourself in a box.
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OP, you're GAY or turning into one. That's it.

I hate it when your kind says "I'm a woman inside". You're not, legally or physically. So forget it.

Also, brutally mutilating a man and feeding him with hormones doesn't create a woman either. That's what I think of those sex ops.

You are born man or woman and you take your corresponding role, otherwise you're against nature. It's like trying to eat with your ass-- let's see how that works for your digestive system.

I might sound too radical, but I'm sick of women turning into macho guys and dudes turning gay. Real men must make a fucking stand already and fix things.
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OP, you're GAY or turning into one. That's it.

I hate it when your kind says "I'm a woman inside". You're not, legally or physically. So forget it.

Also, brutally mutilating a man and feeding him with hormones doesn't create a woman either. That's what I think of those sex ops.

You are born man or woman and you take your corresponding role, otherwise you're against nature. It's like trying to eat with your ass-- let's see how that works for your digestive system.

I might sound too radical, but I'm sick of women turning into macho guys and dudes turning gay. Real men must make a fucking stand already and fix things.
 Quoting: Anonymous Coward 611990


What OP is talking about is the soul within, not the physical form. hf
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Sound like you need a dominate woman who isn't afraid of certain fetishes.

Of course, if you act on those fetishes it could lead to other things. I knew a guy who had a bizarro relationship with his wife and then he ended up having the operation. So you may want to ask yourself how far would you let yourself go with this. Or you could try to suppress it for a while and focus on other things and see if it goes away before you start going down the fetish path. No-one can stop a bird from flying over your head, but you can stop it from building a nest. It's up to you.
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Hi all!

I had the thought of this thread sort of lingering in my back head yesterday...

And suddenly it struck me.

I know I ironically expressed that some of the first replies in this thread weren't exactly helpful.

But I was wrong, at least about one post. The one post that actually did contain something that ended up being of help to me was this one:


Sounds like you're just into some fetishes. Doesn't mean you need to take all kinds of hormones or surgery or any shit like that.
 Quoting: gurunade



What struck me yesterday was that gurunade essentially is right, what he basically said there was that I should "chill the F*ck out," and that's what struck me yesterday. I just need to chill out a bit, and take things more easy.

And I don't really need to either take female or male hormones or anything like that.

I probably exaggerated, it is more like I just have some fetishes and a bit of a non-standard sexuality. I might not even be bisexual or gay, it's just thoughts that popped up in my head due to exploring a bit of these fetishes of mine!

Well, OK, I do think, still, that I'm probably a little bit bisexual.... But that's IT... Combined with some small fetishes or "sexual hangups" of different kinds (nothing really sick or unnormal, btw - it's mostly only about me, so no other persons will come to harm from my fetishes :)


Yes, I think I at least found part of the solution now... That I was getting worked up a bit too much over nothing. I can just continue as I am, and take it a bit more easy and relax... I don't need sex change ops or anything.


Thanks for the help, especially to gurunade, although the help he provided was sort of inadvertent.

I'll get back to this thread if there's anything more in particualr I have to say.
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Please, I'm confused, I just need someone to tell me, am I really a woman inside?

Of course I'm physically male.
I'm 28 years old.

I've been doing many weird things the last few months, stuff like tying my torso and upper thighs up with bands and belts, trying to make my posture and position different and more feminine by force (and it did work a bit even!). Almost similar to corsets and cinchers, only with bands and belts instead (this also allowed me to tie myself up so that my ass was sticking out really good and my back got arched, similar to feminine women).

Somehow it was a strange "desperation," want, and lust that came over me. For several years now, the absolute majority of times I masturbate, I must do something either "womanly" or, things that in conventional terms would be deemed gay or bisexual (passive side of that coin of course).
This has included many episodes of self-stimulation in a certain dirty place. And when I watch porn I get sooo extra-excited by anal porn and then I always imagine myself as the woman.

Of course I realize, many would say that is a sign of being gay if ever there was one, but no. I don't think I am. I wondered for a long time if I was bisexual, that's still a possibility, but now I'm not sure about that either. I also noticed I felt attracted to: sissy and cuckold lifestyle, mild bondage as in some tying up etc., being the passive and "used" partner, being more feminine and maybe even being a woman. Many of my urges and ways to arousal makes me rule out being gay. I am another one of those who are not super-attracted to men as such, it's just when I get horny, then I suddenly start lusting for d*ck - it's crazy, but when that happens, I can't do much about it.

I just don't know what's going on with me, at least not totally. Some of it I understand.

Actually I understand quite a bit. There is something quite strange, mystical about all this and what is going on with me. I think this might have to do with evolution, getting to the next step, becoming more androgyne/hermaphroditic, and so on.

Then there's all the strangeness in my life, and the strangeness about how everything got to this point. All I could mention, it could be quite the impressive and long story!! But that's not for this topic...


Anyway... The bottom line is that I'm really more about love and giving than power and taking... Maybe that's why I'm attracted to girls/women in this way - even wanting to become one. Because they're the most exceptional givers and unconditional lovers out there (when they're nice and loving women of course).


