I am not here to belittle you or second guess you. You know what you are experiencing and what you situation truly is.

I am just a simple man who loves GOD and The Lord Jesus Christ and have witnessed His mighty hand in my life. I am not any better than you and am not qualified to judge you. I have made mistakes in my life too. But GOD can wipe the tears away and restore you and your relationship with Him. Now the truth and that you are loved. Put a stop to those that come against you. And show Himself Mighty to you. That you need not to live in fear. That He created you more than a conquerer.

Please search your heart and know that GOD is good. That is why He sent Jesus Christ.