What the fuck are you doing in job you hate so much. Your creating your own problems. Can't you see that. People are what they think. If you think shit you get shit. People are what they eat also. If you eat shit you get sick. Quit blameing everybody else for your problems. People have choices. You choose to stay where you are scared to go try anything else. Obviously your not a good sales person. Commision jobs are for highly motivated and upbeat people. Your not all that . Go, move on. Your not going to get any broker than you already are.