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I need to vent, bash me all you want..i really don't care anymore as i have lived a life of people putting me down and belittling me.

All my life i have tried to do good. I make it a priority to always do atleast 1 good deed a day and have always tried to help others. However, this same life as consisted of people pushing me away and choosing not to be friendly with me, to hang out with me or whatnot. My own family choose not to include me when there is a big birthday bash or little sibling reunion where they all fly in from other parts of the country to be together. No bother letting me know.

I have failed at any kind of friendship i have had and am sick of being alone. Truth be told, GLP is the only place i have any kind of social existence with. I hate myself, i'm done trying to help others in need as i always get it thrown back in my face.

There is no such thing as Karma. I have decided i think i just might end it. Cowerdly as it seems, i have been told its the best thing for me as i am dirt.

Cheers and good luck
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Have you tried smoking a joint ?
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Why hate yourself, specially when it's due to external events you have no control about?
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When everything around us goes wrong, one should look inside for an answer.
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Stop looking outward to find acceptance. In this world, that will only bring sorrow. Instead, focus on your inner self, your true being.
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I agree with you on the "no such thing as Karma." At least not in this life.
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I need to vent, bash me all you want..i really don't care anymore as i have lived a life of people putting me down and belittling me.

All my life i have tried to do good. I make it a priority to always do atleast 1 good deed a day and have always tried to help others. However, this same life as consisted of people pushing me away and choosing not to be friendly with me, to hang out with me or whatnot. My own family choose not to include me when there is a big birthday bash or little sibling reunion where they all fly in from other parts of the country to be together. No bother letting me know.

I have failed at any kind of friendship i have had and am sick of being alone. Truth be told, GLP is the only place i have any kind of social existence with. I hate myself, i'm done trying to help others in need as i always get it thrown back in my face.

There is no such thing as Karma. I have decided i think i just might end it. Cowerdly as it seems, i have been told its the best thing for me as i am dirt.

Cheers and good luck
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I hear you. You are terrific.smile_hear
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Why hate yourself when you can hate Obama. J/K I'll be your friend and give ya some karma just log in. If only it were that simple right.

Don't end it, it will get better! Why not go out and treat your self to something nice. You deserve it.

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clappa

if your talking about cuicide dont do it wussy boy youll just have to repeat it again. its good your at this place its perfectly normal, most people/friends/family are the scum they are the ones who should not be alive.

do things for yourself better your own life dont involve them it isnt worth it. go get a beer get high it doesnt matter really what you do, get over your pity and move on but dont forget remember dont turn back move foward. there are some great people but you wont find them if your too involved in the cirlces you shouldnt be in.

cheerscheers
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I need to vent, bash me all you want..i really don't care anymore as i have lived a life of people putting me down and belittling me.

All my life i have tried to do good. I make it a priority to always do atleast 1 good deed a day and have always tried to help others. However, this same life as consisted of people pushing me away and choosing not to be friendly with me, to hang out with me or whatnot. My own family choose not to include me when there is a big birthday bash or little sibling reunion where they all fly in from other parts of the country to be together. No bother letting me know.

I have failed at any kind of friendship i have had and am sick of being alone. Truth be told, GLP is the only place i have any kind of social existence with. I hate myself, i'm done trying to help others in need as i always get it thrown back in my face.

There is no such thing as Karma. I have decided i think i just might end it. Cowerdly as it seems, i have been told its the best thing for me as i am dirt.

Cheers and good luck

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Ya well join the club...The curse of being awake...OP You asked to be here right now...We all feel the same thing's you do...The big difference here is that you have the BALL'S to post it...Please stick around we need all the help we can get right now waking all the SHEEP..

I send you a gift for your courage to open up
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Life sucks and they you die.
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You were on your way home when you died.

It was a car accident. Nothing particularly remarkable, but fatal nonetheless. You left behind a wife and two children. It was a painless death. The EMTs tried their best to save you, but to no avail. Your body was so utterly shattered you were better off, trust me.

And that’s when you met me.

“What… what happened?” You asked. “Where am I?”

“You died,” I said, matter-of-factly. No point in mincing words.

“There was a… a truck and it was skidding…”

“Yup,” I said.

