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Was thinking on it was like the one monitering was pushed out upon awakening the roll to left was like going to fall back asleep so re entry was attempted, had three following me through dreams twice in past week I confronted and asked why they watch me after trying to allude for what felt like days and they ceeded that I had seen to much.

Felt like a push in centre of spine yes pressure, then a push back from my end created the wave/pulse going up and down spine from centre of push.

Fell asleep really early with me littlen after walking in the woods for a while, will most likely be up all night now.
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So many here have such interesting dreams...

Mine are completely random and all over the place it seems. For example, yesterday the only dream I remember having was opening a drawer belonging to another and discovering my socks in their drawer along with their clothing.

As I stared at my socks, I was then set to determined whether or not I should take them back.

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Sounds like a lovely walk.

:)

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Was thinking on it was like the one monitering was pushed out upon awakening the roll to left was like going to fall back asleep so re entry was attempted, had three following me through dreams twice in past week I confronted and asked why they watch me after trying to allude for what felt like days and they ceeded that I had seen to much.

Felt like a push in centre of spine yes pressure, then a push back from my end created the wave/pulse going up and down spine from centre of push.

Fell asleep really early with me littlen after walking in the woods for a while, will most likely be up all night now.
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So many here have such interesting dreams...

Mine are completely random and all over the place it seems. For example, yesterday the only dream I remember having was opening a drawer belonging to another and discovering my socks in their drawer along with their clothing.

As I stared at my socks, I was then set to determined whether or not I should take them back.

tounge



Sounds like a lovely walk.

:)
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Mine are random to the point of location yet can jump from place to place yet is like you play roles you know is the dream but just play along losing yourself in the play.

You are so cute seerstar often the feeling of wanting to give you a big hug just creeps up on me lol. My mrs often steals my socks then returns them with holes in the cheeky cow, dunno how she manages it yet she is the destroyer of socks.

Yes walk was lovely except our loonie puppy has taken it upon himself to bark at everything that moves and now he chases birds that are in flight running looking upwards crashing in to all sorts, the boys find it hilarious.
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Mine are random to the point of location yet can jump from place to place yet is like you play roles you know is the dream but just play along losing yourself in the play.

You are so cute seerstar often the feeling of wanting to give you a big hug just creeps up on me lol. My mrs often steals my socks then returns them with holes in the cheeky cow, dunno how she manages it yet she is the destroyer of socks.

Yes walk was lovely except our loonie puppy has taken it upon himself to bark at everything that moves and now he chases birds that are in flight running looking upwards crashing in to all sorts, the boys find it hilarious.
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rofl

I do that too. Not the holes part.

Men's socks are much longer and I can pull them up to just under my knees which helps keep me warm in the Winter. It doesn't seem to effect the elastic as I have heard no complaint of said over the years...

I didn't know you got a puppy. What is the breed? What's his name?

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I wanted to call him frank but the boys decided on spike.

He is a black and tan jack Russel, and rather excitable, so fits right in.
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I wanted to call him frank but the boys decided on spike.

He is a black and tan jack Russel, and rather excitable, so fits right in.
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:)

I have always desired a Jack Russel since seeing The Mask with Jim Carrey in the 90's. I believe his dog was named Milo.

I loved how intelligent and quick witted the dog seemed. However, I here they require a lot of exercise.

Spike...reminds me of this.


[link to www.youtube.com]

lol...he does say it. Wow. The stuff they sneak in.
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Lol yep bouncy little thing, we got loads of open fields and things for him to chase, so he is set up nicely, he has been teething of late, he is carolines surregut baby he even lies on back in her arms is so funny she bathed and blow dried him tonight he is a pampered pooch, seems to have saved my bacon with mrs broody pants... For now at least.
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Lol yep bouncy little thing, we got loads of open fields and things for him to chase, so he is set up nicely, he has been teething of late, he is carolines surregut baby he even lies on back in her arms is so funny she bathed and blow dried him tonight he is a pampered pooch, seems to have saved my bacon with mrs broody pants... For now at least.
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I would like to assume that everyone enjoys having something to love and dote on. Puppies are hard to resist loving. Kitties too.

