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Anonymous Coward User ID: 44526104 United Kingdom 08/03/2013 09:59 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | ugh. My mind is so frazzled right now. I don't respond through past activities, just merely through immediate response. I need to get some rest. Then, I go into lucid mode, and I'm not sure the rest I am getting is worth all that. Last night I was working on viewing the solar system, black holes and other things. Problem fucking is, is that when you view the solar system, or galaxy, or whatever, it is all black, and I have to make it 'clear' viewing within the bubble I am creating it within. In the meantime, the entire structure is not holding form. It is as if the altered state itself has become unstable, and I cannot stabilize aspects of it like I used to be able to do. I even have to locate the sun and lock onto it while holding the heliosphere together within the bubble. But even the bubble is constantly shifting and location is drifting. I entered the bubble hoping that would fix my position, but that doesn't work either, like it used to. On top of all that, I have entities (fuckers) fucking with me constantly making sure I cannot lock into any reference point. So, then I have to go deal with them, before I can restart the experiment. And that is just one night of lucid sleep. Not to mention the 'disruptions' of temptation, and ego, and anger that must be kept in control trying to maintain lucidity, and the want to be a 'god' and do whatever the hell I want, instead of nitpicking all this knowledge from that side. And, I have to be careful, because once pulled in the astral, I get all this myriad of other crap that needs to be...shit. lol, I am in a mood and it is difficult to balance when I cannot even rest the consciousness at night as well. Now, I can if I wish, but then I remain static, and the feeling is even worse when I feel like I need to work, and nothing is getting done/. Have you ever tried to smoke a joint in the astral? |
Anonymous Coward User ID: 44526104 United Kingdom 08/03/2013 10:01 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | well it was odd really cos the women was one of 2 that " worked" together, this i know looking back , i met one and we did research and that prompted her to introduce me to her friend, the other women whom i discovered is quite well known in esoteric circles and has a large following, a bit like a female nissan harriman so when i was introduced to her she had about 20 people with her and she was the "boss shaman" of the group of shaman , men and women i should have left then but i didn`t so i`m the guest "act" and she commences leading me with questions then after about 10 mins. out of the blue she says, "aether you can see my soul and all my life i have waited for a person to see my soul and describe it to me cos i have never seen it" i said no, i don`t do that she got highly emotional and made a huge issue out of it making me feel awkward cos the thought of looking at another`s soul had never entered my imagination, as in: intrusive thus why ever do it anyway she was going nuts and i felt obliged so i said okay i will try woooosh, i have wepwawet coming at me so i decide to let him and talk to him as he does so out aloud and we become friendly the women nearly feints cos she says all her life she thought it was anubis talking to her since she was a kid and it never felt right and now she knew it was wepwawet all the time everything made sense to her so it sort of had a happy ending for all, i stayed friends with wepwawet and stayed away from her cos it felt best to do so from then onwards That is so interesting, why do they often times not introduce themselves as they did not to the lady? Even though they are talking to her. Edit to add: Or is it the one receiving not hearing/feeling who right. |
Seer777 Ride the wings of the mind User ID: 3018467 United States 08/03/2013 10:12 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | well it was odd really cos the women was one of 2 that " worked" together, this i know looking back , i met one and we did research and that prompted her to introduce me to her friend, the other women whom i discovered is quite well known in esoteric circles and has a large following, a bit like a female nissan harriman so when i was introduced to her she had about 20 people with her and she was the "boss shaman" of the group of shaman , men and women i should have left then but i didn`t so i`m the guest "act" and she commences leading me with questions then after about 10 mins. out of the blue she says, "aether you can see my soul and all my life i have waited for a person to see my soul and describe it to me cos i have never seen it" i said no, i don`t do that she got highly emotional and made a huge issue out of it making me feel awkward cos the thought of looking at another`s soul had never entered my imagination, as in: intrusive thus why ever do it anyway she was going nuts and i felt obliged so i said okay i will try woooosh, i have wepwawet coming at me so i decide to let him and talk to him as he does so out aloud and we become friendly the women nearly feints cos she says all her life she thought it was anubis talking to her since she was a kid and it never felt right and now she knew it was wepwawet all the time everything made sense to her so it sort of had a happy ending for all, i stayed friends with wepwawet and stayed away from her cos it felt best to do so from then onwards That is so interesting, why do they often times not introduce themselves as they did not to the lady? Even though they are talking to her. Edit to add: Or is it the one receiving not hearing/feeling who right. Perhaps it was best she didn't know, until she did... Good evening everyone. :) Difficulties strengthen the Mind as labor does the body... ~Seneca |
