I never get a break. I truly hate my life fully. My heart has been broken way to many times.

Dude Yosemite??? Why? That place is bad ass

Yeah dude I feel u

Stop being a faggot OP. You just have to realize life is full of BS ALL AROUND YOU, and the only way to fight this is BS is to say fuck it and carry on, like some bad-ass man with no name from a Kurosawa or Clint Eastwood movie or some shit.

Not pushing anything, but feel your pain.

The instruction manual for what you seek does exist.

Blessings to you.

Are you Rodney Dangerfield ?

Absolutely agree. Every night I go to sleep and hope I never wake up. hope the world just ends.

And then I wake up pissed. Incompetent world enders.

Sick of them making money of the casino of pain.

That is all it is. Its like play your monopoly game elsewhere earth is fried to a crip.

why is it so hard for me to carry on ? Everything I ever loved is gone or taken from me. Im not a faggot dude I cant do it. Im a good person. I belive in karma and this shit is not right. I am a really cool person and really good looking and i still get treated like shit like a game. im so done with it the world is FAKE. everytime i do good and try it doesnt matter. I just want love. Ive been alone my whole life. Please

Been there. You are letting love destroy you instead of invigorate you, perhaps that is your lesson? Instead of leading a path of self-destruction because of love that has been lost, why not let it light a fire in you that you carry with you everywhere you go? The love of my life got married and I know that I will never be able to feel that deeply about anyone else, but I will not let it kill me. Instead I will transmute that love and let it work for myself and others.

I may sound like a hypocrite as I am about to go get a 750mL of whiskey and drink alone and watch some movies, but I know these words are true, you just have to act upon them.

Eh you are a homo. You don't want to be alone, boo hoo. But do you know the converse entails????? You have toe deal with a bunch of fucking knuckleheads all your life and all the time. Trust me bro, that's a LOT fucking worse.

fuck it

love yourself

i dont give a fuck I deserve it damn it. your the fucken faggot i earned this shit. Im a catch son. bitches want me. thats not the point. bitches throwing out the L word is the fucked part. said she was a down to earth real ass person then isnt like cmon now. why waste my time seirously

Fuck off, assholes like you do NOT help. Ffs....but yea anyways OP welcome to my reality. Sometimes I feel like I get overwhelmed to the point where I just wanna say fuck everyone. Ever see the movie Chronicle?

na hes right in a sense. but he doesnt know the whole story. why waste my time tho this bitch why WHATS THE POINT

Oh GAWD...

Pride

Sloth

mostly

I do help. Faggots like you are enabler into self pity and despair.

I'm trying to tell you, you have to realize this is is all faggotty BS nonsense. And once you realize that, that's the only chance of breaking out of this faggoty BS nonsense.

When certain types of people sense you wanting to relate in a loving way it makes them angry.
Mainly because they do not have it to give.
The realization of their own poverty makes them angry and the way they process that is to attack you.
To blame you for wanting human connection.
You cannot change them. You can realize that it is not you and stop beating yourself up because they are like they are.
You really need to figure out how to find like minded people, it is not easy.
You cannot wear your heart on your sleeve because its like waving red in front of a bull.

quit. yer. job.

"psychostoner"

I think there is a clue as to why you are the way you are.

Yeah chill with a nice bottle of nissley rhapsody in blue have a dutch grapefruit cheeseball (32 seconds maybe. )
someone can watch the film and then coldwell banker comes.

No. Problems couldn't be outside of oneself. No. Never happens.

In order to become a loving person, you must first learn to love yourself. You must practice on the one closest to you by acquiring and applying great knowledge. Exactly how do you expect to love anyone, when you don't even know what love truly is?

Selfish love is not love, it is merely a construct of the ego. Your mind is telling you what you need and as a result you have been thrown into despair. Do not listen to the mind, it is not the true gauge of the world. If you truly feel love for somebody, I'm talking genuine love not the "I love you because I need you" love, you would realize that love expects nothing from the other person. Love is a gift, when we give gifts we expect nothing in return.