The illness is serious. I blank out too much. I zone out for a few minutes and not aware of what I'm doing, like a zombie and I only take prescription drugs that are legally prescribed to me. I'll do something and then say 'I don't remember doing that. I'll buy groceries and not remember buying something after I put it away. I never remember where I put things and feel like a zombie. Suffered from lots of 'soul loss' since I was a child. I can't even hold a conversation with someone without blanking out. I thought the illness has gotten worse over time.