I QUIT SMOKING , YOU CAN TOO. I QUIT SEPT 27, 2012, SUPPORT EACH OTHER HERE

I'm feeling really sad tonight. I don't know what is happening. I was reading about the insane things we smokers stooped to for our fixes. Reading all those stories just brought on this huge sadness in me. And I'm feeling a little weak in my dedication to never take another puff. It's almost like I can convince myself the whole thing is hopeless. Tell me it isn't. I've been 21 days... well... 12...

This is so weird.

Tell me to stop this nonsense!!! Other people have done it. I can do it. Why am I so sad? After all this time?

Aw, Grumps, that incredible sadness that can so move us from time to time. It seems to come from such a deep, deep, place. That darkness invisible. You are not alone.

I've seen you reach-out to others here and you have become as intregal to this thread as the GLP logo, the icons, and all the other essentials of this site/thread. But you are not an inanimate, albeit functional, object. You are the unique and wonderous you (certainly more than "grumps") and little by slowly you've given us the priviledge of seeing and knowing more and more of you. On this end, it has been an honor. I remember when you copped the clips and the ensuing number you did on yourself. I remember it clearly because it was like looking the mirror. You're not alone, Grumpy.

You've got people here who truly value you and don't want to see you hurting (although, it seems we tend to flick any genuine emotion off our radar as quick as a burning ember from our sleeve when we might be better served just to let the mother fucker burn). Maybe, the sadness isn't a bad thing. Maybe it's got to come out similar to the shit from the smokes - but far more true and real - and nic had to come out of us. Maybe, this time, for the first time, you ride-out that sadness, or anger, or moments of great joy, without trying to figure it out. Maybe we just let it come. Maybe we ride the tigers, Grumps. We may see they were only scary monsters in our minds,

Two things I know to be true. A cigarette will only misdirect the sadness and mask a very real feeling in a cloud of emotive and physical smoke. And the second thing I know is I'm glad we're becoming friends and caring about each other, Grumps. As my friend (should you have me), I want you warts, glory, fobiles, despairs, hopes and all. In short, I'd like my friend to be fully human (both vulnerable and strong) and courageous enough to walk through it all with the knowledge that you have pals at you side. You're too important to give-up, Grumps. Way too important (but, again, you've always known that, sister, now it's just remembering it when everything rises). A smokes not going to do a fucking thing except confirm all the lies we've told ourselves. Time to get messy, grumps. No polite nicities in the palor. As mentioned to DF, even if your ass falls off, you don't smoke. You've got a pal in me, Grumps.

It is all part of the the big quit, and you will get past it..... I still have the ocasional "rollercoaster" and it feels like a huge wave coming and there isn't a damned thing I can do to stop it. One it hits, it is no harder to control that the oddly timed urges to smoke. The key is to know them for what they are which, in my opinion, nothing more than your mind trying to fool you into smoking again

Don't let it happen Grumps, you got this and we got you!

This happened to me as well, find a distraction quick. It will pass, just don't give in to the demon. DF

Right on point as always, CHL. I ramble and you shoot a direct arrow of truth.

We're doing it - on many levels - CHL. Doing it well.

That's it Fox. Move a muscle, change a thought. Done with the Big Lie.

Please don't give up! I took my last puff in July. I smoked for twenty five years, and never thought I would be able to quit smoking. I am almost six months smoke free! If I can do it so can you!

I cried, threw temper tantrums, and sometimes thought I was losing my mind. Be patient, and remember that you are going to go through some changes both mentally and physically. You have made it this far, don't turn back now.

Aw Mac, you're the wordslinger of this thread, painting mental pictures with well planned and well placed words and phrases.
I'm a straight to the point sort of writer and person and both are equally succinct and valad ways to express thoughts, but sometimes my edges are little rougher......

In other words, I am always Frank ;)

23/12

I love you guys. I honestly do. I don't know you but do love you which when you think about it is really foolish but then I feel honestly surrounded by protection with you guys. You protect me from myself mostly... lol You are my friends. The internet sometimes is a sad thing because if you were all here I'd make a pot of tea.

I'm still smoke free.

Hanging on to sadness knowing it will pass now when it needs to. Maybe when I choose to. Who knows. At least I feel it. If you can be my friend, I can be my friend and stay smoke free. For once in my life maybe I can be on my own side for real and forever.

Today is actually a big day. Today is the day and this is your fault CHL, when i made it 12 days after my cheat. You said I'd make it 12 days the next time. You probably don't even remember that but for some reason I hung on to that number. And so I did. So I'm claiming back the other eleven days because I've earned it. Tomorrow I will have quit 24 days. :)

BxMac, Oh what a writer poet you are. A gift to us all. Did you know this? Don't ever leave us. Ever! I know you're always there and it keeps me strong because even us poetical types need predictability. Mind you, I never can predict what you're going to say but it always hits strong.

Desert Fox. You're so darn practical. Makes me laugh. Always just straight to the point. Never wrong. So far... :)

Locomotive and the rest of you. Thank you. You mean much to me.

I'm thinking of all of you who've quit on the 1st. Hang in there. Tomorrow is the third day and you'll survive. Apparently we do survive unless I'm writing from the Great Beyond. I don't think I am. But then, who knows anything really...

