Thirty years ago I was told by someone that it was a bad place and to leave and I laughed at them and said I couldn't because I was only a child. I physically tried to leave 20 years ago. A year or two later I managed a big move. Then when it got aggressive, once again I chose for it to be over about 8 years ago..that was my phase of boobie trapping the house late at night and actually catching people...that was beyond bizarre..if it wasn't for my "catches" I would have self assigned myself as a nutter. A year ago I stood tall, went through and broke every contract; written, unwritten, signed or unsigned that I could. A month ago I still had some nitwit newbie irl trying to trigger me (it worked for a few minutes before I snapped out). Some things can't be wished away. The first time I tried to wish it away I was 3.