My wife was killed in a car wreck 2 years ago on her way to a shopping trip with her best friend. Worst day of my life. I would have never ever thought of doing something like your doing to her. I've spent every night of my life since that day walking the floors waiting for her to walk in the door like it was all a bad dream.
I can't even think about touching another woman in the home we shared.

You don't deserve a wife.