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Stepping through My Shadow (OP) User ID: 865798 United States 08/28/2012 09:21 AM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | ... Quoting: Stepping through My Shadow Yep. Especially the way I just put things together. It is like this; If I didn't just put it together, I would have been a dumbass. That being said, if I said aloud what I feel it may mean, I would feel like a dumbass. Problem is, all of this is bigger than this kind of life I have lived. Then again, it isn't. #2 is where I almost fucked up last night. Not almost, but I had to think about things properly instead of immediate emotional reaction. If I made my initial decision, I would not been able to utilize certain avenues. But, I am 99% sure, I would have been guided/influenced back. I always wonder if I should push things, or just lay back like I have been doing recently. Funny, I get pushed in both directions...but I enjoy the laid back aspect at this time. So be it. Dumb ass.......Never :) Well, I've definitely been of interest to people. In my own mind, I don't know why. I AM me, Chad. My life has been less than stellar, though filled and overflowing with many life experiences. Live like your gonna die, is how I've always lived. Problem is, they put things right there in your face, but leave it there in your face for you to figure out on your own. I just wish it was straight forward sometimes...but I do understand why the process is the way it is. ever think it might be a test...like this huge test of competence...if you can figure out the riddle, you are worthy of it. When you finally start believing in yourself, anything becomes possible (that is if you haven't gone COMPLETELY insane from the years of trials and tribulations you have gone through to get to this point)... Yes, I know that is a large factor, if not THE factor. And, I have no problem 'believing' in myself. That is really not a question anymore. It is what certain individuals say, or allude to, or hint at. Ah, I guess just keep on keepin on. "Life is not a journey to the grave with the intention of arriving safely in a pretty and well preserved body, but rather to skid in broadside, thoroughly used up, totally worn out, and loudly proclaiming, "Wow! What a Ride!" We do not Die, We Awaken to the Dream that We Lived. |
MissionInvisible User ID: 1800004 United States 08/28/2012 09:24 AM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | Well, I've definitely been of interest to people. In my own mind, I don't know why. I AM me, Chad. My life has been less than stellar, though filled and overflowing with many life experiences. Live like your gonna die, is how I've always lived. Problem is, they put things right there in your face, but leave it there in your face for you to figure out on your own. I just wish it was straight forward sometimes...but I do understand why the process is the way it is. ever think it might be a test...like this huge test of competence...if you can figure out the riddle, you are worthy of it. When you finally start believing in yourself, anything becomes possible (that is if you haven't gone COMPLETELY insane from the years of trials and tribulations you have gone through to get to this point)... Yes, I know that is a large factor, if not THE factor. And, I have no problem 'believing' in myself. That is really not a question anymore. It is what certain individuals say, or allude to, or hint at. Ah, I guess just keep on keepin on. Sometimes reality is stranger than fiction... |
MissionInvisible User ID: 1800004 United States 08/28/2012 09:31 AM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | Some of us are gatekeepers, we hold keys of knowledge that were not intended for the average individual, we just get it, because its in our genetic "memory" :)...we chose these incarnations on purpose, before this lifetime, and many of us are just now realizing why we grew up so different. One day many of these key holders will come together, as some already are...I know this sounds like gibberish to most, but I think you will understand where I am going with this. There are a few on here who really seem to get it, and I know I've been watched for a while, there is no doubt about that...just know you aren't alone in this, and the need to scream out of frustration becomes almost a daily thing for some of us, and I'm not sure exactly how you have been recently, but if its been as crazy for you as it has for me, it just keeps getting weirder and weirder as some of the dimensional shifts seem to take place right before your very eyes... One day we will understand it all! Just keep a positive mentality in knowing you were one of the first to experience some of the secret knowledge that has been withheld from people for thousands of years...you have a gift, that is for sure, and many are starting to see it :) Last Edited by Missioninvisible on 08/28/2012 09:32 AM |
phizzycyst User ID: 845802 United States 08/28/2012 09:34 AM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | Why does your picture have a man playing chess? Is it you? If you dont play chess...I don't understand. Do you want to learn how to play or something? Quoting: therealman 1454911 Realman will dominate you at chess he is #1 no doubt A man between two pillars; one male, one female. If you do not understand that, then you would not understand anything else I have to say on that. You have a gender confusion? Can therealman decide on a gawdamn user name? |
Stepping through My Shadow (OP) User ID: 865798 United States 08/28/2012 09:34 AM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | I was never in trouble with 'going insane', so that's never been an issue. The depression and stuff that comes along with a personal paradigm shift multiple times has diminished into background noise. I fully understand that my life is very different from most peoples, and that people get uncomfortable when discussing things outside their comfort zones. So, the need to discuss certain things with other people is distant. I am finding more comfort in the solitude of silence, then the need to share certain experiences with others. I want the prep work to be done. I want to get things started, whatever they may be. That is not to say I am impatient...it is more of a curiosity factor. "Life is not a journey to the grave with the intention of arriving safely in a pretty and well preserved body, but rather to skid in broadside, thoroughly used up, totally worn out, and loudly proclaiming, "Wow! What a Ride!" We do not Die, We Awaken to the Dream that We Lived. |
