much insight in what you say.
but in answer to your question, "what if i were to tell you" I would respond my boots are laced and my guns are oiled let us meet and march against these SOB"s
time to duck out of this thread my anger has stained it and brought the focus to me instead of the quite possible miraculous information you and others presented in goodness and light.
good luck, don't worry for me, your words ring true but cannot be absorbed by me now.
Man, I don't think you are wrong at all. There's nothing to forgive. Say what's on your mind... if you're really looking for answers, perhaps this is the place that will give you SOME peace and help you get to where you need/want to be?
What if I were to tell you that last 5 years I was a rich man? Last year, my business collapsed and I had to let 20 people go? That I have no retirement, no savings, no health care. Had to sell my house to keep the business afloat.
What if I were to tell you that I'm living in an RV now?
What if I were to tell you that I used to be a soldier in the U.S. Army? That I was duped into being a foot soldier for the evil empire? Told that I was "protecting" freedom?
What if I were to you that my kids have been taken away from me by the family court system for no reason other than I'm male? That I've had to move 4 times just to be near them and in their life.
What if I were to tell you that I'm not a holy man and that my whole life I felt "guilty" about not being saved? Felt in my heart that the stories of in the bible just didn't make sense?
What if I were to tell you that I've had to live a nomadic life. I've lived in more countries and U.S. states than most have ever visited? Truly a man without a home or country.
What if I were to tell you that the number of friends I have in my life (to date) I can count on one hand. Most of them being in the long term acquaintance category.
What if I were to tell you that I just found out that every single thing I "thought" I believed in was a lie to manipulate and enslave me?
What if I were to tell you that I've been homeless for more than once in my life?
What if I were to tell you that I've been homesick my whole life, but don't even know where that is?
Finally, what if I were to tell you that ALL THESE THINGS happened to TEACH me? To SHOW me what was important and what wasn't? To prepare me for this moment, this day? It was a very long, deep, dark road in the pits of hell to get to where I'm at now. Even when I thought I was going to drown in my own hell, I kept swimming.
And you know what? I made it to the other side!
I sooo get it, man. I think most people, if they're honest do to. Folks may like to hide behind avatars and play childish games, but deep down, they get it, they're scared, afraid, and are waking up "en-masse" to a very crazy world they THOUGHT they understood.
EVERY person on this planet is getting the same wakeup call, dude. Some earlier than others. Heck, some won't see it until the volcano blows. Some may not see it until they lose everything they have and go hungry. This world we're on is changing, that's an undeniable fact. Sometimes, change is painful. It causes us to reflect upon things that no longer work. Toss out old/faulty belief systems and charge forward with new ones. How does one go about that? We look inside. We look deep inside, pull out the crap, dust it off and look at it. Then we say "hey, this is a load of crap! This doesn't work for me anymore! Let's replace this with a bit of truth!" It's hard to do... AT FIRST. But the most amazing thing starts to happen. Once old faulty thoughts get replaced with newer "truer" thoughts, you become uplifted. Lighter. Softer. Truer.
But you know what, they'll all eventually see the truth. That's the beauty of this day, this moment, the NOW.
If this post resonates with you or anyone else coming into this thread, then I say right on! One thing is for sure, hate breeds hate. Love breeds love.
I've decided to LOVE. That's a choice we all have to make. At the end of the day, at the end of time, it's all our own choice. It doesn't happen overnight, but it can and does happen every single day.
Peace and Love man!