“I… I died?”

“Yup. But don’t feel bad about it. Everyone dies,” I said.

You looked around. There was nothingness. Just you and me. “What is this place?” You asked. “Is this the afterlife?”

“More or less,” I said.

“Are you god?” You asked.

“Yup,” I replied. “I’m God.”

“My kids… my wife,” you said.

“What about them?”

“Will they be all right?”

“That’s what I like to see,” I said. “You just died and your main concern is for your family. That’s good stuff right there.”

You looked at me with fascination. To you, I didn’t look like God. I just looked like some man. Or possibly a woman. Some vague authority figure, maybe. More of a grammar school teacher than the almighty.

“Don’t worry,” I said. “They’ll be fine. Your kids will remember you as perfect in every way. They didn’t have time to grow contempt for you. Your wife will cry on the outside, but will be secretly relieved. To be fair, your marriage was falling apart. If it’s any consolation, she’ll feel very guilty for feeling relieved.”

“Oh,” you said. “So what happens now? Do I go to heaven or hell or something?”

“Neither,” I said. “You’ll be reincarnated.”

“Ah,” you said. “So the Hindus were right,”

“All religions are right in their own way,” I said. “Walk with me.”

You followed along as we strode through the void. “Where are we going?”

“Nowhere in particular,” I said. “It’s just nice to walk while we talk.”

“So what’s the point, then?” You asked. “When I get reborn, I’ll just be a blank slate, right? A baby. So all my experiences and everything I did in this life won’t matter.”

“Not so!” I said. “You have within you all the knowledge and experiences of all your past lives. You just don’t remember them right now.”

I stopped walking and took you by the shoulders. “Your soul is more magnificent, beautiful, and gigantic than you can possibly imagine. A human mind can only contain a tiny fraction of what you are. It’s like sticking your finger in a glass of water to see if it’s hot or cold. You put a tiny part of yourself into the vessel, and when you bring it back out, you’ve gained all the experiences it had.

“You’ve been in a human for the last 48 years, so you haven’t stretched out yet and felt the rest of your immense consciousness. If we hung out here for long enough, you’d start remembering everything. But there’s no point to doing that between each life.”

“How many times have I been reincarnated, then?”

“Oh lots. Lots and lots. An in to lots of different lives.” I said. “This time around, you’ll be a Chinese peasant girl in 540 AD.”

“Wait, what?” You stammered. “You’re sending me back in time?”

“Well, I guess technically. Time, as you know it, only exists in your universe. Things are different where I come from.”

“Where you come from?” You said.

“Oh sure,” I explained “I come from somewhere. Somewhere else. And there are others like me. I know you’ll want to know what it’s like there, but honestly you wouldn’t understand.”

“Oh,” you said, a little let down. “But wait. If I get reincarnated to other places in time, I could have interacted with myself at some point.”

“Sure. Happens all the time. And with both lives only aware of their own lifespan you don’t even know it’s happening.”

“So what’s the point of it all?”

“Seriously?” I asked. “Seriously? You’re asking me for the meaning of life? Isn’t that a little stereotypical?”

“Well it’s a reasonable question,” you persisted.

I looked you in the eye. “The meaning of life, the reason I made this whole universe, is for you to mature.”

“You mean mankind? You want us to mature?”

“No, just you. I made this whole universe for you. With each new life you grow and mature and become a larger and greater intellect.”

“Just me? What about everyone else?”

“There is no one else,” I said. “In this universe, there’s just you and me.”

You stared blankly at me. “But all the people on earth…”

“All you. Different incarnations of you.”

“Wait. I’m everyone!?”

“Now you’re getting it,” I said, with a congratulatory slap on the back.

“I’m every human being who ever lived?”

“Or who will ever live, yes.”

“I’m Abraham Lincoln?”

“And you’re John Wilkes Booth, too,” I added.

“I’m Hitler?” You said, appalled.

“And you’re the millions he killed.”

“I’m Jesus?”

“And you’re everyone who followed him.”

You fell silent.

“Every time you victimized someone,” I said, “you were victimizing yourself. Every act of kindness you’ve done, you’ve done to yourself. Every happy and sad moment ever experienced by any human was, or will be, experienced by you.”

