I'm probably not alone when I say we all have multiple traumas that mess with our heads.

Here is a list of mine that probably still effect me as these types of traumas are hard to forget.

1) I was circumcised at age 4. A hateful nurse threatened to stick a sharp object up my penis if I didn't urinate in a cup before my surgery. It took 3 anesthetic shots to put me under as I was so terrified. I woke up of course with a penis that looked like a burnt hotdog.
This is my first conscious memory and remember practically nothing from age 4 to age 7.

2) At age 7, my brother and I were sent to a church camp my parents thought would be fun for us. It was run down; the church members tried to tell us every day we were going to hell if we didn't memorize bible verses; it was 102-105F every day. We couldn't get out of the heat and were forced to drink contaminated water (I got sick for a month after I got home). We thought about running away. I fell out of bed like 5 times a night. It took months for me to recover...I was a mental wreck.

2) I was thrown in a dirty lake in 3d grade by a church deacon who thought it would be good for me to overcome my fear of algea and slime.

3) I saw my brother come home from grades K & 1 all beat up by some bullies where one of the teachers actually encouraged the kids to beat him up. I told my mom I didn't want to grow up and go to school because I wasn't going to take that from anybody.

4) I had stagefright so bad in 4th grade during a mandetory play i had to be part of, I sank into a severe depression for the remainder of the school year. ( I think that was like 2 months of debilitaing depression). I even wrote a 5 page paper about how I was hoping things would get better in the future because things were pretty crummy in the now.

5) My brother and I (and most of our neighborhood that we moved to) were bullied by a bunch of gay teenagers whose dad was a corrupt cop who told them to extort money from families in the neighborhood. We lived in fear for 2 years and had dreams of horrible vengence for 3 years afterward which consumed a good part of our childhood.

6) Lastly....and probably the hardest trauma in parts
a) WHen I was 7 my mom told me where babies came from and told me it is a man's duty to give her wife babies. Never again did she speak of boy/girl , man/woman relationships

b) When I was 15 she set me up a date with someone at church ( a daughter of a choir member)

c) She later denied that this girl was my girlfreind and eventually called the girl a slut

d) Both my parents told me this girl was getting married (it wasn't her but her older sister).....I was devistated and we moved a week later. I didn't find out till like 25 years later.

e) As a result of that trauma, I got involved in lot's of drugs in HS even though I still got strait A's

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I'm sure you all have similiar things........main thing is these things mess with your mind and most aren't talked about. IT's good to realize where some of the junk we deal with today comes from.