Stepping through My Shadow (OP) User ID: 865798 United States 08/28/2012 09:35 AM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | Why does your picture have a man playing chess? Is it you? If you dont play chess...I don't understand. Do you want to learn how to play or something? Quoting: therealman 1454911 Realman will dominate you at chess he is #1 no doubt A man between two pillars; one male, one female. If you do not understand that, then you would not understand anything else I have to say on that. You have a gender confusion? Can therealman decide on a gawdamn user name? "Life is not a journey to the grave with the intention of arriving safely in a pretty and well preserved body, but rather to skid in broadside, thoroughly used up, totally worn out, and loudly proclaiming, "Wow! What a Ride!" We do not Die, We Awaken to the Dream that We Lived. |
MissionInvisible User ID: 1800004 United States 08/28/2012 09:38 AM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | I was never in trouble with 'going insane', so that's never been an issue. The depression and stuff that comes along with a personal paradigm shift multiple times has diminished into background noise. I fully understand that my life is very different from most peoples, and that people get uncomfortable when discussing things outside their comfort zones. So, the need to discuss certain things with other people is distant. I am finding more comfort in the solitude of silence, then the need to share certain experiences with others. Quoting: Stepping through My Shadow I want the prep work to be done. I want to get things started, whatever they may be. That is not to say I am impatient...it is more of a curiosity factor. thats good you've been able to keep your sanity, I know I have struggled at times on many many levels, as we have discussed a little about this a while ago through private messaging. I understand what you mean by the curiosity factor, I find myself very impatient at times though, but then something else will be shown to me so I know it wasn't the right time yet, otherwise I wouldn't have learned the other things intended for me to learn! I understand what you mean by the need to explain things to people just completely stops...because often (for me at least) things are way to weird to even try to explain to people! |
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MissionInvisible User ID: 1800004 United States 08/28/2012 09:42 AM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | I was never in trouble with 'going insane', so that's never been an issue. The depression and stuff that comes along with a personal paradigm shift multiple times has diminished into background noise. I fully understand that my life is very different from most peoples, and that people get uncomfortable when discussing things outside their comfort zones. So, the need to discuss certain things with other people is distant. I am finding more comfort in the solitude of silence, then the need to share certain experiences with others. Quoting: Stepping through My Shadow I want the prep work to be done. I want to get things started, whatever they may be. That is not to say I am impatient...it is more of a curiosity factor. thats good you've been able to keep your sanity, I know I have struggled at times on many many levels, as we have discussed a little about this a while ago through private messaging. I understand what you mean by the curiosity factor, I find myself very impatient at times though, but then something else will be shown to me so I know it wasn't the right time yet, otherwise I wouldn't have learned the other things intended for me to learn! I understand what you mean by the need to explain things to people just completely stops...because often (for me at least) things are way to weird to even try to explain to people! and I'm not trying to say I know what you are experiencing because we each have our own little worlds...I just know what I have experienced and how frustrated I get at times! |
Stepping through My Shadow (OP) User ID: 865798 United States 08/28/2012 09:50 AM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | I was never in trouble with 'going insane', so that's never been an issue. The depression and stuff that comes along with a personal paradigm shift multiple times has diminished into background noise. I fully understand that my life is very different from most peoples, and that people get uncomfortable when discussing things outside their comfort zones. So, the need to discuss certain things with other people is distant. I am finding more comfort in the solitude of silence, then the need to share certain experiences with others. Quoting: Stepping through My Shadow I want the prep work to be done. I want to get things started, whatever they may be. That is not to say I am impatient...it is more of a curiosity factor. thats good you've been able to keep your sanity, I know I have struggled at times on many many levels, as we have discussed a little about this a while ago through private messaging. I understand what you mean by the curiosity factor, I find myself very impatient at times though, but then something else will be shown to me so I know it wasn't the right time yet, otherwise I wouldn't have learned the other things intended for me to learn! I understand what you mean by the need to explain things to people just completely stops...because often (for me at least) things are way to weird to even try to explain to people! and I'm not trying to say I know what you are experiencing because we each have our own little worlds...I just know what I have experienced and how frustrated I get at times! I know. "Life is not a journey to the grave with the intention of arriving safely in a pretty and well preserved body, but rather to skid in broadside, thoroughly used up, totally worn out, and loudly proclaiming, "Wow! What a Ride!" We do not Die, We Awaken to the Dream that We Lived. |