You thought for a long time.

“Why?” You asked me. “Why do all this?”

“Because someday, you will become like me. Because that’s what you are. You’re one of my kind. You’re my child.”

“Whoa,” you said, incredulous. “You mean I’m a god?”

“No. Not yet. You’re a fetus. You’re still growing. Once you’ve lived every human life throughout all time, you will have grown enough to be born.”

“So the whole universe,” you said, “it’s just…”

“An egg.” I answered. “Now it’s time for you to move on to your next life.”

And I sent you on your way.


The Egg
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You were on your way home when you died.

It was a car accident. Nothing particularly remarkable, but fatal nonetheless. You left behind a wife and two children. It was a painless death. The EMTs tried their best to save you, but to no avail. Your body was so utterly shattered you were better off, trust me.

And that’s when you met me.

“What… what happened?” You asked. “Where am I?”

“You died,” I said, matter-of-factly. No point in mincing words.

“There was a… a truck and it was skidding…”

“Yup,” I said.

“I… I died?”

“Yup. But don’t feel bad about it. Everyone dies,” I said.

You looked around. There was nothingness. Just you and me. “What is this place?” You asked. “Is this the afterlife?”

“More or less,” I said.

“Are you god?” You asked.

“Yup,” I replied. “I’m God.”

“My kids… my wife,” you said.

“What about them?”

“Will they be all right?”

“That’s what I like to see,” I said. “You just died and your main concern is for your family. That’s good stuff right there.”

You looked at me with fascination. To you, I didn’t look like God. I just looked like some man. Or possibly a woman. Some vague authority figure, maybe. More of a grammar school teacher than the almighty.

“Don’t worry,” I said. “They’ll be fine. Your kids will remember you as perfect in every way. They didn’t have time to grow contempt for you. Your wife will cry on the outside, but will be secretly relieved. To be fair, your marriage was falling apart. If it’s any consolation, she’ll feel very guilty for feeling relieved.”

“Oh,” you said. “So what happens now? Do I go to heaven or hell or something?”

“Neither,” I said. “You’ll be reincarnated.”

“Ah,” you said. “So the Hindus were right,”

“All religions are right in their own way,” I said. “Walk with me.”

You followed along as we strode through the void. “Where are we going?”

“Nowhere in particular,” I said. “It’s just nice to walk while we talk.”

“So what’s the point, then?” You asked. “When I get reborn, I’ll just be a blank slate, right? A baby. So all my experiences and everything I did in this life won’t matter.”

“Not so!” I said. “You have within you all the knowledge and experiences of all your past lives. You just don’t remember them right now.”

I stopped walking and took you by the shoulders. “Your soul is more magnificent, beautiful, and gigantic than you can possibly imagine. A human mind can only contain a tiny fraction of what you are. It’s like sticking your finger in a glass of water to see if it’s hot or cold. You put a tiny part of yourself into the vessel, and when you bring it back out, you’ve gained all the experiences it had.

“You’ve been in a human for the last 48 years, so you haven’t stretched out yet and felt the rest of your immense consciousness. If we hung out here for long enough, you’d start remembering everything. But there’s no point to doing that between each life.”

“How many times have I been reincarnated, then?”

“Oh lots. Lots and lots. An in to lots of different lives.” I said. “This time around, you’ll be a Chinese peasant girl in 540 AD.”

“Wait, what?” You stammered. “You’re sending me back in time?”

“Well, I guess technically. Time, as you know it, only exists in your universe. Things are different where I come from.”

“Where you come from?” You said.

“Oh sure,” I explained “I come from somewhere. Somewhere else. And there are others like me. I know you’ll want to know what it’s like there, but honestly you wouldn’t understand.”

“Oh,” you said, a little let down. “But wait. If I get reincarnated to other places in time, I could have interacted with myself at some point.”

“Sure. Happens all the time. And with both lives only aware of their own lifespan you don’t even know it’s happening.”

“So what’s the point of it all?”

“Seriously?” I asked. “Seriously? You’re asking me for the meaning of life? Isn’t that a little stereotypical?”

“Well it’s a reasonable question,” you persisted.

