I do not intend to judge you; I will say, if you were one of the two and were to be martyrd in 8 months and rise in 3 days, you would be doing so rather premeturly. Please do not simply say "I am one." As a human, do not ask for faith before you have done the lords works and, please, wait till the Lord tells you directly toy are one to fully believe it and know it will intail a great amount of earthly suffering and unpopularity if you truly are.