1908247 User ID: 22759189 Brazil 08/28/2012 11:21 AM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | national security agency (nsa) handbook (eyes only) Quoting: aether i) there are no coincidences 2) utilize what exists always Yep. Especially the way I just put things together. It is like this; If I didn't just put it together, I would have been a dumbass. That being said, if I said aloud what I feel it may mean, I would feel like a dumbass. Problem is, all of this is bigger than this kind of life I have lived. Then again, it isn't. #2 is where I almost fucked up last night. Not almost, but I had to think about things properly instead of immediate emotional reaction. If I made my initial decision, I would not been able to utilize certain avenues. But, I am 99% sure, I would have been guided/influenced back. I always wonder if I should push things, or just lay back like I have been doing recently. Funny, I get pushed in both directions...but I enjoy the laid back aspect at this time. So be it. I see you Nus |
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Stepping through My Shadow (OP) User ID: 865798 United States 08/28/2012 12:05 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | This whole place is a test at times. People say things that make you go Hmmmmm.......Never quite sure if they implied what you thought they did. Quoting: Blue Skies I just wish they would get on with it to cause.... Amen sister. "Life is not a journey to the grave with the intention of arriving safely in a pretty and well preserved body, but rather to skid in broadside, thoroughly used up, totally worn out, and loudly proclaiming, "Wow! What a Ride!" We do not Die, We Awaken to the Dream that We Lived. |
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MissionInvisible User ID: 1800004 United States 08/28/2012 12:24 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | This whole place is a test at times. People say things that make you go Hmmmmm.......Never quite sure if they implied what you thought they did. Quoting: Blue Skies I just wish they would get on with it to cause.... Amen sister. lol both of those cat images are awesome :) |
Stepping through My Shadow (OP) User ID: 865798 United States 08/28/2012 12:26 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | How about this one? "Life is not a journey to the grave with the intention of arriving safely in a pretty and well preserved body, but rather to skid in broadside, thoroughly used up, totally worn out, and loudly proclaiming, "Wow! What a Ride!" We do not Die, We Awaken to the Dream that We Lived. |
MissionInvisible User ID: 1800004 United States 08/28/2012 12:34 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | ahh haha that little things that keep us entertained throughout the day...no wonder I even question my own sanity at times ;) at least life is NEVER boring!! sometimes the waiting can seem mundane...but thats why you fill it with little things that just make you laugh at the irony of it all! Last Edited by Missioninvisible on 08/28/2012 12:34 PM |
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Jonny Blaze User ID: 22472711 United States 08/28/2012 12:50 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | LOL The engravings translate to "This space intentionally left blank." The prayer is inscribed in an ancient script, rarely used today. It seems to be a philippic against small insects, absent-mindedness, and the picking up and dropping of small objects. The gate is open; through it you can see a desolation, with a pile of mangled bodies in one corner. Thousands of voices, lamenting some hideous fate, can be heard. The way through the gate is barred by evil spirits, who jeer at your attempts to pass. |
Stepping through My Shadow (OP) User ID: 865798 United States 08/28/2012 12:54 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | "Life is not a journey to the grave with the intention of arriving safely in a pretty and well preserved body, but rather to skid in broadside, thoroughly used up, totally worn out, and loudly proclaiming, "Wow! What a Ride!" We do not Die, We Awaken to the Dream that We Lived. |
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Jonny Blaze User ID: 22472711 United States 08/28/2012 01:02 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | Isaac is a curious little boy running and laughing, should we hope he doesn't fall in the pit? Quoting: 1908247 Isaac is running and laughing because he has been in the pit before and he no longer fears it. The engravings translate to "This space intentionally left blank." The prayer is inscribed in an ancient script, rarely used today. It seems to be a philippic against small insects, absent-mindedness, and the picking up and dropping of small objects. The gate is open; through it you can see a desolation, with a pile of mangled bodies in one corner. Thousands of voices, lamenting some hideous fate, can be heard. The way through the gate is barred by evil spirits, who jeer at your attempts to pass. |
Stepping through My Shadow (OP) User ID: 865798 United States 08/28/2012 01:03 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | Isaac is a curious little boy running and laughing, should we hope he doesn't fall in the pit? Quoting: 1908247 Isaac is running and laughing because he has been in the pit before and he no longer fears it. "Life is not a journey to the grave with the intention of arriving safely in a pretty and well preserved body, but rather to skid in broadside, thoroughly used up, totally worn out, and loudly proclaiming, "Wow! What a Ride!" We do not Die, We Awaken to the Dream that We Lived. |
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Stepping through My Shadow (OP) User ID: 865798 United States 08/28/2012 02:05 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | ...vibrations "Life is not a journey to the grave with the intention of arriving safely in a pretty and well preserved body, but rather to skid in broadside, thoroughly used up, totally worn out, and loudly proclaiming, "Wow! What a Ride!" We do not Die, We Awaken to the Dream that We Lived. |
1908247 User ID: 22759189 Brazil 08/28/2012 02:09 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | I was just remembering this game I played some years ago, there were 4 main characters and each was an adept controlling an element. Isaac was the Jupiter Adept who controlled the Winds.. First > Second Second > Third First > Third Third > Four Four > Fifth Third+Fifth>Sixth Fifth > Sixth Sixth>Seventh I'm rambling randomly. Nus |