X Marks the Spot

If the 'energy' is strong...it will often always pulse due to me purposely pulling it up in that direction, or it doing it on its own accord.


However, there are other 'times' like just before I go to sleep, where all will be 'quiet'...and just that will begin to pulse.


This being 'different' is the 'signal'.

And is interpreted as such.


Does that make sense?

Yes, it does.

It is sort of a dual-realization for me when it is a 'signal'.... I am usually already fascinated by whatever is causing it to 'light up', then I notice the 'signal' and the two reinforce each other.

It is different than the 'Copper Sun' I have sometimes mentioned, as well.... the 'Copper Sun' being a quick visual 'flash' that accompanies a realization of a similar 'go this way' feeling.

Does that make sense?

Not always.


I'm not scared much any more.

But it took a lot...to get there.

:)

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Indeed.


Quite the mystery.

Until solved.

Copper Sun?





Copper is beautiful isn't it?

I was probably asked today at least 5 times, if copper will...'make my skin green'?



Yes.

Yes it will.

Until it doesn't.

Any longer.

Oh, hi Seer.

I find your nature to be very charming.



:D

:)

Green blade = bare logic.... to me.

I use to hear that.

In times of great beseeching...

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I remember one time in particular. Several years ago perhaps.

I was standing in front of a mirror my grandmother had given me.


It crushed me...


But I accepted it.

Is what it is.

Interesting indeed....

Such a statement tends to leave me hopeful.

Hopeful indeed. :)


As that is...all there is.

In that regard.

Hang in there...

Why did it it crush you?

*tilts head in an inquisitive and caring way*

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Thanks. :)


It was the closest I ever thought I was to being pregnant. After 'waiting for the right time' for over a decade.


I was 4 days late.

I heard 'not yet' and start my 'menses' minutes later.

Oh my...

I understand the 'clock' for women. Must be a major stressful factor in your life.

You still have time...4-6 years to pop out a healthy baby without medical assistance.

I also have anxiety about that stuff.

I've accepted it.

I think.


For women...there is reminder every month.

And every day...on FB.

Surely you could get preggers.

You try a different man?

Sorry for my inappropriateness...but he's kinda an a-hole right?

Why sacrifice your happiness for a retard?

You need to go make some babies ASAP.

Infertility is on his side of the family.

Also, he was hit in the face(head) and femur at 14, when hit by drunk driver which killed his best friend...and nearly him when they were walking across a bridge in Lincoln City.


He is one of the smartest people I had ever met. And you can't tell by looking at him the extent of his former injuries.

hmmm...You need to go get preggers.

You'll regret it for the rest of your life if you don't.

This is one of those hard/cut-throat decisions your gonna have to make.

but...try to get a 'replacement' lined up to impregnate you.

I'm not kidding. This is serious life happiness stuff.

He's a dickhead towards you anyway...I wouldn't sweat it.

You really only have 2 years tops to get this done.

I'm being serious.

There are other ways around that..... gametes can be made in a lab from skin cells these days.

Yeah...thanks Rayz...not like I don't know.

I looked into adoption some years back. The least 'expensive' option was Ethiopia.

$17,000. At the time. Not that he is interested in any of that.

He didn't even like my cat...



My brother approached me years ago regarding said...

He said...why don't you...?

And then brought up this song.


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Why don't I indeed...

...

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Still waiting for those "impossible to detect in a drug test" high grade amphetamines that you promised.

lol...

Your brother is right.

Stop mucking around with some sociopath a-hole that treats you like shit...

Go make babies with someone that's 'crazy for you'.

So, what.... grey market links?



But amphetamines are tough to come by.... classical ones anyways.

These days its all about DRI's (dopamine reuptake inhibitors).

I had Sabbie for over a year before we started dating.

He said to me, I don't really like cats.


I said to him, the cat stays, you can choose to go or stay...


He was with us until 11/2011.

Over ten years.


I miss him every day.

Almost....more than anything.


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Lovely post.

I Love kissing kitties right on that spot.

why are you talking adoption?

Have you gone to the proper doctor to make the evaluation that you are indeed infertile?

You need to get pregnant asap.

Artificial insemination should be on the table if you cant find a suitable mate before your 39.

Yes. They smell good there. He did. I loved him more than anything else.

And he me.

As a 'Great pet' does.

A 'Familiar'.


I will never forget the day he and I laid eye on one another.

Ever.

He taught me much.



On a different note, I find 'shooting blanks' to be less than appealing.

In a big way.