:)

Never take another puff. EVER!!! NEVER EVER!!!!

Day 2 tobacco free.

Using homeopathic stop it (smoking) for cravings, helps - taking valerian, kava kava, amino acids and gaba to keep nervous system calm. Resting, keeping on retreat from phone calls. emails, etc. Drinking pure Black Cherry Juice for sweet cravings.

Have an electronic if there is a point where I just feel overwhelmed by the urge for nicotine (can't stand the taste of the electronics).

Will start cleansing in a few days after resting.

Difficult to speak or interact with others as poor boundaries on my part was a stress trigger. Need to take care of me and strengthen boundaries, then begin to interact with others with stronger boundaries and greater consciousness at the end of my retreat.

Thank you for this thread to share my experiences which helps immensely.

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Hey salt, that's a good article. The thing I liked was the comments underneath. Here we are all dedicated to quitting but there you can read all the arguments back and forth and it starts to become clearer how we humans can rationalize anything!

Soujah! You're doing it! Yay for you!!!!

:)

Glad to have you join us, we are all pleased to see an addiction to our quitters club. I and many others here have proved that quitting has so many benefits that one must give it their best to quit. We will be monitoring your comments on my thread, and will give full support and info you need. DF

DF: "An addiction to our quitters club."

lol
:)

Little play on words,lol.

As a child I used to throw my parents' cigarettes in the toilet...and boy did I get my ass whopped after that, but in time they've accepted the fact that I couldn't stand that horrible smell and quit !

Of course when they separated 10 years ago, they both started smoking again but at least as long as I lived with them I wasn't forced to breathe that foul air !

IMHO no parent should subject his child to passive smoking !

New Year's Eve and Day smoke free. Been about 72 hours now. Had to do a whole bottle of champagne then hangover from that since I never drink. Thinking bout a toke or two but don't need it. My skin looks clearer and no more wheezing. I coughed at first but not at all now. I took a pain pill at bedtime and will repeat tonight. I think I'm done with the physical withdrawal. I read an article today that smoking actually makes stress worst. Helps to know that.

I totally agree with you. When I was younger and had a young daughter in the home, I smoked. She had horrible ear infections that the doctor told me was being brought on by my smoking in home. I stopped smoking inside and guess what, her ears were no longer a problem. Stupid me back then.

Quitting is like getting a divorce from your best friend. The urges to smoke will lessen with time and you need to find distractions during that time. You are probably just still mourning the loss. I would think to myself how nasty cigarettes smell and how it makes you smell like an ashtray.

Soon, you won't think about it as much and can hang around other people smoking. I would avoid hanging around smokers in the meantime.

YEA!! Yes, I saw it on Drudge and now a thread on GLP. I think the op of that thread is going to join us here as well. Keep up the good work friend, you will beat it. DF

How very true. DF

It's good you wised up in time ! :)

I for one hate smoking and would never touch those things !

Even at work, from a room filled with 200 people, I was the only one sitting alone at my desk on cigar breaks...lost a lot in my career cos of that and many people including my bosses told me to start smoking and "join the club" but I held my ground and told him I wouldn't touch those things with a 10 foot pole !

If I ever have a kid, I pray to God she/he won't smoke cos I dunno how I'd react to that, not good that's for sure !

SubZero - What the fuck are you adding to this thread?

You don't smoke, never did smoke, and, by your whiny, whinging, words, find them disgusting. Why then would you come to a quit smoking thread?

Your experience adds nothing to anyone attempting to quit.
Your self-righteous tenor (which you displayed earlier in another thread by Tex regarding nicotine) is extremely off-putting. Regarding the job you reference, I wouldn't be too sure you were sitting alone simply because you were a non-smoker (especially if you brought the same sanctionious shit to your interactions there).

So please piss-off and find some macrobiotic, self-obessed, small-minded thread to pontificate on. Wanker.

Easy big guy, don't get distracted buddy. DF

Sorry if my attitude offended you, I didn't mean to sound self righteous or anything I just told the truth about my experience with cigarettes !

But you seem to have a real anger problem buddy, chill out, it's not like I came to your living room to lecture you about smoking ! You can smoke until you cough out your lungs for all I care...but don't bite my head off for speaking against this vice !

You want someone to feel sorry for you ? To pat you on the back and say "you will quit someday", don't worry ? Is that the kind of attitude you expect from others ?

If that's the case than you have no willpower and will probably never quit smoking !

Looks like I offended a lot of smokers with my comments...sorry guys, not my intention !

Oh, my goodness. You really are as thick as you initially appeared. I usually suffer fools with great compassion. Self-righteous fools are another matter. More to be pitied than scorned. That you appear to be a small-minded twit is evident. That it wasn't your intent to offend here is bullshit. You're the kid who'd wave their arm furiously to get the teacher's attention to rat-out a classmate. You're the twisted kid who thought they were precocious when in truth they were simply obnoxious. I could go on (but pearls before the swine and all that), but I will cease. There's no anger, just a dismay that people like you feel they have to insert themselves into areas with no intent of contributing anything constructive (other than stroking their small, skidish, egos).

So, again, please (because we are in polite society here), in the name of all that's good and holy, take a flying fuck at a rolling donut and, again, piss-off you simple little pissant.