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aether (OP) User ID: 44460156 United Kingdom 08/03/2013 10:16 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | That is so interesting, why do they often times not introduce themselves as they did not to the lady? Even though they are talking to her. Edit to add: Or is it the one receiving not hearing/feeling who right. well everything has a motive and her relationship with things is hers and theirs (synergy) we each possess our own motives and i suppose we enjoy what our motives provide us with |
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Anonymous Coward User ID: 44526104 United Kingdom 08/03/2013 10:31 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | Yes. Perhaps knowing would have altered everything. She was seeking that answer most of her life...it seemed. By knowing she wouldn't of had to seek that knowing. Bravo seerstar, that makes good sense. I can't sleep I am all excited, going Wiltshire in the morning to see all the crops, gonna drive around all day looking at them with my friend, once I would of wanted to celebrate my birthday getting drunk and high, now I wanna see amazingness everywhere, when I look at this picture, i no longer see a circle, i see a sphere, :scratchhead: :circle: |
Anonymous Coward User ID: 39812740 United States 08/03/2013 10:32 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | ... Quoting: Anonymous Coward 39812740 Like a hypnotized chicken. Why get pissed off when you can just pulp something? lmao! Well, when people get pissed off, they tend not to pulp 'something', but somethings. Anything within range, good or bad. I am sure you understand that, with the past you have shared. That's funny though. The problem with you, is you are too fucking smart, and it is a bitch to try and pulp you, without being pulped into juice in the process. Cheers! I'm a softie and the only thing smart about me is my ass. Btw, my guess is someone showed the babboons something more magenta purple then their asses. It used to be a sign of defiance. Hmm, possibly, yet it is a repeating theme, and if memory serves will go check in a minute, but I believe it happened on the alignment, the most recent one at least. or did you take a peek, they got a mean keeper who needs to be locked in there with them overnight, naked. No worries, I'm beside myself this eve. |
aether (OP) User ID: 44460156 United Kingdom 08/03/2013 10:35 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | Yes. Perhaps knowing would have altered everything. She was seeking that answer most of her life...it seemed. By knowing she wouldn't of had to seek that knowing. Bravo seerstar, that makes good sense. I can't sleep I am all excited, going Wiltshire in the morning to see all the crops, gonna drive around all day looking at them with my friend, once I would of wanted to celebrate my birthday getting drunk and high, now I wanna see amazingness everywhere, when I look at this picture, i no longer see a circle, i see a sphere, :scratchhead: happy birthday in the uk |
Anonymous Coward User ID: 39812740 United States 08/03/2013 10:36 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | Dammit, I say all that, and it is probably you, Dion, with the "Only part of me that is soft is my ass". Quoting: Septenary Spirals I get tired of guessing who might be who and trying to respond in a way that makes sense to that poster. It is all about relationships and known relationships, is it not? As I'd say in the 80's: Doooooood, S'alright. |
Anonymous Coward User ID: 14874606 United States 08/03/2013 10:39 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | ugh. My mind is so frazzled right now. I don't respond through past activities, just merely through immediate response. I need to get some rest. Then, I go into lucid mode, and I'm not sure the rest I am getting is worth all that. Last night I was working on viewing the solar system, black holes and other things. Problem fucking is, is that when you view the solar system, or galaxy, or whatever, it is all black, and I have to make it 'clear' viewing within the bubble I am creating it within. In the meantime, the entire structure is not holding form. It is as if the altered state itself has become unstable, and I cannot stabilize aspects of it like I used to be able to do. I even have to locate the sun and lock onto it while holding the heliosphere together within the bubble. But even the bubble is constantly shifting and location is drifting. I entered the bubble hoping that would fix my position, but that doesn't work either, like it used to. On top of all that, I have entities (fuckers) fucking with me constantly making sure I cannot lock into any reference point. So, then I have to go deal with them, before I can restart the experiment. And that is just one night of lucid sleep. Not to mention the 'disruptions' of temptation, and ego, and anger that must be kept in control trying to maintain lucidity, and the want to be a 'god' and do whatever the hell I want, instead of nitpicking all this knowledge from that side. And, I have to be careful, because once pulled in the astral, I get all this myriad of other crap that needs to be...shit. lol, I am in a mood and it is difficult to balance when I cannot even rest the consciousness at night as well. Now, I can if I wish, but then I remain static, and the feeling is even worse when I feel like I need to work, and nothing is getting done/. Have you ever tried to smoke a joint in the astral? lol, no, not in the astral. |
