Thanks for answering! Quoting: Anonymous Coward 26991073
Reason i ask is i have doubts too, but no clues at all. Also your (and others) posts reminded me of my personality, not memories
The strange feeling of having no real control over my life, the decisions are made by others.
One of the posts of ArmchairObserver on the first page I found very interesting, as it relates to me quite well: Being an encyclopedia like computer human, needing to get more input, wanting to observe.
Anyways, i'm probably just a fucked up person. But the doubt is there.
BTW: My Dad disclosed himself as not my biological dad when i was 18, had quite the cold relationship to me, unlike to my sister.
Anyone reading this: If your kid is that old and you never told him, DON'T FFS, IT'S TOO LATE!!! YOU WILL FUCK YOUR KID UP!!!
Again, thanks for this thread, certainly one of the few diamonds on here. Sorry for being of no help.
We're all fucked up in one way or another. We're all in the same f'ed up game no matter if the poison was done hands on or from afar.
I say if you have doubt there's a reason, whatever it may turn out to be. The first thing you need to learn is to trust yourself. That was the hardest for me because my reality never matched the lies I kept getting told and I wanted to please the liars and warp reality until it matched what they wanted me to believe it to be.
Also, just throwing this out here: Quoting: Anonymous Coward 26991073
I fuck up everything i do, hence the feeling of my life not being controlled by me but by others trying to keep me down.
Yes, crazy. I know.
That's a pretty clear indication of duality.
And sorry if my posts seem ridiculous to what has happened to you (and others ITT). But i know something's wrong. Quoting: Anonymous Coward 26991073
One more thing to note: Went to Elite school for intelligent people (Latin as first language, then English, then Ancient Greek) but cancelled it after 9th grade (after learning anarchist philosophy).
School was in West-Berlin, many rich kids. I was from East-Berlin (the only one oO), quite poor.
Related? Probably not, but i had the strong urge to share this too.
I went to an ivy league university and lived in the ghetto. Stranger things have happened. Maybe sometimes they need intelligent expendables.
It's all turned me into a bit of a pessimist if you can't tell lol.