But... this might seem like a clear cut case, just go and get a change operation and so on. But I'm honestly still confused and don't know what choice to take...
You could say I'm at a kind of crossroads and need to choose between either taking steroids to "buff up" or maybe instead choosing female hormones and start going in that direction... The choice I have to make soon, is THAT extreme! Becoming a "bitch" or a "bodybuilder!" I don't know what choice I should make.... Help if you have anything worthwhile to suggest!
 Quoting: Anonymous Coward 15546283


Maybe you just let you be brainwashed by people pushing the ideology of "gender mainstreaming".

[link to www.ilo.org]

maybe this helps:

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maybe watching this video can provide a different perspective on your current situation.
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Don't worry, it is part of our journey into the new earth. Males become more passive and feminine and females more dominant - in general. A lot of men become bisexual and females also. Embrace it, enjoy it - it's the new you emerging:)
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AC,

on the geert hofsteede scale of cultural dimensions,
denmark has a masculinity score of 16, while germany has a masculinity score of 66 and the usa have a masculinity score of 62.

What are the odds of that?
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[link to geert-hofstede.com]
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Maybe you just let you be brainwashed by people pushing the ideology of "gender mainstreaming".

[link to www.ilo.org]

maybe this helps:


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Not really, my anon German friend - although the video you posted was slightly interesting. But I have to say, EVEN if on some level I have been influenced by some kind of societal agenda (to some degree) of "feminizing" males or something, it goes quite a way deeper than that also....

I remember a couple of (2) times as a kid around 4-5 years old, that I took out a butter knife and started trying to cut at the root of my penis, I don't know if I truly wanted to cut it off, it was more an act of "wonderment"/astonishment over this thing hanging between my legs :). But this episode, among other things, make me think that it might be correct that I was a woman in a previous or at least quite recent life, and maybe memories of this, is what has turned me into these kind of things and thoughts?


The point I'm making anyway, is that it goes quite a bit deeper than just being some kind of society brainwash thing.

But I do have some of the typical markers that could indicate "society brainwashing" into becoming feminized, though. Grew up with my mother only, went to kindergarten, and besides about three years of schooling, all my main teachers growing up were women. So I have had a lacking masculine (positive) influence. My stepfather for most of my youth was a real alcoholic and died almost 10 years ago of his overdrinking.

However, as I said, I still think it goes deeper, and more to the root of who I really am - it is more than just some sort of developmental disorder, inflicted upon me by society and the people around me. To the degree that is the case, it's still only the "surface story" and a catalyst to make me "more into my total self" so to speak.
I mean, it's a well-known fact to any esoteric or occult student that the soul/spirit is non-gendered, and even that God is a being beyond any of this dualism/polarity stuff we live with the experience of....
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Don't worry, it is part of our journey into the new earth. Males become more passive and feminine and females more dominant - in general. A lot of men become bisexual and females also. Embrace it, enjoy it - it's the new you emerging:)
 Quoting: Miss Malla


Thanks for posting that Miss Malla - because what you're mentioning there, is something I'd like to discuss a littlebit too.


I have been into esoteric/occult + conspiracy and so on for over a decade now, so I have read into a lot of esoteric stuff over this time period also.
So of course I've heard of what you're describing there too.


And the thing is. I exactly feel like that is the thing, that what is happening to me, is somehow part of evolution - my own evolution, AND the evolution of humanity. You see, I have for the longest time been at the forefront of many things, and anticipating things, trends, and developments, before they happen. Almost like I'm a bit psychic or something.

And I suspect this is another one of these things.

So opposed to societal standards in many parts of the world, if this is indeed the case, the truth is that I'm not a freak, not a sexual deviant, not sick, and nothing of that sort.... No, totally opposed to that, I am on the forefront of human evolution and ascertaining our future as human race....

I happen to in fact more or less "know" this inside of me. I have been on the path to what is often referred to as "ascension" for years now. Becoming less "defined" within polarities, and embracing both parts of the Yin and Yang, so to speak, is merely part of this evolution or development.


I have been into these subjects for years, so I'd love to discuss this perspective on my thread topic a bit more, I'd love to hear something "new" that could bring other perspectives and new information concerning our evolution as species, ascension, what is coming in near future, and so on.


I feel as if I'm a good way on the journey to "the next level" but the thing is, this bisexual thing is a LITTLE bit confusing sometimes. Especially, it is hard to connect this side of myself, reasonably - and without being sanctioned by my peers - INTO THIS HUMAN, GROUND LEVEL REALITY.

I even have muslim friends, now if I said I was gay, I don't think they would kill me, but they would surely taunt, jest and even in other ways, bother me to infinity, I'm sure!


The problem with this is that the female part of me wants to be "taken," don't you see, it's the most disgraceful thing by typical msaculine standards, that any man can engage in!! So I don't dare to come out fully as myself, not because of issues in myself, but because I CAN'T FIT THAT PART OF ME INTO HUMAN REALITY AND SOCIETY WITHOUT BEING SANCTIONED AND LOSE A LOT OF THINGS BECAUSE OF IT......
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I am a Post Operative Transexual Woman, Had my sugery with doctor Marci Bowers in January 2006 have lived as a woman with all legal documents changed since 2002
its a tough place you are in just dont take this descision lightly and find a therapist and a support network

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