My dad just got 9mos-5yrs in state prison

I am sorry for you, it is a hard thing to come to terms with. That is my dad also, and i have also been that child. It takes a wile to get your head straight. But a good life can be had! Make peace with it, and make peace with him. It is a bad thing to say, i know. But dont let hate fester in your heart.
For my dad, he was convicted over 20 years ago. I have recently found out that he was doing this for a very long time, to several close family members. His conviction was before sex offender regestries, so he is scott-free! For this reason, my children have never seen him. He asks if he can come for a weekend visit to meet his grandkids, even offered to babysit so my husband and i can go away for the weekend. It will never happen, not in my lifetime!!

Wow, what a cute gauge!

Love the vent rib, but, that barrel looks kinda short. knowwhutImean?

there is only one thing you can do. Accept what happened as something above your will and capacity to understand at the time, that you were manipulated by a narcissist and that is not your responsibility, and then, just let it go, knowing there are better people that would never do such evil to the unknowing and unprotected. You can love the good, and despise the bad, but the real issue, where you may have thought you either enjoyed the attention or cooperated too much, is not your fault. One can love and forgive a flawed person, but not so much that one forgets that some people are flawed. And one more thing, since these things often occur with children that have attractive features to paedos, please, do not try to compensate by defiling what beauty you have, as some do. That only isolates you further from a possibility of a normal life with normal people. Remember, that it's not evil how you are, it should be a gift. Dont let anyone spoil that for you.
There are abnormal people who take advantage of normal things, the problem is theirs, not yours.
Animals get over things by forgetting, but people get over things by forgiving, and moving on. Surviving to end up living well is the best revenge.
Best Regards...

oh and one more thing.

It is not wrong or hateful to be on your guard regarding your father. He's a predator, so, it's fine to distrust him and his motives. That doesnt make you bad, but does require that though you have to, at some point forgive his failings, you have to remember that they dont go away.
It's as if you have a big rescued pit bull. It may be friendly to you most of the time, but you can never really let your guard down for you dont know exactly when it may turn on you or someone around you. Keep it on a leash, and dont allow it get into situations that can lead to trouble.
Dont beat yourself up, and, when it comes to establishing relationships with others, go slow and easy and dont go 'crazy' in either direction, which usually is a phase one goes through. Dont let a nutter establish your lifes pattern.

were I able to, I'd smack you silly. This is not something for your insensitive amusement.

f'n arse

as someone not uninvolved in the topic, to me, youre lower than most oblabla lovers pulling shyte like that.