why we nail love on the cross instead of nailing ourselves on the love?

you know, it may sound funny, but the reason is simple, love is too much for us. deeply we don't want to be fully happy and loving it is very expansive and therefore frightening, no logic plays there, so something may go "wrong" without control. If you have eyes and ears, in order to cross into the ocean of love, of god, I need to die. I need to be crossed every moment. Then I no more, and what is left is love. But how can I die? I have name, i have fame, i have business, i have family, i have money, i have this or i have that, i need to control things so much. Wait a minute, business wasn't, it came, it shall pass, money wasn't it came it shall pass, sadness came and went away, even what i call 'love' came and went away... Do I come and go with my possessions? Does I change whether there is possession or there is no possession? Why i want to protect my possessions? Simple, because i derive an identify from a possession. I have business so I AM Business(man). Thus, i think if business goes, 'I' will go too.
Now, i need not change myself or others or the world, i only need to see things as they are. I need to disappear for seeing to happen. Becoming aware of seeing itself is all i have to do. What else can i do? Am i in control of things? No. If i went deeply enough i see clearly that there is no I doing anything, nor something from 'outside' doing anything. Just habits, what society put here, running around. I see, thus understanding itself happens without effort, when deep understanding or lets better use a word insight, thats right, insight is very right word, then insight happens a perspective changes forever.
But this shall too pass away.

"Never was I born. Never can I die. Iam not the body nor the mind nor the doer. I-am pure consciousness, all-pervading. Fire
cannot burn me. Water cannot drown me. No harm can ever come to me. For I am not
what I appear to be. How wonderful this is. You should spend all of your spare time thinking of these things. Most of us do not like to be alone without people around us, without
the radio playing, without the TV playing, yet you have to face yourself someday. Why
not do it now? Sit by yourself for a half hour and see if you can do it. When you're getting
depressed or feeling bad, sit by yourself, no noise just yourself. And watch the thoughts
that come to you. You will see how uncontrolled your mind really is. Some of us believe
we've got it together. Yet we're afraid to sit by ourselves with nothing to do. Try staying up
all night sometimes, just sitting, doing nothing, watching your thoughts, watching your
emotions, observing yourself. This will explain to you how disciplined you are, how spiritual you are, by what happens."

Love is I-AM feeling in each one of us. it IS alone.
If for example you could direct the love you feel for pet, husband, wife, kid, parents etc. to the I-AM feeling and just be with it, love it, nurture it, then IT would reveal many secrets. Forget thoughts, emotions, anything that is 'outside'. Remember, thoughts are not 'inside', emotions are not 'inside' it is all happening in front of You, emotions, words, sensations, thoughts, feelings, all is happening in front of you, so basically there is no "inside". Everything is "outside". Now, what I want you to do is to love That to whom all these things arise. And then you will see, the rest will follow by itself. For the first time you will know what word Love truly represents. You will understand that cross is your body, Jesus is your 'I' thought or ego, and the Christ is your Self, your unimagined Self, I-AM, pure, God, Love, consciousness.

I am infinite, imperishable, self-luminous, self-existent, I am beginning-less, endless, decay-less, birthless, deathless.
Never was I born, I am ever free, perfect, independent, I alone am. I pervade the entire universe. I am all permeating and interpenetrating. I am supreme peace and freedom absolute.
Be still [silly mind] and know I-AM [is] God.