My fingers are shaking uncontrollably. I am horrified beyond comprehension.

Forever until the very end of time. Stars shall fade before this comes to an end.

Hey Anarchytype, do you remember the time I freaked out only to eventually become alive?

I do.

Thank you for sticking through my weird and stupid bullshit. I owe you so much for that.

And how. Thanks for visiting. I wish you typed some words so that we could have further communicated.

I fell into the abyss of a dream. It showed to me things, unimaginable.

I watched a girl afflicted with tormenting pain turn into an angel.

Her wings were wide, and her halo was bright. Blindingly bright.

She flew away.

I will see her again someday. I think.

The way youve been talking. I feel that we can relate in many ways. Ive come to the love and believe in the God of the Christian bible. Nothing can convince me that he isnt. Theres a reality in the way he moves. If you ever want to look into my growth, Ill do my best to show you around and try to give you an honest humble explanation. As best I can with this screen between us at least. He has given me a sound mind.

I appreciate that. I talked to a co-worker this evening who is devout. She was about to cry recanting her spiritual struggle.

She is pure. And as tormented as I am, I could recognize what I saw in her as purity.

I would never denounce what you believe in. It gives your life a wholeness that I wish I had.

Writhing in eternal pain. Brain exploded long ago. I wish to be what everybody else is.....normal.

Yet this cannot happen. Walking a different path. Ingested a
drug that showed me eternity.

Watch list. Tyranny. Their not going to let me live forever. Tick, tock. The day draws ever nearer.

It's art, right?

Holding onto my connection. The three degrees of separation is non existent. It's all interconnected. I am more than protected.

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Yet you know your senses are lying to you which is a start.

Breath deep and relax. Take a while to look around, notice those things on the edge of your focus that you perceive without seeing, your life is about to change forever.

I know I should be going to bed. After all, my life depends on it.

I will not succumb to sleep as of this moment. Too wrapped up in the experience. Fuck it.

Dear audience, I have something to disclose to you. Without you I am unable to exist. You create with your participation life. A filthy and deprived life of pain and agony. Thank you for the gift.

Got the receipt? It's not that I don't like it. It's just that it don't fit right. It feels weird against my skin.

It's the thought that counts.

I'm ready for it. I'm throwing caution to the wind in every way possible. I'm ready. It's time.

Peripheral vision shows ghosts that move about in the spiritual realm. It's a scary thing to see the dead live.

Wait till you see the other stuff.

There's a whole new world out there for you to enjoy when you're ready.

I'm more than intrigued and willing to go on any journey. My consciousness declares there is more to life than......................this.

Your message sends hope.

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You inospicious dummy. Grow some bslls

What would you have me say or do that would put me in even more danger?

I fear that I have crossed the line more times than what is allowed by a polite society.

I revel in this.

You're an odd one, aren't you?

Please pour me some of what you are having. Cheers!

Yes. I am. Thank you for finally taking notice.

I think he's having absinthe. The lucky bastard.

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Ecstasy with an absinthe chaser.

Really? Abusive post. When? Where? You're a fucking whore and you fucking know it.

Let's play this out.

Fucking whore: I'm bored I think I will peruse a web-site in order to find me some entertainment.

-Reads this thread-

Fucking whore: O.M.G. I can't write like that. I'm just a stupid Fucking whore. I'm so jelly. I'ma gonna say he made an abusive post.

Institutionalized: What a fucking stupid Fucking whore.

HAHAHAHHAHAHHAHAHHAHAHHAAHAHAH.

I'm glad I was able to reach out and mind fuck you, you fucking stupid Fucking whore.

Wow. I sound a little full of myself in above post. I have proven myself to be a disgusting hypocrite of the highest order. It was a sloppy post, influenced by drunkenness. Let's pretend it never happened, shall we?

I'm on my second alcoholic beverage and cannot promise the lunacy will not occur again. It should be interesting for the profile. ;)

I hope that the person who actually has been assigned to read my posts likes them. What a terrible job if it were all a major bore.

Tee hee.

You're welcome :)

It's your creative writing teacher pulling her hair out at your cliched crap writing.

YAY. I slipped away for a minute. Wish I could have replied sooner. I will be here now for the rest of the night. I got me some shit I gotta quit and will be consuming it all tonight.

This should be an interesting evening. I think.

My creative writing teacher was not a lady, she was instead a man. Just kidding you are right. He was a lady.

I loves me some cliche. May I have yours if you don't like it?

OP- you do know that as OP you can edit your posts and delete those you want removed?

Everybody else is NOT normal. They just don't have the courage you have, to put it all out there.

Someone else wrote on another day that if you wrote a book, they would buy it. Me too.

Oh yea totally. But that would be cheating. If'n it gets writ, it must be posted, and never ever erased. I live by a strange code that I just made up three seconds ago.

Thank you for being here. Your awesome. As is everybody else in the world.

Sloane? Wow. How awesome it is to see you here. Hah. I love it. You will not have to buy the book either. I'm giving everybody on the inside the thing for free. I'll even shove money within it's pages somewhere. Just a thank you for existing and communicating with me.

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Such a nice thing to say.