Well, I failed. I got such a shock!! I'm very serious I almost had a heart attack. I feel like an idiot now knowing more. I can't believe I couldn't handle it. I want to understand. Quoting: Theo (Sophia) 28255692
ok, can you ground your self at a level of consciousness which is above good/evil polarity? (i.e. buddhic plane)
[link to frcmh.tripod.com
Hi, I just read your link and all what was written on it. Did you read my posts?
To answer your question - I can at times and in a general explanation it would be AS IF I am 2 in one.
(I must ask of anyone reading now to not judge my choice of terminology on the experiences I'm trying to share, do not over analyze, it's hard to find the right words here, see it as analogies and don't use your intellectual left brain judgement and structure, thanks.)
I can "be here and now" in my body, mind and spirit, walk around, do things, interact, but simultaniously I do have a "higher view" or vision and insight that constantly "talks" to me (not as in hearing voices, it's instant KNOWING) like antennas or feelers or, if I would use computer language - inside of me, the psychic "Gift"/"Curse" is that search engine spiders are constantly collecting information in from "The All" - and it streams into my 3D "normal" (or "crazy") self and I have fought very hard to accept and handle this.
The stroke of insight or just plain "knowing" comes in symbols (I'm right brain lobe dominant) and in other ways, to me it's been simply like a medium, I just know...
So - let's say I walk down the street, and information comes in the form of random "ideas"/images or "thoughts" - but before I used to be attached to it and didn't realize I was over sensitive or a super empath, so my mood could alter just by walking by someone, or a place didn't feel right and I felt literally sick.
I've tried to find information about being paranormally gifted empath, and how to deal with it. I have had to isolate, or get pissed drunk when I go out, since I felt it would numb me - but lately it seems I can see even more - and it's as if the veil is thinner and it scares the living hell out of me.
It's also hard to go above Buddha mode being surrounded by Agent Provoateurs that do all they can to target me with false or faked theatres and psy ops, but I filter that out mostly now - I used to be very open hearted and extremely loving, wanting to heal and fix and save everyone - til I realized most was vampires, have dysfunctions or a disorder making them extremely self serving and abusive.
So, I can be "here" and interact, and I can register "other things" now without and handle it a bit better - I don't like though why it happens, it used to almost drive me insane thinking I made it happen.
I've talked to a member that participated in Project StarGate - [link to psychicwarrior.com
and it helped me understand.
I'ts horrible at times, and that makes it extremely demanding to fight so hard to force myself not to pay attention to screams or signals that demand all my attention away from something I might be doing. I've tried to find help in how to turn it off. I've prayed, I talked to priests, I've been reading books, watching films, visited mediums etc - but I can't stop it.
I don't do drugs or numb myself, I try to detox and eat lot's of very healthy things, water and so on.
But it's hard.
I don't think there's not anything I've tried. But we are in a war here, it's a spiritual war and the attacks are on all fronts, and it's body, mind and spirit. This would demand a warrior spirit, to survive.
You must understand. I hope you respect that I'm telling the truth here, without being a whiny self-important or self pitying victim. It's fact.
It's not easy to go into a calm state of mind - and stay there, when you are having extreme physical pain (medical condition having to do with the nervous system) as well as being harassed, stalked and violated and mind fucked with.
But the times I manage to "Get there", I feel very good, and it's easier to detach myself from this world and it's shitty fucked up conflicts and insane people and their screwed up personalities and disgusting evil manors.