So why bother right? That is the question that keeps me up at nights, and drives me through the hard days. I've experienced pain and loss on a scale greater than most, but not greater than all.

Point of view seems to be important in the scale of humanity and our choices. Yet as wise as I am, Nobody will listen to me, or heed my wisdom. So I mostly choose to be sarcastic about things, or tell people the exact opposite of what I really think is going to happen. In the hopes that somehow, someway, I can get through to them. You know, reverse psychology. Turns out that doesn't work very well either. As far as me, things are going alright, I have no major major problems, I mean sure shit sucks but I'm making it through. I have food to eat, a bed to sleep in, this computer, internet access, entertainment, I work for money, I have thoughts though, thoughts that cannot be understood unless you can reach the same perspective as me. And in the same regard, maybe I cannot understand you without reaching the same perspective as you.

So every night as I goto sleep, I wish that I could understand you, perceive your life and your choices, understand why you do what you do. So that I can help you. And then when I do, when I can, understand you, and I try to help you, you disregard my wisdom and you make the choice you were going to make anyway.


So where am I going with this? Well this has me questioning free will. Is ANYONE here truly free anymore? Or are you just doing whatever you were already going to do. Do you follow? You need to be adaptable to any situation, be willing to change at a moments notice, go with the flow more, but also decide more on which path to take. There is a balance between free will and predestination and until you can find it you will continue to remain a zombie, just some faceless thing walking around, getting in my path when I goto the store for some groceries. You are going to be a waste of space and air. Please become free like me, please take back your life and your choices. Find the balance in your life, as I find mine. Together we can win.