We were spiritually doomed when we chose to separate ourselves from our creator. The good news is that you are still spiritually alive just not willing to acknowledge it . That is what free will is all about.
I subscribe to the principals in " A Course In Miracles " I found it to make sense and not religious. I have a link at
[link to alternativemediaportal.com] homepage where you can view or download all three volumes at no cost.