Hangin' Out...

Settle... If you can hear me i really need help.... im falling apart... spiritualy...

i Feel that anything im doing at this does anything to help myself... Im fucking tired of being absolutly incapable of applying my wisdom on myself... It has to be a physical mechnism that blocks me... or the source hates me, fear me... whatever it is... it's killing me to just fucking speculate...


since my first astral projection into the purple light, within the sun... all i get is a fucking mushroom treatment.

btw this treatment = Keeping one in the dark and feeding them crap.

If you can help me, spiritualy. I would appreaciate it. Cause i fucking need it now....


Whats the fucking point of being yourself when so called Eternal love Ignores you in your suffering... I have to accept something? BUT WHAT? im just .... well. Im pretty damn strong and i wont let it destroy me from the inside...

sick of it all..

Come here Blitz......YOU were the one I kept fighting for all night in a dream...HOLD ON!!...We will get through this...I did not let you go in the dream state...you will not fall here!

Much love Jes!.. i would die for your love! you made me smile today! by love i mean, you are trully a fallen angel!

if you catch my drift! :P

Die = divinly inspired experiance!

what i meant about fallen angel, is about an angel that willfuly sacrificed its comfort and well being to go back down and be there for those who needs it!

I didnt need help in the begining... however, we all need love at one point!

I felt a rush of energy when i readed your reply! :D your energy was strong in that reply!

...You are loved!!...ALWAYS!!!...Never think you are alone!!

Truly amazing...

Hello my Dear friend!!!...((((HUGS))))

its starting is it?

something feel weird in the air.


something nasty.

I think so...For the past 36 hours I have felt something out of the norm...

i have been checking a couple of things lately and i came across an old ps1 game series called "Fear effect".

The name itself made the connection in my mind about "Fear is you best friend".


So that made me wonder... MMM. what was it all about in this game serie? What were the game mechanics.

That's it! That's how fear works! If you can understand fear, you can use it to empowers yourself!


In the game your life bar is basically your stress level!

To more stressful a situation is the more fearful your character is! The more fearful you are in game, You become less accurate, more slow, takes longer to reload weapons and each bullets deals enormous amount of damage + you lose life over time!


In order to heal yourself all you have to do is to be in a non stressful situation! Being in CONTROL!!!

If you start a firefight with only 2 bullets in your charger and have to reload while being shot at... Your stress level goes really high really fast!

If You kill an enemy your stress goes back down! You chain kill multiple enemies with a single charger = You are in control! You melle kill an enemy when your guns are empty, your stress complety goes away!

Also when you go thru a different puzzles which gives you a time limit, the lesser the time left when you complete the puzzle the more stressed you are and if its not your first try you are most likely super fearful. However, when you get out of that pass, your stress go back to normal!

fear is your best friend, learn to master your reaction to stressful situations and always remain in control!


Fear is more important then love at some point... lol!
here is why! Whitout fear, love would not have a purpose to exist! Without love existing, Life would not be! and reality without life = Death.

Do you know a way to recall an old dream i had long ago when i was younger.


it was on the way to my old secondary home where we stayed for 1-2 weeks a the time. When school was over!

there was a river near by that place.

The dream i did when i was young was that i went back to that place, and threw myself in the river then swimed to the middle of it, then got out of the water on the other side...

i stayed there and watched the river for a moment... there was a Endless Fall with a bright white bridge crossing from the water over the fall. The bridge was so long that, there was no way of seeing where it went!

On the side i was staying of the river i looked behind me and saw a metal fensce with a totaly destroyed city in the back with a Orange red Portal door in the middle. (Red blood skies)

next to the fence on the other side of the riverbed there was a endless green plain that looked EXACTLY like this one on the video here! Skip to 9:39 and look at the plains desieng - not the yellow eyeball thing.




there were a bunch of other... portals as well, but i dont remember them. I would like to redo that dream, like a recall to be able to see what i missed back then.

right after that i remember going on the bridge and jumping in the endless fall... Lol!

there was a etheric water thing in the middle of the white cloud effect from the fall. and while falling i seen my past lifes blended with my current life... it happend too fast that i could take notice of anything. the only picture i remember is seeing my house from the top to the ground when i was really, really young. the rest was in all sort of weird rainbow colors.

So i would assume that the river in that old dream was my source! I got back to my source! But i just need to recall it.. to understand what i learned back then.

Last Edited by Blitz the storm-striker on 03/01/2013 04:24 PM

I would think that you can think about the dream before going to bed...and maby you might be able to re-dream it

... i tried that lol. maybe i just need to be more convinced. lol


anyway while walking back home, playing with words phonetics.

here what i discovered...

reality = real - ity

real = reel = pull = Attract = LOVE.

ity = uncontrolable action. or just action for the sake of it

Act - ion =

act = create

ion = atom.


reality = love, create , atom

reality = Atoms created with Love!

another one which is odd...

