you just need more social connection
people without relations with others tend to fear more and often (closing themselves inside, making things much worse.. for they are always explaining themselves, where they should criticize!)

but your fear is due to your previous associations from the side of your religious background, it is messing in you with illusionary imaginations
you then asumme that every feeling is from "them" and "you" lost control/coherency..

there is a way out for sure!