I Think God Told Me that I'm a Lunatic Last Night.

It really hurt my feelings.

I was praying and I thought He said, "She's a lunatic." and I couldn't believe that I heard that because it sounds so much like what my husband says to me when he's angry with me. He will say that I'm crazy to discredit me so he can win an argument. Though I didn't know that I was in an argument of any type with God, I just thought I was talking to Him like I do every night. Then I hear, "Just look at her."

Last night, the cat came and sat by my arm, very close and comforted me, but I still don't know what this whole thing is about. I enjoy being on glp and watching the news and speculating on finance and Israel and world affairs. I can't work a job now because of my mental status and needing to be here for my autistic son, whom I love very much. Still, I don't understand why this happened last night.

Very confused and hurt and unsure what to think. Afraid to ask. I know I was snuggled this morning intensely, but I don't understand any of this. I trust in God to treat me with love and to be my encourager. To tell me good things about myself and my abilities. I'm very dependant. Maybe He's getting tired of me being so dependant and needy. My sister says that you should stay away from needy people. I quit having imaginary friends who were my encouragers and witnesses and turned all the way toward God. I really don't understand what I must have done to upset Him and I feel like He didn't tell me what I did to upset Him, so I am hurt and confused.

I don't get it. Really.