HeartsBeatas1

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Lol yep bouncy little thing, we got loads of open fields and things for him to chase, so he is set up nicely, he has been teething of late, he is carolines surregut baby he even lies on back in her arms is so funny she bathed and blow dried him tonight he is a pampered pooch, seems to have saved my bacon with mrs broody pants... For now at least.
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I would like to assume that everyone enjoys having something to love and dote on. Puppies are hard to resist loving. Kitties too.

:HeartsBeatas1:

:)
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Lol yep bouncy little thing, we got loads of open fields and things for him to chase, so he is set up nicely, he has been teething of late, he is carolines surregut baby he even lies on back in her arms is so funny she bathed and blow dried him tonight he is a pampered pooch, seems to have saved my bacon with mrs broody pants... For now at least.
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I would like to assume that everyone enjoys having something to love and dote on. Puppies are hard to resist loving. Kitties too.

:HeartsBeatas1:

:)
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Did I tell you my cat scratch passed away?

Broke my heart seerstar I was in bits, had him for years was a rescue cat he found me, he would sit up with me all night often times jumping on the keyboard to get attention would follow me to the shops, unclear what happened to him vet said organ failure which could have caused due to poisening it was bitterly cold at the time so someone could have spilt antifreeze... Just dunno.

Kids took it better than me, I ended up wallowing in bed for over a week, I still see him sitting outside my window waiting to be let in.
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Did I tell you my cat scratch passed away?

Broke my heart seerstar I was in bits, had him for years was a rescue cat he found me, he would sit up with me all night often times jumping on the keyboard to get attention would follow me to the shops, unclear what happened to him vet said organ failure which could have caused due to poisening it was bitterly cold at the time so someone could have spilt antifreeze... Just dunno.

Kids took it better than me, I ended up wallowing in bed for over a week, I still see him sitting outside my window waiting to be let in.
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No I didn't know that. I am sorry to hear. I know that sting well.

hugs


It has been well over a year since Sabbie passed, but I still find myself calling for him on occasion, or wondering how he is doing when I am out of town.

He was a beloved friend. :)

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Was reading your reply about moving the energy around body using thought.

Is more than that, is consciousness,if they are different ha you know when you pull yourself to a focal point during altered state say in some meditations you pull everything up to crown! For me I have to go down there and pull it up not just think but do, and find that is not as simple as just going down and pulling up and that it, need to do it in sections so let it get used to that part and leave for day bubbling away.

Is rather nice where it is now.

I lost link to your site is wifey birthday in may and am thinking on using you my dear, could you email it to me for me to peruse in own time please.

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Was reading your reply about moving the energy around body using thought.

Is more than that, is consciousness,if they are different ha you know when you pull yourself to a focal point during altered state say in some meditations you pull everything up to crown! For me I have to go down there and pull it up not just think but do, and find that is not as simple as just going down and pulling up and that it, need to do it in sections so let it get used to that part and leave for day bubbling away.

Is rather nice where it is now.

I lost link to your site is wifey birthday in may and am thinking on using you my dear, could you email it to me for me to peruse in own time please.

hugs
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Yes.

Thought and breath. And yes, it is conscious. When you are 'pulling' it up or in, draw s l o w l y to the top of your breath and then hold as long as you can.

This should it spinning, and from there the entire body will become 'filled' and begin to vibrate...Then exhale slowly... It takes practice, but on the exhale you should feel the waves moving out.

Also, pulsing of the throat, eyes, heart, navel...etc.

You can then use your Mind to swirl it around, reach out, communicate, or go anywhere.

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OK, seer777 you caught my attention..


is this Qi meditation seer? plese tell as much as you can about this or direct with links or something.


thanks
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Thanks seerstar, love you lots, bbl.

Found this cute little book on prayer and praises of Celtic tradition in a secondhand bookstore the other day called Threshold of light.

Has a dragon in the shape of a knot on the front is what drew me to it.

Here is one of the praises.

The maker of all things,
The lord god worship we:
Heaven white with angels wings,
Earth and the white waved sea.