I looked you in the eye. “The meaning of life, the reason I made this whole universe, is for you to mature.”

“You mean mankind? You want us to mature?”

“No, just you. I made this whole universe for you. With each new life you grow and mature and become a larger and greater intellect.”

“Just me? What about everyone else?”

“There is no one else,” I said. “In this universe, there’s just you and me.”

You stared blankly at me. “But all the people on earth…”

“All you. Different incarnations of you.”

“Wait. I’m everyone!?”

“Now you’re getting it,” I said, with a congratulatory slap on the back.

“I’m every human being who ever lived?”

“Or who will ever live, yes.”

“I’m Abraham Lincoln?”

“And you’re John Wilkes Booth, too,” I added.

“I’m Hitler?” You said, appalled.

“And you’re the millions he killed.”

“I’m Jesus?”

“And you’re everyone who followed him.”

You fell silent.

“Every time you victimized someone,” I said, “you were victimizing yourself. Every act of kindness you’ve done, you’ve done to yourself. Every happy and sad moment ever experienced by any human was, or will be, experienced by you.”

You thought for a long time.

“Why?” You asked me. “Why do all this?”

“Because someday, you will become like me. Because that’s what you are. You’re one of my kind. You’re my child.”

“Whoa,” you said, incredulous. “You mean I’m a god?”

“No. Not yet. You’re a fetus. You’re still growing. Once you’ve lived every human life throughout all time, you will have grown enough to be born.”

“So the whole universe,” you said, “it’s just…”

“An egg.” I answered. “Now it’s time for you to move on to your next life.”

And I sent you on your way.


The Egg
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Sooo...a GOD egg is an entire universe??
Wow..I would hate to imagine what a god SHIT actually is...
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I like you OP.

"You will not be punished for your anger, you will be punished by your anger"
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Op, you need to go watch a sunset and then pray.

This world is full of evil, but it's also full of great goodness and beauty. Ignore what everyone else thinks and does and just enjoy the beauty around you and inside of yo.

hf
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I was actually going to make a similar thread.

In your case, I bet you are the poor one in the family so you are excluded because you can't afford to fly around and have a good time with the rest of your family?

Families are usually mean. If you can't afford to join in they will just leave you out. No one will bother to pay for you, even if others did not treat them as meanly as they treat you.

I have seen this in my own family. Whole family raised on welfare and given charity and kindness from others. In my life I was the only one on welfare and the rest of the family just cut me out.

Apparently it is my own fault that I have a debilitating medical condition and can't work and that my husband left.

The truth is people don't want to associate with unhappy people. If you are miserable, others just want you to fuck off and stop being the dark cloud in the room.
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" However, this same life as consisted of people pushing me away and choosing not to be friendly with me, to hang out with me or whatnot. My own family choose not to include me when there is a big birthday bash or little sibling reunion"

I pitty you, because you dont recognize how incredibly lucky you are. hf
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:( wish I could give you a hug OP
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Thank you much everyone :) I know what you mean about worrying myself with external things but it just gets to me. I mean, i'm almost 30 and i don't know what to do. I tried the positive attitude and always looking on the bright side but it just seems hard.

Yes, i love me a joint haha, about the only time i feel ok!

Thank you for all your lovely comments :P
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I was actually going to make a similar thread.

In your case, I bet you are the poor one in the family so you are excluded because you can't afford to fly around and have a good time with the rest of your family?

Families are usually mean. If you can't afford to join in they will just leave you out. No one will bother to pay for you, even if others did not treat them as meanly as they treat you.

I have seen this in my own family. Whole family raised on welfare and given charity and kindness from others. In my life I was the only one on welfare and the rest of the family just cut me out.

Apparently it is my own fault that I have a debilitating medical condition and can't work and that my husband left.

The truth is people don't want to associate with unhappy people. If you are miserable, others just want you to fuck off and stop being the dark cloud in the room.
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Wow, exactly that~
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I need to vent, bash me all you want..i really don't care anymore as i have lived a life of people putting me down and belittling me.

All my life i have tried to do good. I make it a priority to always do atleast 1 good deed a day and have always tried to help others. However, this same life as consisted of people pushing me away and choosing not to be friendly with me, to hang out with me or whatnot. My own family choose not to include me when there is a big birthday bash or little sibling reunion where they all fly in from other parts of the country to be together. No bother letting me know.

