Hi Solar Son,

I have spent the past several days reading this thread. At first it didn't resonate ... I try to use discernment ... but very quickly, I realized you're one of the "good guys".

Two things come to mind after reading everything you've written. First, I worry about you and others trying to help people, i.e., that you're somehow being fooled or tricked into thinking you're defeating the others and that things will be better. If you are somehow winning the battle, then I'm also concerned for your safety.

Second, do SSRI's (antidepressants) permanently damage the pineal? If so, how much can I really get practicing meditation, astral travel & OBO's if I'm hopelessly addicted to Prozac for 25 years? I was put on this despicable drug after a particularly difficult break up when I was young and have been unable to successfully withdraw permanently without debilitating side effects. Several doctors have just told me to "stay on it" since I don't have any problems except when I try to wean myself.

Can I still "know my real self" and achieve necessary states of spirituality or am I ultimately stuck now?

Any suggestions or information would be greatly appreciated.

Much love, peace and safety to you.

Thanks.