i do wish there were words i could use to show what i do know. However most, if not all, the people i've come accross still slumber in their illusionary perception of self biased motives, "reality", that the dream of death would cause you to believe is true. They will do this until they are wiped away or until they realized objective reality without themselves as the egosentric center of universal reality.

if this were not the case i could try to express the real self that am i from other times and places all summed up in the totality that is today.

i speak not of "christ consciouness". That silly vainglorius delusion. it is a meer idealisim only another false path of a weakened and lazy mind of mankind. 80 days between here and there. The distance to me is null.

my life thus far has been a series of realizations upon visions given throughout a youthood stolen from me. Several happenings, times upon my clarity recieved revelations of future things, and they are returning to my understandings as pages in a book written yesterday about today and tomorrow.

for me there is no escape from myself. my awakening is long and is likened unto a trip into the sun.