**To My Bringer of Light**

From the moment i came into this existence you have been beside me every moment, every single waking moment.
Your heart cried out for me as much as my heart cried for you the same.
We were the epitome of love itself, we created and birthed the foundations of a new story and time.
You gave every atom inside of yourself for the sacrifice of this love.
When i was weak you were strong you lent your strength to bring me out of the depths of sorrow.
When You were weak and in your moment of sorrow i cried at your feet and longed for death to take me with.I
see before the foundations of creation we stood hand in hand and gloried in the light.
Now these last and final moments i have let myself go, i have became what i once was again.
These roads these lifetimes have wearied me to point of exhaustion, and what i once saw was a light,
i now see myself alone and unworthy.
I have given myself over to the ways of man, and have done things that i knew were wrong but did not
care, i cast you out of mind and hid your love inside of me so far that i became numb. I have vowed myself
to another and do what i am expected to do. But your eyes they see me in the night when i am in slumber
they see me and for fleeting moments i remember. You never let me go. You tell me of faith, and that i must
remember, and that you stand at the door knocking but i do not open, and all the while i do not know why.
Am i afraid of having and the fear that i might once again have to let go? The pain is too great that i
do know. Am i ashamed at all that i have become, and that if i give you my all, you find me unworthy?
All i want is to feel your love in reality. to hear it, to hold it in my arms, to feel it as no other
feeling that i have felt in so long of time. I want to wake from this dream and remember who we are.
My light, bring me out of this darkness, and help me to remember what is was like so that i can bring back
the faith that i so long to have once again so that we can once again play in our paradise like we did
before.