It has some lovely words that transport me.

Speak soon my lovely.
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OK, seer777 you caught my attention..


is this Qi meditation seer? plese tell as much as you can about this or direct with links or something.


thanks
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I do not know what it is called exactly.

I call it bliss. Which is only a word utilized to describe a state one desires not to return from...if only to show others how to get there.


Do you have a specific question? As this is a bit of a sensitive subject.

Please note, I will determine whether or not to answer depending...

hf
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What is this feeling? It is so fucking heavy. It never relents, it merely requires a different way of handling the feelings, shuffling around the weight so it is bearable.

Perhaps this is the way that people with addictions feel.

Damn...night after night, clearing away all the past feelings, reconciling with every person I have ever 'known'. Clearing it all out, leaving me a tired wreck of over-abused emotions that reflect as if those reconciliations are an over all reality, when they are most likely just mine.

It can't be this way for anyone, for everyone. I do not know how to...lift it without making me bend so. Perhaps these things I experience are not real, and I am behaving as if they are.

I am 44 years old. I have striven for most of my life to find out what has happened to me. What if, like others in the world, I discover that it all is bullshit? I probably wouldn't mind, as long as I am able to stop thinking.

Probably the worst thing I could have done is let others know of what I have been through. By writing it down, or speaking of it, I embed it deep into my self. Why is it not better to let if flow through without...

I think about people living to an old, ripe age, and it terrifies me. I cannot imagine living these 44 years all over again, and more than half of those years forgotten in the depths of birth, childhood and debauchery.

What makes me really fucked up, is that I am writing this on a public forum, to people I don't even 'know' in real life. A declare myself a fucking idiot to be known, and therefor used and abused, understood and in the end, obviously manipulated.

Does it matter in the end? I have been told it does, yet to remain true to self is what I aspire to. To all those that do not aspire to that, god help you.
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Good morning everyone.

Yes, seems the meme has whipped itself into a frenzy again today.

:)
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Have you noticed a pattern to the frenzies?

It is somewhat predictable and can be seen coming days in advance by the build, which eventually leads to a peak, then a fall.

Like I mentioned before...it seems the 'volume' gets turned up on everyone at once, then the reactions play out according to held perceptions at the time...


hmm

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This too will pass...


Matterhorn

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What is this feeling? It is so fucking heavy. It never relents, it merely requires a different way of handling the feelings, shuffling around the weight so it is bearable.

Perhaps this is the way that people with addictions feel.

Damn...night after night, clearing away all the past feelings, reconciling with every person I have ever 'known'. Clearing it all out, leaving me a tired wreck of over-abused emotions that reflect as if those reconciliations are an over all reality, when they are most likely just mine.

It can't be this way for anyone, for everyone. I do not know how to...lift it without making me bend so. Perhaps these things I experience are not real, and I am behaving as if they are.

I am 44 years old. I have striven for most of my life to find out what has happened to me. What if, like others in the world, I discover that it all is bullshit? I probably wouldn't mind, as long as I am able to stop thinking.

Probably the worst thing I could have done is let others know of what I have been through. By writing it down, or speaking of it, I embed it deep into my self. Why is it not better to let if flow through without...

I think about people living to an old, ripe age, and it terrifies me. I cannot imagine living these 44 years all over again, and more than half of those years forgotten in the depths of birth, childhood and debauchery.

What makes me really fucked up, is that I am writing this on a public forum, to people I don't even 'know' in real life. A declare myself a fucking idiot to be known, and therefor used and abused, understood and in the end, obviously manipulated.

Does it matter in the end? I have been told it does, yet to remain true to self is what I aspire to. To all those that do not aspire to that, god help you.
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not german beer night then hugs

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"Do you have a specific question? As this is a bit of a sensitive subject.

Please note, I will determine whether or not to answer depending..."


I really dont know enough to have a specific question..

it just sounds alot like Qigong meditation focusing on Qi (chi) energy and since you seem to have experience I ask.


Qi is life force energy, Im starting to feel it in meditation but not sure what to do or how to visualise it or what.