Anonymous Coward User ID: 14874606 United States 08/03/2013 10:40 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | Yes. Perhaps knowing would have altered everything. She was seeking that answer most of her life...it seemed. By knowing she wouldn't of had to seek that knowing. Bravo seerstar, that makes good sense. I can't sleep I am all excited, going Wiltshire in the morning to see all the crops, gonna drive around all day looking at them with my friend, once I would of wanted to celebrate my birthday getting drunk and high, now I wanna see amazingness everywhere, when I look at this picture, i no longer see a circle, i see a sphere, :scratchhead: :circle: |
aether (OP) User ID: 44460156 United Kingdom 08/03/2013 10:41 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | ugh. My mind is so frazzled right now. I don't respond through past activities, just merely through immediate response. I need to get some rest. Then, I go into lucid mode, and I'm not sure the rest I am getting is worth all that. Last night I was working on viewing the solar system, black holes and other things. Problem fucking is, is that when you view the solar system, or galaxy, or whatever, it is all black, and I have to make it 'clear' viewing within the bubble I am creating it within. In the meantime, the entire structure is not holding form. It is as if the altered state itself has become unstable, and I cannot stabilize aspects of it like I used to be able to do. I even have to locate the sun and lock onto it while holding the heliosphere together within the bubble. But even the bubble is constantly shifting and location is drifting. I entered the bubble hoping that would fix my position, but that doesn't work either, like it used to. On top of all that, I have entities (fuckers) fucking with me constantly making sure I cannot lock into any reference point. So, then I have to go deal with them, before I can restart the experiment. And that is just one night of lucid sleep. Not to mention the 'disruptions' of temptation, and ego, and anger that must be kept in control trying to maintain lucidity, and the want to be a 'god' and do whatever the hell I want, instead of nitpicking all this knowledge from that side. And, I have to be careful, because once pulled in the astral, I get all this myriad of other crap that needs to be...shit. lol, I am in a mood and it is difficult to balance when I cannot even rest the consciousness at night as well. Now, I can if I wish, but then I remain static, and the feeling is even worse when I feel like I need to work, and nothing is getting done/. Have you ever tried to smoke a joint in the astral? lol, no, not in the astral. now you are peaceful |
Anonymous Coward User ID: 14874606 United States 08/03/2013 10:41 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | Dammit, I say all that, and it is probably you, Dion, with the "Only part of me that is soft is my ass". Quoting: Septenary Spirals I get tired of guessing who might be who and trying to respond in a way that makes sense to that poster. It is all about relationships and known relationships, is it not? As I'd say in the 80's: Doooooood, S'alright. omg, lmao. I would be giving you a hug too. holy shit, that's funny. |
Seer777 Ride the wings of the mind User ID: 3018467 United States 08/03/2013 10:42 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | Yes. Perhaps knowing would have altered everything. She was seeking that answer most of her life...it seemed. By knowing she wouldn't of had to seek that knowing. Bravo seerstar, that makes good sense. I can't sleep I am all excited, going Wiltshire in the morning to see all the crops, gonna drive around all day looking at them with my friend, once I would of wanted to celebrate my birthday getting drunk and high, now I wanna see amazingness everywhere, when I look at this picture, i no longer see a circle, i see a sphere, :scratchhead: You plan is to go look at crops? Like corn fields and such? There is farmland all over around here. Perhaps I take those expanses for granted. All sorts. Linn County is the grass seed capital of the world. Or so they boast. Difficulties strengthen the Mind as labor does the body... ~Seneca |
Anonymous Coward User ID: 39812740 United States 08/03/2013 10:45 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | ugh. My mind is so frazzled right now. I don't respond through past activities, just merely through immediate response. I need to get some rest. Then, I go into lucid mode, and I'm not sure the rest I am getting is worth all that. Last night I was working on viewing the solar system, black holes and other things. Problem fucking is, is that when you view the solar system, or galaxy, or whatever, it is all black, and I have to make it 'clear' viewing within the bubble I am creating it within. In the meantime, the entire structure is not holding form. It is as if the altered state itself has become unstable, and I cannot stabilize aspects of it like I used to be able to do. I even have to locate the