Very interesting, OP

You might be talking about the feeling you get when you discover everyone can be an empath including yourself, then you become "contagious" to souls that are too gone to wake up and while the sleeping soul tries to wake the body with physical symptoms/illness

I got so sick one time I thought I died and rebirthed. I found myself wanting to "change my ways" and "live better". It was after realizing my first substantial truths about life and myself