I QUIT SMOKING , YOU CAN TOO. I QUIT SEPT 27, 2012, SUPPORT EACH OTHER HERE

DesFox - Wanted to take a moment and acknowledge (celebrate) your three months. Unbelieveable and something to be so proud of. I hope the visit with your daughter and the grandkids is going well. I

n any event, a cigarette will add nothing but self-loathing to our lives. Despite the whispered lies ('a smoke will take the edge off, I can start my quit again tomorrow, hey, if I quit this long, I can do it again, or simply a fuck-it') a cigarette will no longer deliver for us. We've all gotten far enough from the day-to-day, cigarette-after-cigarette life to see the lie for what it is no matter what our minds may tell us.

For myself, I had a terrible time with the smokes over the holidays. I wanted to smoke very, very, badly. I caused fights with my wife, I wanted to get away from my extended family, I wanted to slip away from my kids. I wanted to smoke. I wanted to smoke more than I wanted not to smoke (despite telling myself all the great things about being clean). But I didn't smoke. And the reason? It wasn't because I was strong (I'm not). It wasn't because I cared about myself (I've spent a lifetime not really caring and being intentionally vague to myself about myself). I didn't smoke because it would be just one more thing for me to beat myself up over. One more thing for my internal tyrant to tell me that I really was garbage and not worth much at all. I didn't smoke because there was just a glimmer, a reference point these last three weeks and change have given me, that I was more than a cigarette. More (despite my protective cynacism) to me than being just some schmuck doing the charlie potatoes shuffle slouching toward my next smoke and the next thing to hurt myself and my opinion of myself. Fuck that.

It was a battle, DesFox, but I didn't smoke. Reading your comments over the last three weeks has shown me you're a good and kind man, DF. If anyone deserves this gift to themselves it is you. Even if your ass falls off, don't smoke, DF.

Well, that ticked me off. I had a nice long response all typed and ready to post and accidentally deleted it. Crap. I will be back later.

stopping soon and it will make the wife happy. January first is my goal. Did it once this summer and I want to really do it this time.

Good job everyone!

Three weeks and a day for me and I am feeling absolutely............GREAT!

While at work, I am constantly having mini cravings everytime I finish a phase or mix or pass or whatever, I used to "reward" myself with smoking. Now after reprogramming the analyzer, I know for a fact that the real reward is in the NOT smoking and that my friends was an amazing realization

Still having the regular craving, but eating more, sleeping less, working harder, excercising more, spending more time with the family, laughing more and a general lust for life which has been tamped down way too long.

I also feel like I am tasting and smelling everything for the first time and as I said in an earlier post, the smeller being better aint necessarily a good thing....lol

Later
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that's badass.

truly.

You have nothing to lose, and everything to gain. Best wishes for you to truly have a new healthier new year. DF

That is called, over the hump and kicking some demon butt. DF

Thanks so much Bx, you are a true blessing to our thread.

Oh, and the wife is on day two going on three and doing better than I was at that point........ told you she was strong, no patch, no gum, just the ebook and that's it.

She gets a

OH YEAH, DF

LOL, of course! I just happened to be rather unlucky. You did read my sig, right?

Happy so many are kicking the cigs. Be proud of yourselves! And if it doesn't work this time, never quit trying.

Edited to add...

I didn't mean to discourage anyone. It wasn't my intent at all. But please, if you ever do feel sick to your stomach, weird, and hearts in fast flutters while using the patch, get to the ER quick! And most of all, please don't ever put the patch near your heart. I had mine just above it on my chest kinda close to my shoulder. I was running out of places to 'hide' it, and was stupid and put it there, and that is what started it all.

If it works, just be careful and go for it.
Sorry if I bummed anyone out. Mine was just a string of really bad misdiagnosis-es..misdiagnoses? anyways. Just wanted to make it clear.

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Kona, don't worry. I wasn't upset at all... I think you give very good advice about not putting the patch near the heart. Those are excellent signs to look for. I am sorry things went so badly for you. Life is unfair.

So far things are fine for me. I don't wear it at night and I actually wear each one two days in a row.

I'm still grumpy though. 19 days into it and 8 days since my flowerpot cheat. Once I hit 14 days on my flowerpot cheat I'm going to claim victory... for the day anyway. :)

I can relate to Mac's fight-picking behaviour. Man oh man I can be grumpy... just for a reason to give it all up. Something in me this time is saying no though.

How's everyone else doing?

Quote for the day, courtesy of Mac:

"I didn't smoke because it would be just one more thing for me to beat myself up over. One more thing for my internal tyrant to tell me that I really was garbage and not worth much at all. I didn't smoke because there was just a glimmer that I was more than a cigarette. More to me than being just some schmuck doing the charlie potatoes shuffle slouching toward my next smoke and the next thing to hurt myself and my opinion of myself. Fuck that."

The FOX is still roaming free, and Now that it is cold outside I am glad I don't have to go freeze my ass off to feed the demon.

Good job Grumpy, you are totally over the "hump" as for being grumpy, embrace that shit....

I'm proud to say that I am a grumpy old fuck and I like it!!

I am quitting tonight, this is my last day. Any advice besides cold turkey? how long do the withdrawals last? (I have been smoking 2 packs a day for the last 30 years)

Read carr's book

The first three days are the hardest

Drink cranberry juice

:)

Go for it, have juices, snacks, gum ect. handy. Try a mouth full of a cranberry type drink to ease the urge. Stay busy, avoid arguments, drinking beer ect. Drink lots of water, eat lots of fruits. Withdrawals are the worst the first 3 or 4 days, urges go on much longer. Determination and will power are very much needed. You will find great support here in this thread, please share with us how you are doing and just talk to supporters here. Many here will stand with you. DF

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Friend, How are you making it? Hope it is getting easier. DF

4 days no smoke, 2 cigs in one day, 2 days no smoke, 2 cigs today.

i dont think i can do it without some nicotine replacement. i'm a chump ass failure

Salt, you are not a failure.
You are just human.
Now get back on the horse.

Just because you had two doesn't make it a failure. That's that old "all or nothing" thinking thing. Just get back on the horse. Take cranberry juice in your canteen.

I did the same thing but I managed to restructure my brain again to remind myself that a mistake doesn't mean the end of it all. I am on the patch though so maybe it made a difference.

You can do this!

So next. 3 days no smoke. Get there first.

thanks. i figure as soon as i get paid next week i am gonna get a small pack of nic gum for the intense cravings. they come mostly after i eat. that's when i have caved so far.

i refuse to give up. i'm really bored at the moment. its super cold and snowy out and i don't have work or school until after the 7th.

the last time i quit i never got as sick as i am getting this time. its like the room is tilted 90 degrees sideways and i want to hurl.

Not failure by any means. You are trying, that is not failure. Even if you do have weakness now and then, don't give up on your self. DF

Hello. First I just want to say congratulations to everyone who has managed to quit and also to those of you who have decided to choose to activate your power and release the addiction. Really good decision! I quit smoking in 2009 after 25 years of smoking and 17 years of addiction to smoking. Good luck to all of you. You can do it!

Not failure, just practice is all......

You can do it, heck I'll send you my box of patches if you want em

Keep trying, patience and perseverance are omnipotent

Salt. See. you can't keep doing this to yourself. You can't hurl forever you know. Now if bored you must take up knitting or something...

:)

You're not a failure.