Free will= infinite eternal uncontrollable fear!

WTF! What is free?

Free means that nothing can influence it or control it. IT has no specific location, thus its everywhere.

Will = push = fear.

Free desire = infinite eternal uncontrolable Love!

Then again something free can be gathered when using an appropriate energy projection or attraction.


Wisdom is everything that knowledge is not!

something you know is complex!
something you learned is long to explain!
Something you understand is simple!

Wisdom is not something you Know or have learned or Even Understand! It just is!

Knowledge is the fuel of the mind and the mind is the Demon of the spirit!

Demon = rival.

I like your word play...very interesting...Remember...not all demons are rivals!

Thank you for the Galactic Hugs Settl4It.

I see you have changed your avatar again it is very sensual.
Indeed the daughters of man are beautiful to behold.

Did you paint this avatar? I would not be surprised if you did as you are most talented.

I do hope all is well with you I must go on a journey now but will return soon...

Thank you my Dear...You know my work...Very nice of you...I myself am going on a journey...Will check back in later!

God damn i wish i could restore my abilities ASAFP.

I can barely be in control of my sleeping patterns... and my third eye wont open... event thought its really close... it just shutdown for no frigin reason...

IS it my mind or im being kept down by some sort of device.

I wish i could help along... but i am being kept away...

Im Lending you Blitz Plasma Sheild Overdrive, this Will help you greatly when outnumbered!

The plasma sheild is a defensive sphere of Heat with plasma balls dancing around the heat ball Sending a massive Thunderbolt to anyone hitting the sheild. This can only sustain 6 hit, then the shield turn into a Massive 5 yards radius Fire nova.

the cooldown of the ability is around 1 minute and requires 20% of your total energy reserve when active.

The damage capability of the thunder and fire is based on the ammount of energy that is reserved for the ability.

On top of that, as long as the sheild is active, Fire attacks absorbed by the sheild cause your energy reserve to regenerate faster and lightning attacks increase temporaly the Damage capacity of any plasma based attacks you can deal.

Im lending you also the Electron Orb. May these help you...

the orb is a slow moving projectile, Try not aiming directly with it. make it pass close by to your targets, its more efficient. All the plasma lightning discharge emanating from the orb Steals Life force on your tagets and regenerate you as long as you are linking to the orb.

Linking reduce damage output and cause the orb to last way longer. non linking however makes the orb faster and more devastating when it dies.

there is also Reiki Vega that can be useful with 90% of your energy reserve focused on it.. It will cause instant destruction of anything it come accross. (warning it can not be destroyed within its course.)

Vespar Infernus Alpha = focused storm of highly condensed devastating Blazing rocks. Rains down 20-30 blazing rocks on a 2-3 yards radius zone for a 5 seconds duration! (stunned enemies have no chance of surviving this!)

Cast delay is estimated to 20 seconds and energy required is about 15%.

klundar Orb Delta = This... i will let you try it! try it on open field on some sort of rocks, then focus only about 5% of your energy reserve on it.... :D

Somethings up/coming...For 4 nights now I have dreamed horrid dreams of...I guess one could say plagues...that were hitting the earth...I have been up for a while...This last one woke me at 3 am...again...In it some dust like stuff came down from the sky...People started going 'missing'...animals killed each other out of fear...Loud voices kept yelling down from the sky...people were running but dropped dead when the voices started...I watched as many other things played out...I was forced to...then a voice started speaking too me...I cannot recall what was said...I woke up crying...This is still weighing on me...I feel like I need to be doing something...I just cannot figure out what!!

maybe, just maybe you are being attacked by an entity to make you feel worthless.


becase i got to admit... my dreams are really neutral. Nothing useful... wich pisses me off to no end.

is it possible that this have something to do with the 4 seals you found around your home?

I thought that as well...but this is not related...The seals are nothing that worries me...I sealed them to keep any evil away...

Something/someone is trying to get my attention I think

It is not I my human hug buddy I will only send good thoughts toward you...

Maybe you can help me quasar.

no matter what i do to meditate i end up blocaked somehow.

i can see a blueish light glow blending with a purpleish color.

I hear the buzzing noise but as soon as it intensify it just completly shutoff. Its driving me nuts to not know why it happens.

Perhaps you have angered something...

Oh how sweet...My Alien HUG BUDDY!!!...The only hugs I except!

what are you suggesting? An entity that fears me, hate me to the point of not wanting me to awaken to my true nature?

Another glp user told me it was because i was a tasty host and they don't want to stop feeding off me.

i can share its user name , but i would rather keep it anonymous.