I didn't necessarily relate to every conceptualization in the original post but I do recognize that every individual's perspective will be unique to his/her own experiences. People have suicidal thoughts even without going through this process so I don't think it's blasphemous that it was mentioned, because the psychological & physiological changes can be very confusing & disorienting. Perhaps it would be more constructive to chime in and offer your own perspective rather than go after the OP's credibility. He had his experience, you had your experience, I had mine... There is some common ground mixed in there, which is what's valuable for others in having this discussion.