sun and lock onto it while holding the heliosphere together within the bubble. But even the bubble is constantly shifting and location is drifting. I entered the bubble hoping that would fix my position, but that doesn't work either, like it used to. On top of all that, I have entities (fuckers) fucking with me constantly making sure I cannot lock into any reference point. So, then I have to go deal with them, before I can restart the experiment. And that is just one night of lucid sleep. Not to mention the 'disruptions' of temptation, and ego, and anger that must be kept in control trying to maintain lucidity, and the want to be a 'god' and do whatever the hell I want, instead of nitpicking all this knowledge from that side. And, I have to be careful, because once pulled in the astral, I get all this myriad of other crap that needs to be...shit. lol, I am in a mood and it is difficult to balance when I cannot even rest the consciousness at night as well. Now, I can if I wish, but then I remain static, and the feeling is even worse when I feel like I need to work, and nothing is getting done/. Why think so much, All I ever think is why so many half and quarter steps? It's best to keep things simple. They flow into one another ith a silent recollection. |
Anonymous Coward User ID: 39812740 United States 08/03/2013 10:48 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | Yes. Perhaps knowing would have altered everything. She was seeking that answer most of her life...it seemed. By knowing she wouldn't of had to seek that knowing. Bravo seerstar, that makes good sense. I can't sleep I am all excited, going Wiltshire in the morning to see all the crops, gonna drive around all day looking at them with my friend, once I would of wanted to celebrate my birthday getting drunk and high, now I wanna see amazingness everywhere, when I look at this picture, i no longer see a circle, i see a sphere, :scratchhead: :circle: The sphere is your interaction with it. It is the 3rd that flowers o the fourth. |
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Anonymous Coward User ID: 14874606 United States 08/03/2013 10:50 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | ... Quoting: Septenary Spirals ugh. My mind is so frazzled right now. I don't respond through past activities, just merely through immediate response. I need to get some rest. Then, I go into lucid mode, and I'm not sure the rest I am getting is worth all that. Last night I was working on viewing the solar system, black holes and other things. Problem fucking is, is that when you view the solar system, or galaxy, or whatever, it is all black, and I have to make it 'clear' viewing within the bubble I am creating it within. In the meantime, the entire structure is not holding form. It is as if the altered state itself has become unstable, and I cannot stabilize aspects of it like I used to be able to do. I even have to locate the sun and lock onto it while holding the heliosphere together within the bubble. But even the bubble is constantly shifting and location is drifting. I entered the bubble hoping that would fix my position, but that doesn't work either, like it used to. On top of all that, I have entities (fuckers) fucking with me constantly making sure I cannot lock into any reference point. So, then I have to go deal with them, before I can restart the experiment. And that is just one night of lucid sleep. Not to mention the 'disruptions' of temptation, and ego, and anger that must be kept in control trying to maintain lucidity, and the want to be a 'god' and do whatever the hell I want, instead of nitpicking all this knowledge from that side. And, I have to be careful, because once pulled in the astral, I get all this myriad of other crap that needs to be...shit. lol, I am in a mood and it is difficult to balance when I cannot even rest the consciousness at night as well. Now, I can if I wish, but then I remain static, and the feeling is even worse when I feel like I need to work, and nothing is getting done/. Have you ever tried to smoke a joint in the astral? lol, no, not in the astral. now you are peaceful yes. I told my wife, I wish I could not be the way I am, as far as being so down all the time. And, it is not 'down' in the normal sense. I went for a long drive through the hills and backroads and listened to music REALLY loud with the top down and a beer. This is one of my favorite all time albums, and is what I was listening to. Listened to the entire album. Dark Places is special to me. But, Painted Skies is the best... |
Anonymous Coward User ID: 39812740 United States 08/03/2013 10:52 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | Dammit, I say all that, and it is probably you, Dion, with the "Only part of me that is soft is my ass". Quoting: Septenary Spirals I get tired of guessing who might be who and trying to respond in a way that makes sense to that poster. It is all about relationships and known relationships, is it not? As I'd say in the 80's: Doooooood, S'alright. omg, lmao. I would be giving you a hug too. holy shit, that's funny. Yeah, but you see I pictured it in the vibrato of E. Where the chest cavity resonates at a nice ummmph. I decided I was master of a trade when I could become disassociative and let a show happen when I just felt it. Then it was time to move on before you got hooked. Time to dub up hooked on a feeling. |
