Matrix News Updates, 2012

You should write a book about this stuff :)

The narrow gateway of "The Middle Way" - the way of being which is neither polar extreme, yet all inclusive...

The way of balance which this reality pushes us towards...

From a higher perspective - we rub our faces in shit and mud, so we may know the gravity of balance - first hand - what happens when?

In the long run, this planet worth of hardship - will result in a galaxy's worth of empathy and understanding - like an exploding planetary seed pod - this is key IMO...

The narrow path is the same as the middle way...

The eye of the needle, is when we embody our best, fullest self possible IMO - rather than being on the downward slide of consciousness dropping/learning/growing - we tip the balance where we're being pulled-up/growing the other direction - all matching our way of being...

We pass through the eye of the needle along the narrow way - when we've exhausted this level of consciousness, in all varieties, and we have achieved balance - no more conflict - it is not naturally selected to repeat the same evolutionary cycles when the possible data has been exhausted...

The passage which leads out of this universe (apparently ;P) is only reachable in a state of exhausted possibilities and balance...

We are like a void, we are void of the dramas, void of conflict - yet we are also eternal potential unfolding - it is as though we move beyond the dramas/conflicts (void) and then we arrive upon the shores of eternity as our fullest self - this is the ideal position to reintegrate our grander portions of self - as well to reintegrate this embodied persona/set of experiences into our full self - could you imagine a better circumstance of reunion?

If there were i's left undotted, or t's left uncrossed - who would "keep you here"? Our fullest self would keep us in here because we haven't gotten everything out of it yet...

Yes, the demiurge is an active force, but the primary reason we stay is because on a fuller level we KNOW there is more to be experienced...

But yes, eventually, there is truly no water to be squeezed from the rock - there are no more experiences left to exhaust - no conflict remains - into the void we go - like an alchemical separation/refinement process - what else remains EXCEPT for the shores of eternal life - what else was life leading up to? Preparing us for this whole time? EXCEPT for the mannerisms, balances and considerations necessary which lead into eternal life?

What has designed the specifics of this life? The considerations? The balances? Except for the standards of eternal existence - I can not determine another influence which would result in such a specific, elaborate and sophisticated experience - except for eternal standards and super-consciousnesses of cosmic influence...

Should we assume this was all for nothing? From my experiences - it's just the opposite, this has been leading up to EVERYTHING...

I asked the question, on the other side, "What happens next?" The answer I received: "What if you and your friends could go anywhere and do anything?"

It still surprises me how difficult it is to attempt and answer that question, as though we have been lab animals which have never known anything except the cage and the experiment...

But that verges on overly emo, lol, truly this is the grandest most worthy experiment, not even an experiment, the workings and growth of divine existence itself, I am truly honored and humbled to acknowledge this from the inside...

There is something in the air...

When we can take 12 steps back, feel into the world objectively, take no notice of any dates, no alignments, and feel the world...

There is an underlying intensity which continues to grow, which is being doubted and ignored - out of insecurity...

Nature itself is also showing this same "vibe"...

What if life goes on as normal? Yet normal gradually, seamlessly, becomes different...

Things are shuffling and influencing each other more quickly than before...

The feeling where each day feels like it's almost too much to handle, evolution itself stacking higher demands and pushing us further than yesterday, allowing enough of a breath so we can take on twice as much next time...

Some would say this is how life works, yet the intensity of this growth feels like more than normal, and the world around us is reflecting this at multiple levels...

Is there a peak or will this grow and grow?

Is there any turning back?

maybe we have entered a peak in a superconductive state...who knows when it will be broken, and what would happen after.

something has to happen soon.

And as our solar system adjusts - the earth adjusts - and we adjust right along with our environment...

What else can we do - except adapt and change right along with everything else?

And from the looks and feel of it - the earth/solar system *are doing everything they can - to make the adjustments as seamless and smooth as possible...

Yet when you sit in silence, stop your mind chatter, you can feel this growing intensity - it feels purified, subtle, yet intense - intensely intense, yet also stable - just on the verge of instability...

Can you feel it?

I don't care the face of it - will we fight or resolve?

Resist or embrace?

