Freyja are you here?

bump so she sees...

either she's cut off from the ice storm... or she's got all my children to finish taking care of.

Sophia knows me so well!

Goldeggs:

okay here goes I am furiously searching for a home(I feel in the dream I am displaced). My grandmother (who has past) is driving a car where I am a passenger. In my dream my mothers dead(she's still living) and my grandmother is driving wrecklessly(pun intended I guess LOL). I keep begging my grandmother to tell me I my mother loved me. And she just keeps laughing this awful laugh. I argue and say I know she'd want to take care of me and my grandmother's eyes shoot back at me with the most vile, contemptuous look of hate. (That look is really what's unnerving me----it really scared me)

(((All of these women are you. Doubts you feel about yourself and how you have not been kind and loving to you. You may be having thought patterns of not being worthy or not lovable....these can be in many various ways, from how you treat yourself to how you give your power away to others. It is your inner being daring you to love yourself enough to get in the drivers seat of your life regardless of other people's opinions of judgements of your choices.))))

The dream then switches to some run down hotel it seems like. I am supposed to be there for some awards ceremony for my son........but I can't find him......by the time I do I've missed the ceremony and he is hiding under a free-standing mirror, crying. He won't talk to me. He runs away from me.

(((your inner child feels that you are ignoring him...take time to honour the child in you, the pieces that you have lost and denied, possibly due to self protection from others who have hurt you and made you feel alone and unnurtured. You can really take time to talk to this child aspect that is you and tell this child that you will always be there for it and love it no matter what...that you have taken back your power as an adult and that you promise to always honour both of those aspects...child and adult. Be playful with yourself!)))

Then I am in a posh house.....and a co-worker(and many others I do not recognize) are there. I am supposed to be the maid? I am busy cleaning for some sort of big event, and this co-worker and I get into a fight.


(((This is showing you that your subconscious mind is bringing up past hurts to be cleaned up...embraced and released. You may be fighting this process by not acknowledging that it is you who creates all of your reality again and again by allowing your mind to continually dredge up the past...thus the same patterns play on. By allowing the memories of the past (flashbacks) move thru you without getting stuck in the illusion of pain, the past is released. Just watch the memories and say " oh thank you now you can go now, I no longer need you for my new present moment".)))

Please.........when I awoke I felt so nauseated. Can't shake feeling of unease. Nothing has been happening lately that would seem to be a cause for this. Any insights?

(((( We are all releasing the toxins that are buried in the brain centers at this time....the cleansing of our robes at the end of time. The trick is to not become reattached to the memories and make them new realities again...observe and love and release...forgive yourself. Then when this process is thru, you will see there was never anything to forgive afterall. You are in a very wonderful place of birthing the new you...let it be and breathe while you hold yourself in love for the beauty and wonder that you truly are.))))

Breathe baby!!!!

Wow Freyja

That takes my breathe away... guided by spirit, indeed!

T....it is always easier to do other people isn't it!

I know you have given me such accurate insight into some of my dreams that I did not see.

You're just cool that way I guess.

Yeah...you're right Freyja. I do a pretty decent job of interpreting my dreams for myself, but you and Thomas gave me some insights yesterday I hadn't thought of.

I think that I have my "pet" ideas and if I'm not careful, I'll pigeonhole my dreams into one of them. Getting an outside opinion helps me break out of my own personally imposed stereotype.

Ceci

I ate another apple today.

was it a golden apple?

Arkansas Black.

I keep recalling something Jung wrote about dreams.

The world of the unconscious cannot be interpreted by the conscious, otherwise it wouldn't be the unconscious.

mmmm tart

I recall Seth saying that there really is no "unconscious mind", only that which we pretend not to know.

"I recall Seth saying that there really is no "unconscious mind", only that which we pretend not to know."

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Cool quote...gotta write that one down.

Ceci

why do we pretend asgardhr?

due to a dramatic experience a couple months ago with remembering, it appears the pretending stems from fear of the powerfulness of gnowing. AND past persecution for gnowing.

I don't know Frejya. Maybe we cannot function in life if we are too aware; we need to trim our focus.

Isn't our existence as these 'people' we seem to be a pretending of some sort, a necessary one?

you are so right.

it does seem the more aware you become the more challenging it is to navigate *out there*.

not that I am complaining!

just saying that life turns upside down with more knowing...i suppose we acclimate gradually though.

hope!

yeah its me hi how are you?

I wonder asgardhr if there's any correlation to some thoughts I had recently.

I take pictures...a photography nut actually. But I've found that I don't necessarily take my best pictures with the camera's that have the most features. Sometimes a camera that actually has more limitations enables me to take better shots! It sounds bassackward I know. But working around the camera's weaknesses, gives a framwork. You know you can't do this, this, or this, so you focus on what you can do...and often times, do a better job of it because you're not distracted.

Anyway...that's just a guess that seems to be somehow connected here.

FWIW...I have two cams. A dSLR which in my mind has so few limitations that the sky's the limit. And another pocket cam that most people grouse has noisey images, chromatic abberation, etc. But to me, I take just as good a picture with the cheap cam as I do with the expensive one. One would have thought that the expensive one should have enabled me to take better shots all the time. It does on occasion, but not always...not by a long shot.

What's interestig about my latest "limitation" camera...is it has a unique aspect ratio and forces you to compose your pictures utterly differently than any camera I've used before. So limitaions and all...it's still making for a unique experience.

I dunno...I may be stretching the analogy...but somehow I see a connection.

Ceci

Absolutely cecirdr. Less is more. I got back into music this year. And to everyone I know's chagrin got an analog recorder....I don't want a computer anywhere near my music creating! The rougher and more hands-on the better, I feel.

Freyja - Yep. Enlightenment sucks. Best to be simple, small and happy.

FREYJA

THANK YOU

I felt so awful for the remainder of the day................GUILT the # 1 problem.........after I read what you said..................it all seemed to make sense.

I have always blamed me.............((hanging my head.........vividly remembering my grandmother calling me "Percy"--short for persecution complex---so she told me. She told me I always seemed to assume/take on responsibilty for every bad thing that happened......even from a very early age. That was my nickname for as long as I can remember. She'd actually hit me with her wooden spoon anytime I'd say "I'm sorry").

I guess I need to make peace with myself toot sweet!! Sheesh so much gained and in an instant-----I'm right back there!!! So much for releasing----I thought I had already done that!