Anonymous Coward User ID: 14874606 United States 08/03/2013 10:52 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | ugh. My mind is so frazzled right now. I don't respond through past activities, just merely through immediate response. I need to get some rest. Then, I go into lucid mode, and I'm not sure the rest I am getting is worth all that. Last night I was working on viewing the solar system, black holes and other things. Problem fucking is, is that when you view the solar system, or galaxy, or whatever, it is all black, and I have to make it 'clear' viewing within the bubble I am creating it within. In the meantime, the entire structure is not holding form. It is as if the altered state itself has become unstable, and I cannot stabilize aspects of it like I used to be able to do. I even have to locate the sun and lock onto it while holding the heliosphere together within the bubble. But even the bubble is constantly shifting and location is drifting. I entered the bubble hoping that would fix my position, but that doesn't work either, like it used to. On top of all that, I have entities (fuckers) fucking with me constantly making sure I cannot lock into any reference point. So, then I have to go deal with them, before I can restart the experiment. And that is just one night of lucid sleep. Not to mention the 'disruptions' of temptation, and ego, and anger that must be kept in control trying to maintain lucidity, and the want to be a 'god' and do whatever the hell I want, instead of nitpicking all this knowledge from that side. And, I have to be careful, because once pulled in the astral, I get all this myriad of other crap that needs to be...shit. lol, I am in a mood and it is difficult to balance when I cannot even rest the consciousness at night as well. Now, I can if I wish, but then I remain static, and the feeling is even worse when I feel like I need to work, and nothing is getting done/. Why think so much, All I ever think is why so many half and quarter steps? It's best to keep things simple. They flow into one another ith a silent recollection. I've never been able to shut it off. I have had insomnia my entire life because of it. It has never been silent. It is never silent. Again, it is something I told Heidi. It is the reason I cannot wait to go to the other side. |
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1908247 User ID: 44518695 Brazil 08/03/2013 10:56 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | I had just been checking the ones of the last two months, lol Had a thought while reading the post regarding 'knowing'. One chooses to 'not know' or 'not remember' so one can have fun at the path of uncovering. In a way it sounds like the attitude of the fool Good evening and sweet dreams! Nus |
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Anonymous Coward User ID: 14874606 United States 08/03/2013 11:00 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | Dammit, I say all that, and it is probably you, Dion, with the "Only part of me that is soft is my ass". Quoting: Septenary Spirals I get tired of guessing who might be who and trying to respond in a way that makes sense to that poster. It is all about relationships and known relationships, is it not? As I'd say in the 80's: Doooooood, S'alright. omg, lmao. I would be giving you a hug too. holy shit, that's funny. Yeah, but you see I pictured it in the vibrato of E. Where the chest cavity resonates at a nice ummmph. I decided I was master of a trade when I could become disassociative and let a show happen when I just felt it. Then it was time to move on before you got hooked. Time to dub up hooked on a feeling. Awesome, I know exactly what you are talking about, at least for me. I did the same thing, in a different way. I got tired of running, and thought I needed to settle down within myself to get some peace. Instead, it amplified my...dis-associativness. I love making up new words, I am at peace now. Which is more than I have ever been able to say before. Does that remove the shit I go through daily, struggling to find happiness? OF course not. I feel brief respites from it, there is no doubt. But, like others here, I am one who must live with it until another life comes upon me. Nowadays, I have accepted it, which gives me the respite I need at times. Beyond that...I wait to fall asleep again. I do not mind anymore. I suppose there is only so many experiences one can partake within one lifetime. |
Anonymous Coward User ID: 14874606 United States 08/03/2013 11:02 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | Dammit, I say all that, and it is probably you, Dion, with the "Only part of me that is soft is my ass". Quoting: Septenary Spirals I get tired of guessing who might be who and trying to respond in a way that makes sense to that poster. It is all about relationships and known relationships, is it not? As I'd say in the 80's: Doooooood, S'alright. omg, lmao. I would be giving you a hug too. holy shit, that's funny. Yeah, but you see I pictured it in the vibrato of E. Where the chest cavity resonates at a nice ummmph. I decided I was master of a trade when I could become disassociative and let a show happen when I just felt it. Then it was time to move on before you got hooked. Time to dub up hooked on a feeling. lmao! Oh, and I know what you mean by that beautiful feeling of E. My brother and I used to fuck around with all the chords, especially in the 90's when Korn dropped to D and made it commonplace. We dropped some of our electronic/industrial stuff to E to beat it. |