I can sort of understand how it might be sensitive for you since you are female. I dont think males are sensitve like this. please forgive me or if that is not the sensitive you mean then I am curious.

oh well, might not be of use for oposite sex in these areas either? I have read though that female Qigong practitioner can control or stop that monthly cycle and it rasies tremendous energy for them the ame way that transmuting sperm does for males. I hope I did not make you uncomfortable, we are adults and this is helpful information is the way I look at it.

Qigong practice can heal everything from what I understand.
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What is this feeling? It is so fucking heavy. It never relents, it merely requires a different way of handling the feelings, shuffling around the weight so it is bearable.

Perhaps this is the way that people with addictions feel.

Damn...night after night, clearing away all the past feelings, reconciling with every person I have ever 'known'. Clearing it all out, leaving me a tired wreck of over-abused emotions that reflect as if those reconciliations are an over all reality, when they are most likely just mine.

It can't be this way for anyone, for everyone. I do not know how to...lift it without making me bend so. Perhaps these things I experience are not real, and I am behaving as if they are.

I am 44 years old. I have striven for most of my life to find out what has happened to me. What if, like others in the world, I discover that it all is bullshit? I probably wouldn't mind, as long as I am able to stop thinking.

Probably the worst thing I could have done is let others know of what I have been through. By writing it down, or speaking of it, I embed it deep into my self. Why is it not better to let if flow through without...

I think about people living to an old, ripe age, and it terrifies me. I cannot imagine living these 44 years all over again, and more than half of those years forgotten in the depths of birth, childhood and debauchery.

What makes me really fucked up, is that I am writing this on a public forum, to people I don't even 'know' in real life. A declare myself a fucking idiot to be known, and therefor used and abused, understood and in the end, obviously manipulated.

Does it matter in the end? I have been told it does, yet to remain true to self is what I aspire to. To all those that do not aspire to that, god help you.
 Quoting: Septenary Man


It is your battle.

And one I am sure you will overcome. hugs

Fuck em all chad express when were and how you like.

Must try and sleep now busy day tomorrow.
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welcome back

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not german beer night then hugs
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I was looking forward to it. As this is my last open Friday for the year.

Next week Markets start again and the season ramps up into full swing.


Oh well.

Expectation and all that...

lol.


BeMerry

Be well Sept.

:)
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Good morning everyone.

Yes, seems the meme has whipped itself into a frenzy again today.

:)
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Have you noticed a pattern to the frenzies?

It is somewhat predictable and can be seen coming days in advance by the build, which eventually leads to a peak, then a fall.

Like I mentioned before...it seems the 'volume' gets turned up on everyone at once, then the reactions play out according to held perceptions at the time...


hmm

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This too will pass...


Matterhorn

:)
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remember you linked this /z\ to the sun yesterday

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was just coming her to point this out :)
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unusual pattern today /z\ tounge
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What is this feeling? It is so fucking heavy. It never relents, it merely requires a different way of handling the feelings, shuffling around the weight so it is bearable.

Perhaps this is the way that people with addictions feel.

Damn...night after night, clearing away all the past feelings, reconciling with every person I have ever 'known'. Clearing it all out, leaving me a tired wreck of over-abused emotions that reflect as if those reconciliations are an over all reality, when they are most likely just mine.

It can't be this way for anyone, for everyone. I do not know how to...lift it without making me bend so. Perhaps these things I experience are not real, and I am behaving as if they are.

I am 44 years old. I have striven for most of my life to find out what has happened to me. What if, like others in the world, I discover that it all is bullshit? I probably wouldn't mind, as long as I am able to stop thinking.

Probably the worst thing I could have done is let others know of what I have been through. By writing it down, or speaking of it, I embed it deep into my self. Why is it not better to let if flow through without...

I think about people living to an old, ripe age, and it terrifies me. I cannot imagine living these 44 years all over again, and more than half of those years forgotten in the depths of birth, childhood and debauchery.

What makes me really fucked up, is that I am writing this on a public forum, to people I don't even 'know' in real life. A declare myself a fucking idiot to be known, and therefor used and abused, understood and in the end, obviously manipulated.

