the only reason I can think of that you may have ascertained this is I am in an intense period of soul searching and reflection of myself my friends , life , family and situations. What to keep and what to let go of , in fact I feel quite the opposite in my heart I am probably more truthful with myself at this point in time than I have ever been. I know I have made mistakes in life and am taking different paths and roads and trying to correct and keep from making those mistakes again. But Thank you for your input it is greatly appreciated and I will certainly keep pondering to see if there is any truth to what you say .