I was with my exgf for 3 1/2 years. We split up last new years, and this whole year has been us playing tag, and avoiding eachother, becuz when we do see eachother, its on!

I'm moving out of state this week, and i feel like i must see her, for good or ill.

My life is in shambles, havent had a job since may, couch surfing, my old place got ransacked and robbed and burned down by ex landlords, destroying and stealing whatever posessions i had left..

I'm moving away to try and start something new, in Chattanooga TN where i know not one single person..

I fell in love with sufi islam a few years ago, and have spent this whole year trying to up my positive vibes and trust that the natural order will take care of me, as long as i take care of myself.

Spiritually, I'm richer than i have ever been. But i have not had a dollar in like 6 months.
Emotionally I'm a wreck, lonely, repining over lost love..

I dont know what to do.. Any advice from anyone?