Does it matter in the end? I have been told it does, yet to remain true to self is what I aspire to. To all those that do not aspire to that, god help you.
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not german beer night then hugs
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Sometimes it gets so fucking hard emotionally, Brian. These fucking dreams...the damn visions. These things that have no words to the experiences, yet they are 'realer' than...

I just need to shut up. But, I've found I receive comfort from strangers I have never met face to face. I need to pull away from that. There is absolutely no sense in doing so, and yet here I am doing it now.
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What is this feeling? It is so fucking heavy. It never relents, it merely requires a different way of handling the feelings, shuffling around the weight so it is bearable.

Perhaps this is the way that people with addictions feel.

Damn...night after night, clearing away all the past feelings, reconciling with every person I have ever 'known'. Clearing it all out, leaving me a tired wreck of over-abused emotions that reflect as if those reconciliations are an over all reality, when they are most likely just mine.

It can't be this way for anyone, for everyone. I do not know how to...lift it without making me bend so. Perhaps these things I experience are not real, and I am behaving as if they are.

I am 44 years old. I have striven for most of my life to find out what has happened to me. What if, like others in the world, I discover that it all is bullshit? I probably wouldn't mind, as long as I am able to stop thinking.

Probably the worst thing I could have done is let others know of what I have been through. By writing it down, or speaking of it, I embed it deep into my self. Why is it not better to let if flow through without...

I think about people living to an old, ripe age, and it terrifies me. I cannot imagine living these 44 years all over again, and more than half of those years forgotten in the depths of birth, childhood and debauchery.

What makes me really fucked up, is that I am writing this on a public forum, to people I don't even 'know' in real life. A declare myself a fucking idiot to be known, and therefor used and abused, understood and in the end, obviously manipulated.

Does it matter in the end? I have been told it does, yet to remain true to self is what I aspire to. To all those that do not aspire to that, god help you.
 Quoting: Septenary Man


:hug2:

Sept, you are one of the best posters here.

Hold the light.

I feel you pain, but glad there is someone else who likesto talk about the same stuff I do.

hf
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welcome back

hf
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Back to the living...
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What is this feeling? It is so fucking heavy. It never relents, it merely requires a different way of handling the feelings, shuffling around the weight so it is bearable.

Perhaps this is the way that people with addictions feel.

Damn...night after night, clearing away all the past feelings, reconciling with every person I have ever 'known'. Clearing it all out, leaving me a tired wreck of over-abused emotions that reflect as if those reconciliations are an over all reality, when they are most likely just mine.

It can't be this way for anyone, for everyone. I do not know how to...lift it without making me bend so. Perhaps these things I experience are not real, and I am behaving as if they are.

I am 44 years old. I have striven for most of my life to find out what has happened to me. What if, like others in the world, I discover that it all is bullshit? I probably wouldn't mind, as long as I am able to stop thinking.

Probably the worst thing I could have done is let others know of what I have been through. By writing it down, or speaking of it, I embed it deep into my self. Why is it not better to let if flow through without...

I think about people living to an old, ripe age, and it terrifies me. I cannot imagine living these 44 years all over again, and more than half of those years forgotten in the depths of birth, childhood and debauchery.

What makes me really fucked up, is that I am writing this on a public forum, to people I don't even 'know' in real life. A declare myself a fucking idiot to be known, and therefor used and abused, understood and in the end, obviously manipulated.

Does it matter in the end? I have been told it does, yet to remain true to self is what I aspire to. To all those that do not aspire to that, god help you.
 Quoting: Septenary Man


:hug2:

Sept, you are one of the best posters here.

Hold the light.

I feel you pain, but glad there is someone else who likesto talk about the same stuff I do.

hf
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I do not like to talk about this stuff. I get comfort from minds here, but...I just...I'm going to shut up now. I'm not sure if it is worth it, doing this. It feels like a 'Momentary Lapse of Reason'.

I have become too entangled with what other people say, and how they persuade me. I need to climb back into myself, and leave the tracings of bias by the wayside.
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"Do you have a specific question? As this is a bit of a sensitive subject.