Condemn or understand?

As long as we hate, ridicule, blame - we take the back seat.

I'm not talking about new age crap either - I'm talking about being the bigger person who is willing to understand duality - empathize with darkness - know the roots not the face...

Such a way of being is possible, one who loves unconditionally, yet is not a doormat, one who defends themselves respectfully - yet does not slam the door closed.

When you can embody this balance - that force which you term "beast" will scatter from you - you have no footholds, you insist on co-respect - even if this means defending yourself - yet the door remains open as we treat others as we would wish to be treated if you too were a "beast"...

I've been surprised while traveling beyond this reality, into worlds of brilliant light and of wicked, wicked darkness - even in the depths of darkness - you can bring light - I've told jokes and made evil looking things crack-up - I've asked them "why are you so desperate to use fear against me?" They will scatter to avoid any further contact - or, as in one particular case, they respond: "No one has ever asked me that before..."

Not a single one is lost forever, offer a helping hand instead of a backwards fist...

I know it's scary sounding but it's true.

Don't take my word for it you'll discover the same thing yourself one lifetime or another.

I was in "heaven" once, and I called them out, lovingly though, but still irritated, I demanded they reveal their true form to me.

They had the robes, golden pearly gates, clouds made of rainbows and white light - those are passive aggressive red flags, why are they trying to make a vain impression?

They tried to tell me I was Jesus, didn't fall for the ego trip, called them out we are all equals growing, there is no single Christ, in fact the chosen one ism has caused lots of problems.

They were shocked... Poof they were gone, except one stuck around, his robe was now brown, he was longer a muscular pristine white monk, but now a worried and desperate middle eastern bald man.

"Heaven" was now a dark brown and purple murky cavern if dim light...

He offered me great wealth if I would take him on as a spiritual adviser and give him a chance to explain himself.

I told him he just revealed himself further, why would he have anything to do with earth money? He looked shocked and had nothing to say.

I told him nice try and he should get going and he dissipated.

There's a lot of domains between here and outside this universe, and it's trickier than just listening to the goodness of your heart...

The Sacred Secret is “Christ in union with you; the hope of His glory.” which is In union with you as “The Christ within you or as the Christ that dwelleth in you.” “ its THe Sacred Secret that was hidden from the nations in the past has been revealed to you. Paul was a Hebrew and he was also a Jew. It’s very important to know who Paul is. It’s not a literal person. It’s a gnostic school of thinking, it’s esoteric wisdom. Whoever it was, it may have been a bunch of guys, it may have been a school, it may have been Apollo, because that’s what it means. There are four castes according to the freemasons. We live under a free masonic system whether you like it or not. According to this system, there are four spiritual castes of humanity. There are Hebrews at the top, and there is a caste above that – it’s called the Kelios, the perfected ones, and there are very, very few of those. And then the Jews, and then the Israelites and guess who’s way, way down at the bottom? The Christians. They’re the foot soldiers. “Off you go to war. We will make the uniforms as we’ve done before.” It’s not a race, it’s a caste. Paul was a Hebrew and a Jew but he was not aware of the Telios rank above him but he was definitely one of these free masons who knew the Secret Science. And the Sacred secret is the Christ within, not the Christ without because there never was one.


There was never a 3rd party savior. That was an invention of Rome. That’s a 3rd party debt collector (through tithing the church). The justice system, when they herd you into court for their inquisition, they love the bible. It will enslave you or it will free you and they use it for enslavement. They use it for their god, Saturn, and that’s why they want you to swear on the bible because they’re going to get you with it. They know the esoteric, historical Christ, the 3rd party debt collector, is the one who they swear on to collect all of their taxes and their “donations”

The moon is the church and she turns humans, literally, into animals because she is the guardian of the first ring, the first heaven and when our soul seeks to ascend (it’s not the rapture that the Christians are talking about, ascension is within. When the soul seeks to ascend, the moon is the first guardian and then there’s second heaven and Mercury guards that heaven..,. and then Venus, the Sun, Mars and then Jupiter, the “good Jupiter” and then Saturn. They are the rings that which our soul departs from on back to Uranus, the Father of Saturn. Back to the heavens whence we came. But the moon, she’s down at the bottoms and she’s bouncing souls back to the Earth as animals, literally. Some of them incarnate as human beings but inside they are still, what the hermeticists call “unconscious human beasts” and these are the ones running around… the politicians, lawyers, judges and all of these scum of the earth. They operate a system that is putrid, evil, vile and foul and it’s about to be pulled down by consciousness. They’re criminals and in the churches, they’re doing the same thing. The church is turning those church-going buffoons that go to church for Jesus, the historical 3rd part debt collector and the savior that will never save because they don’t know the Sacred Secret that Paul was talking about which is the Christ within.

