Everything is changing, thoughts i have never thought, and pieces of life from a long life of scatter are being fit snug into place, a perfect fit.
I know now everything that i have been searching for is here, and is getting ready to change everything.
I have been here for a long time and i have said so many things and did things that i am not proud of but they were my heart at the time because i did not know.
I have met so many people here and have loved a few. I still love them and i hope that within their hearts if they read this that i was so confused with my life and i was searching for something that i thought they could fill but could not. No matter how much they tried to help me see they could not because i could not.
I have had such a hard life, and things have happened that never made any sense but i see it all now...I see and for the first time in my life i feel i am truly starting to awaken.
A love is come into my whole being that has been cold.
A love has come to me and it takes all the pain of confusion away.
For the first time i can truly FEEL love.
It is the purest love i have ever felt and it is transforming all that i am that is not me.
I just had to say this because this is amazing.
I no longer NEED
I no longer feel that feeling of loneliness because there is a love in my heart now that takes the place of all the deep down embedded fears of going through this life alone.

This will only grow stronger and with that more light will be let in. Such a wonderful changing....