Please note, I will determine whether or not to answer depending..."


I really dont know enough to have a specific question..

it just sounds alot like Qigong meditation focusing on Qi (chi) energy and since you seem to have experience I ask.


Qi is life force energy, Im starting to feel it in meditation but not sure what to do or how to visualise it or what.

I can sort of understand how it might be sensitive for you since you are female. I dont think males are sensitve like this. please forgive me or if that is not the sensitive you mean then I am curious.

oh well, might not be of use for oposite sex in these areas either? I have read though that female Qigong practitioner can control or stop that monthly cycle and it rasies tremendous energy for them the ame way that transmuting sperm does for males. I hope I did not make you uncomfortable, we are adults and this is helpful information is the way I look at it.

Qigong practice can heal everything from what I understand.
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Lol.

I was wondering why the phrase 'oh well' came to me in my last post. Not something I normally say.


Yes, we have discussed said a few times on this thread regarding the harnessing of sexual energy and the cessation of 'monthly cycles'.

However, the topic was often met with discomfort...when I attempted to broach it.


I would suggest the breathing exercise I mentioned to acuk. A good set of headphones, and perhaps the utilization of Theda beats to start the 'vibrations'.


This was one of my favorites to meditate to when I was meditating for 5-7 hours a day last year.

Do note that it can be scary...

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Difficulties strengthen the Mind as labor does the body...
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tounge


Good morning everyone.

Yes, seems the meme has whipped itself into a frenzy again today.

:)
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Have you noticed a pattern to the frenzies?

It is somewhat predictable and can be seen coming days in advance by the build, which eventually leads to a peak, then a fall.

Like I mentioned before...it seems the 'volume' gets turned up on everyone at once, then the reactions play out according to held perceptions at the time...


hmm

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This too will pass...


Matterhorn

:)
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remember you linked this /z\ to the sun yesterday

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was just coming her to point this out :)
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unusual pattern today /z\ tounge
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I am not learned on how to read those charts. What is it showing?


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Man, I thought it was all over there for a while

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What is this feeling? It is so fucking heavy. It never relents, it merely requires a different way of handling the feelings, shuffling around the weight so it is bearable.

Perhaps this is the way that people with addictions feel.

Damn...night after night, clearing away all the past feelings, reconciling with every person I have ever 'known'. Clearing it all out, leaving me a tired wreck of over-abused emotions that reflect as if those reconciliations are an over all reality, when they are most likely just mine.

It can't be this way for anyone, for everyone. I do not know how to...lift it without making me bend so. Perhaps these things I experience are not real, and I am behaving as if they are.

I am 44 years old. I have striven for most of my life to find out what has happened to me. What if, like others in the world, I discover that it all is bullshit? I probably wouldn't mind, as long as I am able to stop thinking.

Probably the worst thing I could have done is let others know of what I have been through. By writing it down, or speaking of it, I embed it deep into my self. Why is it not better to let if flow through without...

I think about people living to an old, ripe age, and it terrifies me. I cannot imagine living these 44 years all over again, and more than half of those years forgotten in the depths of birth, childhood and debauchery.

What makes me really fucked up, is that I am writing this on a public forum, to people I don't even 'know' in real life. A declare myself a fucking idiot to be known, and therefor used and abused, understood and in the end, obviously manipulated.

Does it matter in the end? I have been told it does, yet to remain true to self is what I aspire to. To all those that do not aspire to that, god help you.
 Quoting: Septenary Man


:hug2:

Sept, you are one of the best posters here.

Hold the light.

I feel you pain, but glad there is someone else who likesto talk about the same stuff I do.

hf
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I do not like to talk about this stuff. I get comfort from minds here, but...I just...I'm going to shut up now. I'm not sure if it is worth it, doing this. It feels like a 'Momentary Lapse of Reason'.

I have become too entangled with what other people say, and how they persuade me. I need to climb back into myself, and leave the tracings of bias by the wayside.
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I had this idea. You ever think about making "starship coil" transducers? With silver wire...

You should look into it.


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