Itsall about the body and brain. for instence under the inner cerebrum is the colostrum, otherwise known as the Holy colostrum because it secrets a fluid. Secretion and secret are the same word. The fluid goes through the pineal gland and the pituitary gland and differentiated into an electrical force. There are three nerves which go down the spinal column and they are the spinal cord, the pingala and the ida. The pingala comes from the pineal gland and it is electric and male and it goes down the spinal cord.
On the other side is the pituitary gland, it is feminine and it is “Mary”… “Jospeh and Mary, the honey and the milk because they secrete honey and milk, respectively. She sends down a magnetic energy. The fluid goes all the way down to the sacral chakra, the second bottom chakra, below the solar plexus. Sacral is the word secret and the secret is upstairs in heaven, in the cerebrum, the holy colostrum, or in other words, the Santa Colos-trum and you’ve got to go all the way down the chimney to bring the present down to the sacred place where the sacred plexus is connected to the five sacral bones of the 33 vertebrae.

There are 5 sections of the vertebrae. The second most bottom section is 5 fused vertebrae called the “sacrum vertebrae”, so this is the “Sacred Secret”. Every 29 and a half days, the moon will be in the sign that your sun was in when you were born. When the moon is there, in that fluid there is a seed born and it’s born in the solar plexus So every month, when the moon is in your sun sign, that “germ” is placed in Bethlehem. Bethlehem is the solar plexus. It’s the Virgo in the 3rd chakra, the solar plexus, the belly region. That’s Bethlehem, the house of bread. Virgo is the one who has the sheath of grain in her hands. Beth means “house” and lehem means “bread”. She is the virgin mother of the child, that seed that is born in the solar plexus every month. If we eat the fruit, drink alcohol or have sex during that time of the month, the seed is wasted, gone forever. The male with the orgasm has just wasted the seed and he has spoiled that Christos secretion that came from Santa Claus, the colostrum, differentiated by the two parents of the child, Joseph and Mary who are awaiting the return of the Christ. If you don’t waste that Christ seed, you are able to then transmute that seed as it proceeds ever upward and returns whence it came.

What happens eventually is this fluid comes to a place called the pons and the medulla oblongata, which is one of the four brains of the human being. We have the cerebrum, cerebellum, medulla oblongata and the solar plexus. When it arrives there, it crosses the pneumogastric nerve: pneumo menaing air, or the lungs and gastric is the stomach. So this is the nerve that supplies the stomach and the lungs. If you look at it, it looks like a tree. And both of those nerves come from the pineal gland and the pituitary gland in one of the four chambers called the four ventricles in the brain. In between those two glands is the optic thalamus.

When the oil rises… the mercury in the thermometer… and it passes the pneumogastric nerve, it gets “crucified”. Joseph and Mary are happy that their son is crucified because unless he is crucified, he cannot save the world. You cannot be saved unless that oil touches the optic thalamus, which is shaped like an egg. The Greeks called it, “the light of the world”. That’s why Jesus said, “I’m the light of the world. No one goes through the father except through me” because the Father is the Cerebrum and we are longing to return to that part, to ascend. Because Aries dwells there, Aries is the right brain; Taurus is the left brain, the cerebellum. The medulla oblongata is the 3rd brain and the bottom brain, the solar plexus, is where most of humanity is still dwelling because they can’t get past Bethlehem. They can’t save that seed because they have been living riotously like the Prodigal Son and squandering that seed like Onan, the son of Judah… the son of Israel did with his seed and he was killed for it.

For we are the Holy land