I have failed at any kind of friendship i have had and am sick of being alone. Truth be told, GLP is the only place i have any kind of social existence with. I hate myself, i'm done trying to help others in need as i always get it thrown back in my face.

There is no such thing as Karma. I have decided i think i just might end it. Cowerdly as it seems, i have been told its the best thing for me as i am dirt.

Cheers and good luck

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Ya well join the club...The curse of being awake...OP You asked to be here right now...We all feel the same thing's you do...The big difference here is that you have the BALL'S to post it...Please stick around we need all the help we can get right now waking all the SHEEP..

I send you a gift for your courage to open up

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Yet another great comment! Yes, i have tried waking up the sheep and i can't let things get to me. Granted, i'm usually fine, it's just i have been feeling damn down the past couple days have damnit...i needed to vent!
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I came to this realization some time ago.

That when I am unhappy I cannot ever remember what it feels like to be happy.

Then when I am happy I cannot remember what it feels like to be unhappy.

This too will pass.
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I came to this realization some time ago.

That when I am unhappy I cannot ever remember what it feels like to be happy.

Then when I am happy I cannot remember what it feels like to be unhappy.

This too will pass.
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Hard to feel like im the only one who feels blue...yet i knoq there are more. Ever feel like you dont want to bother anyone else with thse pity problems?
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I need to vent, bash me all you want..i really don't care anymore as i have lived a life of people putting me down and belittling me.

All my life i have tried to do good. I make it a priority to always do atleast 1 good deed a day and have always tried to help others. However, this same life as consisted of people pushing me away and choosing not to be friendly with me, to hang out with me or whatnot. My own family choose not to include me when there is a big birthday bash or little sibling reunion where they all fly in from other parts of the country to be together. No bother letting me know.

I have failed at any kind of friendship i have had and am sick of being alone. Truth be told, GLP is the only place i have any kind of social existence with. I hate myself, i'm done trying to help others in need as i always get it thrown back in my face.

There is no such thing as Karma. I have decided i think i just might end it. Cowerdly as it seems, i have been told its the best thing for me as i am dirt.

Cheers and good luck
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Project and focus that hate on the PTB or NWO.
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You know what?

As much as i hate things that are going on in my life, the more i realize that the elites or the NWO are winning.

For years they have infiltrated our desires and emotions ala crap movies and materialistic things making each of us feel like we are living in fear. This is all a product of manipulation towards eachother and ourselves.

The drugs to dumb us down
The media at how depressing it ALWAYS is
The new toys and clothes we HAVE to have or else..

Fuck the NWO!! We should all feel happy and loving, instead, the majority feels left out and isolated. This may sound like an excuse of our inner authority but the more research i do, the more reasons if find to beleive we are being poisoned. Yes i do realize it and yes it's hard to feel otherwise but this is life and we need MORE of us to stand together
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I don't believe in 'karma' either. I don't believe anyone gets what they 'deserve' be it good or the bad in this life.

Not happy with most of the things in my life.. No social life here, not looking for one. Don't even care about that anymore.

Forget the others, what they think, how they treat you and try and make yourself better.. Just walk away from them. Cut off from people who do nothing but make you feel bad.

They'll want back in.. cause they no one else will take that shit from them.

Wish i had some words of advice... sorry i don't really..but i do know how you feel..

Suicide is a permanent solution for a temporary problem.

Pray about it.. recite the Lords prayer when you don't know what else to do. Say out loud if you need to "Satan get behind me, in Christ's name" can do wonders..
Even if you don't believe, you may find these things help a great deal..

I may be as depressed as you next week or the week after..
but I'm not today and that's all that matters.
Sincerely wish you didn't feel this way today. It's a dark place to be in.
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I need to vent, bash me all you want..i really don't care anymore as i have lived a life of people putting me down and belittling me.

All my life i have tried to do good. I make it a priority to always do atleast 1 good deed a day and have always tried to help others. However, this same life as consisted of people pushing me away and choosing not to be friendly with me, to hang out with me or whatnot. My own family choose not to include me when there is a big birthday bash or little sibling reunion where they all fly in from other parts of the country to be together. No bother letting me know.

