Find The Fool That Nobody Found ....... Introduction

Thanks for your heart reply. glad to be on the receiving side.

I said that about the gift of the abstract mind, because i made a mental note about that when reading some post of yours. Don't remember the details now.

How others see you, how you see through the eyes of other...the voice of the many...what you said about your youth...this is so unimportant in the grand scheme of things...that it should not bother anymore.

The ones that we are linked to with surface bonds, even if they are our family, our pals...can not understand the depth one reaches when one surfs the spirals of the abstract realm.

And we tend to get caught ourselves in that abstract maze of infinite possibilities . It goes with the territory. And in those moments we need someone to listen to our journeys like a child who listens a beautiful story...and we yearn for them to see the beauty that we see in those strange realms...and not to think that we are little crazy...that we speak nonsense. And it makes it even harder, because you need to be more than a little crazy for this stuff...but it is another kind of craziness...one that is a bless somewhere deep inside us, and not a curse.

But who can see the difference, if not himself is crazy in a similar way :)

I'm surprised no one has asked yet, since apollo brought up "looking for his wife....hypothetical question...what if his wife is married? That should would be a clusterfuck! Just sayin...

I'm surprised no one has asked yet, since apollo brought up "looking for his wife....hypothetical question...what if his wife is married? That should would be a clusterfuck! Just sayin...

I do not war. Sometimes, when feelings of others are declared truth upon others, I come to the others defense, as it were. Many truths can be found individually, but they may be unique to person, not persons. Each will find their own.

What you say though, hits me very deeply. The clarity of mind that I may have compared to another. Perhaps that is a fault of mine, because I do not think of myself as others may. I look at myself as some surfer that hated school (still have anxiety attacks when walking my kids through school hallways), partied too hard, slept around WAY too much, and fucked around so much in college (which I hated) and afterwards, I could easily be called a drifter loser.

Now, lets come to your reply.

It has to do with 'higher ups', not 'common folk', my recent above post.

God...I do step back out of my mind, and try to see as others see. It is something that I do daily, and I hate myself for it. No, that is wrong. I do not hate myself for it. I do not hate myself.

It is frustration. I cannot speak to friends, to my best friends, about ME. I cannot even speak to family for they do not understand. I have discussed this with others, and there is no help for it. The conversations with my dad and twin brother, which are one of my favorite memories of 'childhood'...they do not understand the depth anymore. No one seems to, save for the ones I mentioned above in the recent post.

I am doing my best to sustain the Hearts. lol, I was wondering 30 minutes ago, when taking a piss, why I feel I must do so, hence the post above.

So, the words I in the previous post agrees with your statement, "You do not help them this way, and neither do you help yourself."

So I wrote the last thought:

Sometimes it is efficient to chart your own course, and be damned if consequences of your own unique thought processes land yo in unfamiliar shores.

What to do?

Make the shores familiar.

Apollo...when was the last time there was a 7 planet alignment on 3-12?

Hmmm, Reminds me of why Set really killed Osiris and Solomon had Hiram killed, Its always over a woman

lol

Hmmm, Reminds me of why Set really killed Osiris and Solomon had Hiram killed, Its always over a woman

lol

would you chose GOD or a man you don't love and have never loved just because of a piece of paper?

Don't judge yourself as awareness is a convoluted path. It sometimes takes a great many falls to finally look up.

Sometimes even more to discern what you are.

Just keep speaking with your heart and what you need will come.

Don't mind me, just taking a little break, too many things mentioned have begun to transpire, taking a wee break lest I start second guessing.

Cheers!

Thats never been my experience. Those I have chosen have loved me in return...and I love them. Just have to choose them better..

But yes, you still have a valid point there.

Andri, yes ! Remember in Kabbalah and Rosicrucian studies? they speak of Love and Will? its not stereotypically accurate to say he got called down to take power or clean up the world or trick TPTB. He came down for love !

They would not have gotten him to return otherwise without luring him back with love by saying his wife was living and in trouble and needed him

Same ole story of the Pistis Sophia in bondage by the demons and she calls out to be saved and the light hears her plea

The rest of us are like bit players, but when the lovers are reunited, we are all healed cause then the universe is healed and then evil is no more..

Sounds very saccharine but its tradition. Ages old tradition of the Shekina and her husband, the man who will become our King and our representative of God on earth.

All the prophecies of touching Gods face is his face when he is restored in the flesh once again to be with his beloved.

sigh

Who is there to judge, save for one's self? I must evaluate my morals and ethics and behavior etc, not only in my waking reality, but in those places that...

Anyway, if I didn't do this - even in my sleep - I would be crushed. You understand, you've got to. There is no way you say the things you say without knowing.

You are recognizing the echoes, aren't you?

Fuck that. It has nothing to do with that. You and I have our moments of reflection, right. There is nothing beyond that. We enjoy each others company, and that is all there is to that.

lol

I need to sleep...

I'm surprised no one has asked yet, since apollo brought up "looking for his wife....hypothetical question...what if his wife is married? That should would be a clusterfuck! Just sayin...

Tradition is only one side of the coin, otherwise we would run in circle for ever.
The breaking of the circle to start another circle on a higher octave (and thus to make a spiral, and at the End of the Rainbow to reach Home again, the Source) must be made from down here. Indeed the call must be made by the Bride from down here on Earth for the Beloved to come down again.

On the other side of the coin rests the Mystery of the Bride. All the pure hearts of women impersonating the feminine that were burned by the Inquisition, for example. The ones who died of too much love for humanity. Their Cross has always been to defy Tradition, when it became devoid of soul.

And to be honest, you know that He would have not came back only for their promise. He also heard Her call directly from Her Soul.

Don't judge yourself as awareness is a convoluted path. It sometimes takes a great many falls to finally look up.

Sometimes even more to discern what you are.

Just keep speaking with your heart and what you need will come.

Don't mind me, just taking a little break, too many things mentioned have begun to transpire, taking a wee break lest I start second guessing.

Cheers!

Apollo, can you tell anything by the birth time of 3:09 am on 3-12? I mean, is the 3-12 date about the nobody or someone else concerning the nobody?

if so, then where did her scars come from, and she spent lifetimes as a virgin?

Hi Appollo,

So are you saying the WOS has to be a real virgin?

Hi Appollo,

So are you saying the WOS has to be a real virgin?

Thats never been my experience. Those I have chosen have loved me in return...and I love them. Just have to choose them better..

But yes, you still have a valid point there.

Religion divided us.