Yes, I am pretty stable. Most of my problems relationship problems from my insecurities. I believe I am "good looking". But when I was little I was over weight and was teased very much and I also had a speech problem with my S's. Today I am not over weight by any means and I don't have that speech problems, other than my voice isn't very loud and I tend to mumble sometimes. Interesting enough when my parents bought me a puppy I wanted to name him mumble and I didn't even know why. My parents probably knew I said mumble and thought I said Mambo and thought it was a fantastic name lol.
Anyways I am working out very efficiently (eating right, HIIT training,walking on the treadmill if I'm on the computer which is a lot, resistance training) and and I am seeing the results pretty quickly. I guess it is.. if I can't love myself how do I expect to love others. All this I'm doing is just to better myself and I know letting something bother me like that is childish but its something I feel I must do.

But I'm trying to grasp is the synchronicities I am becoming aware of in this whole process.