I have failed at any kind of friendship i have had and am sick of being alone. Truth be told, GLP is the only place i have any kind of social existence with. I hate myself, i'm done trying to help others in need as i always get it thrown back in my face.

There is no such thing as Karma. I have decided i think i just might end it. Cowerdly as it seems, i have been told its the best thing for me as i am dirt.

Cheers and good luck
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If you failed at both family and friends, I think the real issue you. (provided that you actually want family and friend relationships)

Something about you is rubbing people the wrong way, and I am sure that they have told you specific things in the past before things went to shit.

Perhaps you should take a good look at your past and things people said to you (not the most recent things they said, as they would be less helpful and mostly only hurtful).

Look for the constructive criticism they have given you, and if you happen to agree with it, make those changes in your life.

OR, go live in the mountains some where and be a happy hermit. (seriously, some people are simply happier by themselves)

Good luck, and take care.
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09/23/2012 06:18 PM
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Thank you much everyone :) I know what you mean about worrying myself with external things but it just gets to me. I mean, i'm almost 30 and i don't know what to do. I tried the positive attitude and always looking on the bright side but it just seems hard.

Yes, i love me a joint haha, about the only time i feel ok!

Thank you for all your lovely comments :P
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ditto OP

my life in a nutcase

i guess its what you may expect after waking up as one other poster wrote

yeah a nice little joint helps a loner like me but now i cant nearly afford that too

being independent is the hardest thing ever well some make money others like me loose money and still don't wanna give in

well i like people on GLP but its such a pitte loners like you and me cant find somebody IRL with the same kind of good and intelligent and open mind

well at least i know one guy which i think its OK but they are not really hanging on the treas as we say here. its so hard to find a decent friend
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09/23/2012 06:21 PM
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I was actually going to make a similar thread.

In your case, I bet you are the poor one in the family so you are excluded because you can't afford to fly around and have a good time with the rest of your family?

Families are usually mean. If you can't afford to join in they will just leave you out. No one will bother to pay for you, even if others did not treat them as meanly as they treat you.

I have seen this in my own family. Whole family raised on welfare and given charity and kindness from others. In my life I was the only one on welfare and the rest of the family just cut me out.

Apparently it is my own fault that I have a debilitating medical condition and can't work and that my husband left.

The truth is people don't want to associate with unhappy people. If you are miserable, others just want you to fuck off and stop being the dark cloud in the room.
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Wow, exactly that~
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My family used to play this game with me. Every time I would tell them I was miserable and I was not coping they would say "Yeah me too, life is really crap, you have not idea how miserable I am." They would talk over you and try and make out their lives were so shit they could hardly go on ... twenty years later I found out it was all bullshit like I knew it was. They had married wealthy men and were having a good time and their husbands loved them. Twenty years later they admitted to how happy they have been and how great life was and is for them.

The fact is people are arseholes and don't ever think they're not.
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You know what?

As much as i hate things that are going on in my life, the more i realize that the elites or the NWO are winning.

For years they have infiltrated our desires and emotions ala crap movies and materialistic things making each of us feel like we are living in fear. This is all a product of manipulation towards eachother and ourselves.

The drugs to dumb us down
The media at how depressing it ALWAYS is
The new toys and clothes we HAVE to have or else..

Fuck the NWO!! We should all feel happy and loving, instead, the majority feels left out and isolated. This may sound like an excuse of our inner authority but the more research i do, the more reasons if find to beleive we are being poisoned. Yes i do realize it and yes it's hard to feel otherwise but this is life and we need MORE of us to stand together
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So..? you're not depressed now? lol.. look everyone has problems, something going on.. some are better hidden than others, thought you were having personal issues.. not NWO issues..this some sort of a bait thread for the depressed and down trotted?

Cause I'm still standing bitches..:)
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^^^

Oh on that note if you say you are broke and can hardly make ends meet, they will say "yes I am terribly broke too, things are bad, real bad."

The very next week they buy a brand new car and go on a trip to some exotic location.

Then they tell you their earning $20,000 a month.
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