Just checking in...

I had a super messy meltdown this morning.

It () was u-g-l-y!

Thank God I have someone who loves me who knew that this kinda ugly was not who I usually am and was able to just grab me and hold me until I surrendered and began to have a good cry at my frustration around what was going on.

My work involves property management and I have a client that is high maintenance...kinda like wanting to be dug out already before 24 hours have passed with the Blizzard of 2013, 27 inches of snow on the ground and complaining....when I am completely powerless over the plowing situation.

It is difficult for me with this client because they are super demanding and want everything in that moment. This week is something new. If given the time to contemplate the solution, I can come up with one where everyone comes out feeling like a winner.

The intensity of the tone of demanding and the unrealistic expectations left me strung out emotionally this morning after dealing with the issues for about 6 hours yesterday. When a new issue with the same person came up this morning...ooooh, it was as Mrs. G of New Orleans would say, "MESSY".



Here's the most important thing - I really wanted to smoke, oh yeah, it would have been a real doozy to sit there with a cig and think about all my resentments and justify my meltdown, ad nauseum.

I didn't fall into the trap... I didn't smoke, got about 48-49 days, just for today.

Thanks for listening...

oneLOVE

soulJAH