Howcome I am feeling an incoming sense of total joy and love?

and others seem to be expecting the contrary? i keep reading people on here say "i feel it coming soon" and its always ominous and bad/terrible.. why do i feel excited and wait in anticipation? such polar opposites of sensation and i wonder why. anyone have any ideas? could each of us be choosing which universe/dimension we are setting off to. perhaps if you wait in anticipation of doom, you simply manifest it and i, i will be a hologram in that dying universe.. while my true self continues onward into harmony.. and you are a hologram in my universe... maybe we are all holograms to each other seeking the real self, or the one that died in some ancient past. perhaps this is what the ancients meant by having to earn your soul, or find it... and why so many are fixated with finding their soul mate.. just musing.