just my mood....

And when Dreams are made, Magic happens.

I try to keep my ego out of it the best I can...
You have a way with words, I sense that, you reach real people for real...
You have so much love to share it just inspires the ones you are with... You don't need fancy words... You are deeper than that

fancy scmansy words would help. im trying to help my vocabulary but knowing what a word means isnt helping me use them properly. is it a glorious morning for you?

Bill Withers - Lovely Day (Original Version)

Yes it has been raining all night but now its quiet, only I can hear the sea whispers, so I guess I am going to take a walk to feel nature, I love that...
How has your day been, my loved friend?

pretty damn good, until i got jealous of your ocean sounds. I used to live by it. I would go to a beach i new was empty sometime after midnight and just sit all night staring at it until the sun came up. RARELY would i take someone with me. It was ME time. I miss it. all in all just mending the seams of the world as I know it. Thats always a good day in my opinion.

Yeah I know what you mean... Time by yourself is great...
I moved to this small town by the ocean and really knows no one, that fits me perfectly, I can just move around and be in my own energy, sometimes even like days just alone, pondering...
Feel the world though...
Don't be jealous of the sea... LoL.... Sometimes its real nice and other times when the wind really blows sand gets all over the place...
And you're always welcome to come over and stay, you can have your own room :o)

be careful mister, im planning a celebratory trip for when my neck is fully healed.. never seen Denmark!
The ocean can be fierce. thats why the doomer inside is happy i don't live next to it but i do miss its whispered words...

Lucifer can come too, he knows that, we'd have fun and I'd even cook for your guys... LoL... Yes i can cook :o)

Seriously you'd be welcome my friend

i want to cook the next night...

Yeah me too... Yesterday I lived from tomatoes and cheese... And coffee lol

i eat whatever moms cooking. im at a point though where all i crave is fresh veggies and barely any meat. oh i cant wait to have my own place again. Stupid neck! just a couple more months....

Ah now I got what you meant... You'd cook the next dinner when you come visiting... Deal lol... Sorry to be that slow...
Yeah kinda nice with mom to take care, but also gets like arghhhhh I need my own space...
Where would you like to live?

well my family once owned this island off of sicily. I love living here. I think that is the saddest part. I enjoy brightening their day and keeping em on their toes. Somewhere a little less modernized. somewhere that has its own sense of beauty. somewhere that has a bar. somewhere. im not too picky. Like i said my dream is an RV to roam about the states. but im broke, and no chance of a loan. Im working on the alternates. such as van, pull behind trailer. something.

Sounds great... Both Sicily and the rv- dream.... I lived for the past six months in an old auto-camper... Was nice... Almost strange to live in an apartment again... I am broke too so it was the cheapest of the cheapest but anyhow it was such fun... Being a wandering soul :o)

yes, Any serious relationship i have had was with someone not from my state or city or country. I get tired of it here. I hear we are a racist city and that there is hope for a better community outside of this place. I want to see. i secretly hope i would have someone to share my journeys with. But it seems as though it is not time for that. So, on with my journeys. Alone or not.

Perhaps that special someone is out there waiting for you, I know that I bumped into a woman that seems like my other half, where we even have rememberence of past life together... She lives in the USA, donno why all you guys live overthere... Perhaps I tricked when I got down here and should have aimed for America but took the wrong turn so they wouldn't find me lol

i didnt choose to live here. But im trying to get out. it isnt all that bad if you act like nothing is happening. I would rather teach love than obtain it.. if that makes sense. I always went for the ones who thought they were incapable of love. they found it in the end.

Yes it makes sense....it does
Now I just 'say' something and perhaps its just far out... But I know that some women find men who they can be a little superior too, in the sense that the woman has to teach the man about trusting himself, touching his feelings, receiving and giving love... That's beautiful, bc many men are in need for learning that, and no one would be able to teach them except a loving woman... Yet for some women its a protection, because somehow they are a bit invulnerable, instead if they really fall deeply in love with someone where there is equal sharing... And that can hurt like hell, but is also deep deep.... I don't know if that apply to you at all, just came to my mind bc Ive seen such women overhere

there is much insight there. If i ever loved equally i might know myself better. But the odds have never been in my favor. except once there was a man i loved deeply with all my heart and the amazing thing was he loved me the same in return. I have never felt that before or since. And yes it did scare me. terrified me. but i was giddy and happy to have found love. In the end as in the beginning i was not sexually attracted to him. if that was real i will never know. If it was me being scared or a love meant for friendship. In the end after acting with honesty and care. i have neither. No love or friend. i would hate to think that i seek such love and yet would let it go out of fear.

Yes many of really deep down fear love, bc it goes that deep
Its impractical and leaves all guards open
Yet we crave it
Somehow it seems like love is from outside this world, because its so deep and simple, and the world is complex and shallow
I know for myself from now on I only will seek those relationships whether its love or friendship that are deep and honest, and where there are no masks or roles one way or the other... But it can be tough, bc so many just wear masks...
Really appreciate your honestyand sharing, sunshine

my heart is yours
forever and always

I do not regard myself as the biggest catch. But, i am sure of my love. And thank you for making that clear once again. I love unconditionally. And in that particular instance i spoke of, it was my fault. Because i tried to manipulate my love into something it was not intended for. I am ready to receive when the balance is in place. Always have been. fear has no impact on my love. i will gladly make myself vulnerable, and do still to this day because it is the only way to determine the purity in the person standing before you.

You are the biggest catch, with an open vulnerable and honest heart like that, it is so rare these days...
If it wasn't because I met this woman which I am sure of is my other half, I would have fallen deeply in love with you... And you will always have my heart, we connect deeply and I so appreciate that you are around...
In my life I have been in two longer relationships... The first was more like what you describe as I wanted to help her... Of course there were also love but somehow I was a bit invulnerable...
The second time, oh man, I felt in love so deeply and we had ten amazing years together, and we had to break up bc the trust was gone... Even if the love was still so deep... It hurt like hell and actually brought me on the edge of leaving it all, bc when you love that deep, it is that love which makes sense, gives reason and suddenly I just felt so alone...
But I went through it and came back... Wiser, not happier... But now it starts to dawn, meeting some very loving deep people (you are one) and I truly appreciate that....

it brings a smile to my face to know your love is shared by your other half. For we can not love completely until the other half is found. I have a big heart so you are welcome to keep a piece with you at all times. I am madly and deeply in love with you but that does not mean we were designed for eachother. It just shows the unconditional love we are able to share. im glad i met you Lars!!! you brighten my day and give me hope.

So happy I met you too C......
You take a piece of my heart as well...
Brings a big smile to my face as well :D
Whatever these days of change before us brings, because the world gotta change, I know that true love and true friendship are eternal
And you know Im not just kidding or being polite when I say you are welcome here... I really mean it...
I know your other half is there somewhere too, Im not telling you where LoL..... Hahaha just kidding, don't know nothing where he is, just have a sense that good things are on their way... Pure and innosent hearts, like yours, will be the foundation for a world where its nice to live... Instead of all those money-mongers and schemers...

im sure we will meet again some sunny day...or maybe on the edge of a black hole. who knows. i will consider denmark. if you find him though you better let me know.

We'll meet again for sure... Have been at that edge of the black hole... Quite a view from there, actually... You get to see yourself and there by the whole universe as it is, unmirrored... The problem was just to come back... But i had someone singing for me ;o)

Sleep well and have beautiful dreams
Hugs